The sound of nothing , is something that happens . We are not speaking about silence but about something great that occurs . I have always thought and felt this life experience as if being thrown into a laboratory , a distant even , a distant alien experiment deep into a void of repeated endless layers and layers of death and monstruousity . And they call this life . Let me telly you my experience . There was a period when I had a saying to cover up all that i was going through and it wasnt I but life . And it said , “ Nothing I do has any consequence “ , because even in the literal form of its meaning , it was as if i could not do anything and that lead to do something which also had no consequence . But this doesnt define the condition of nothingness , it is rather something more superior that of nothingness , more extravagant and unimaginable . There , is , a way in here as this , that beats anything you could have been used to know that could happen , and that is the way of nothingness . It has been detected when you talk to someone but there is no consequence , when you go out there but there is no one to be found , when whichever you choose to be or to do changes nothing . Silence is sacred , silence then is a great war that has been made and someone won , and whoever did is sharing it with you , maybe you destroyed the poor or the needy or stepped on a whole nations participation , and now there is silence , this is not the best way of its sacredness but as in being sarcastic i am telling the true story , there wouldnt be anything sacred here in this life except without war , because apparently , the lab , is also being used from a second party to create the opposite of the purpose of what the lab and its objects are being tested for . This bad scientist seems to have interfered also deep within the way of this life , and it could also partially be responsible for the nothingness , you the objects are the main tool , you are being used beyond your status and in the end , you will pay the price . I have seen that when i opposed this nothingness the objects have started to behave as a weapon , which is a manner of a bigger move than what of the objects them selves are places to go through in the laboratory . And apparently opposing nothingness is any behaviour thought feeling that tends to direct the laboratorium experience toward SELF . I am remains and continues to remain a great activity superior than the activity that contains you inside the lab . I have noticed that the one who had placed me in this laboratory didnt whatsoever mind at all , if i used the laboratory if i walked if i lived and if i observed and learned my self into this , but the bad scientist with the nothingness agenda , DOES . Big time . Although I suggest everyone that it all comes with a twist , because since this a physical chemical spacial experience , neither does harm remaining nor extending the war to be let to BE , because there will be consequence . Time will end , matter will shift , there will be death and life again . And I dont ever think any will ever escape this , the experience inside something will always continue , and whichever level we go , we will always be into something . There has never been any freedom to be known except that of being happy in the way we are enslaved . But for the smallest ways , I have seen that there was made a great war against . Say I want peace , freedom to be and to be of my own consequence , I want silence , I want to scream , I want the basics , for this I have faced dragons a whole army of an appropriation of a human appearance , and extent chasing to be forced into a slavery that does not do anything for me and that will bring it all over to nothingness or an absurd abuse till i die in many ways such as are nightmares . So what is one to do , now there is a creator and an opposition of that , both try to imply authority , one fulfills his own greatness into me , the other applies with greatness against me . I have never found the answer , what is an experiment supposed to do and when is it enough ? I might have concluded only to one result and it doesnt seem by any parameters to make any good sense , and what do we know it is good , by consequence by the way we are set up inside . Now this result doesnt compare equally to what we are and the good consequence that we expect , that result would be , do anything and everything for as long as you are let to do . But this would change the whole matter of seeking and being , it would be above and beyond your limits and it would be above and beyond your seeking and good consequence that you are to be and have at the first place that you were put here for . And I have studied and I have thought and I have killed my self to find a way , a way out of this or into . But I havent found it . And to a degree , the answer i have for this lack of definition , the mistery the unwritten and the untold , the fact that anything can happen the very path of this screams , test . So here we go again , all there is about this life and even our own can be defined by the very beginning of the problems equation , the question is the answer . Its a test , and the parameters the place have no absolute meaning of relation , the test and where it is happening , has little to do with who it is happening to , therefore we arent related to the conditions and the place , as much as we are related to the test it self . The meaning has more importance than the matter it is brought to happen in and on to . Existence ? Not at all , this is something unknown and extraordinary , although we know everything already we know nothing , although we are it , I am still an idea . The very set up is so great but i feel too small , and even if i am small the consequences are great . So to be very true with you , each and every apparently have no meaning and experience together in this , each one is another idea and it comes with power and a different source and destination , so this is the next greatest BOTHER , all the objectified around me , are not me . And God knows what they are because its many and much more . So we have another result that seems to be the beginning also , the beginning because this is that weights the most , I am alone . And all I have is this challenge in whatever form and weapons as creatures , and I have the Creator and his ways and Angels , apparently the messiah too , which i was baptized for . So apparently I know plenty about this , but still I feel too little for all this . That is the way of nothingness , when nothingness goes not only through and over tries also to get inside you . So much is becoming bigger , and I am coming undone . But you never know , after all is not my laboratory and i am not even of my own
