no thought is less important than the next!!

Anxiety is a horrible thing I feel as if I don't remember anything, anxiety comes with so much fear how can I keep fighting this thing that keeps telling me I'm going to die in my ear, anxiety comes with so much pain chest head arms legs I don't know when it's real or when it's all in my head, anxiety makes me feel as if I can't breathe although I'm taking breaths this smothering is real and killing me, anxiety is such an ugly thing is everyone staring at me? Better yet let's just leave, anxiety is often not alone it's friend depression makes me not want to get out of bed take a shower or eat anything, I make plans I want to go out, but by the time it's time I won't leave the house, so I call, and I cancel you're tired of excuses, anxiety is tough to deal with so please don't pass judgment and just let us know your there because as hard as this is for you to watch listen or see because it seems like I'm on repeat just know this, it's so much worse for me.

My house is so loud i can't hear my self think, but I love seeing the smiles on my children face, toys are taking over well they already have, but my kids are happy and are not sad, my sink is full every day over and over, but these kids sure aren't hungry, my bed is a king, but just about every night I feel like I have less room then I would on a dog bed to sleep, but my kids were not scared when they closed there eyes, these kids are hyper and sure are loud, but I don't want to remember a quiet house.

Everyday disappointment gets stronger, every day we get let down a little more, every day with the same sad faces, every day we hope for things to change, change your name it won't change your family, change your life they will drag you back in, change your city over and over. With every move, you end up right back with them, them the family you do love, but with them, your life will always replay nothing will ever get better because with them, nothing will ever change, and everyday disappointment will get stronger.