f r i d a l i n d q v i s t

Bellamy Blake

That line is really interesting to me. Why is no-one talking about this?

This mentality and defense that this person is who he’s always been and that he let others change him well it all goes back to Season 1 doesn’t it. (I would  like to take the time to say that though he uses this as a defense it does not justify actions) 

This right here is how Bellamy see’s himself. When he looks in the mirror. When he thinks of the person that he is and the decisions that he makes. When he’s trying to fight his demons away.   And want to know something really funny and tragic? He NEVER stopped seeing himself like this. 

Regardless of how much Octavia loved him. Regardless of Kane’s growing approval, respect, and admiration. Regardless of the fact that Clarke needed(’s) him. But I do think he allowed himself for a little while to believe that maybe these people were right. Maybe there was something good (Like Kane) and kind (Like Clarke) and brave (Like Octavia) inside him all along. 

But then Mt. Weather part 2 happens.   

And here it is. The beginning of reverting to the belief that he’s a monster. That what these people call him hero, leader that it’s all a god damn sham, a charade. Because how did anyone expect a monster to save lives when they can only take? How did they expect a monster to heal when it can only destroy? 

Honestly I think Bellamy Blake hates himself more then any of you ever could.  And that’s heart breaking to me. 

Bellarke reunions in season 3 so far

“I need you.” 01x08 // 03x05