You're beautiful, never forget!

I have no one to talk too. My last friendship has become so one sided Im not even a person in it.I only exist when a problem arises in the life of my “best friend” we have been best friends for over 8 years and its tough to let that go but, its time, its not fair for me to settle for a friend who won't be there for me the way I've been there for her. not saying she owes me but, when I go through things, theres no care, its just what happened now, and not taking me or my issues serious whereas all her minor problems I've taken serious until i stopped because, there was nothing reciprocated. what is the point in staying when I reached the point in not talking or expressing myself, where I feel so unimportant every time I do, and I apologize for ranting because Im so used to keeping it all in I feel stupid for letting it out. I don't understand why others can't be genuine back. why do you make excuses to not do things with me but, do them with others? that has been a theme in all relationships in my life and no one will tell me, why they won't do things with me. I just want someone to explore with, enjoy with, instead of always doing it alone, but no one will. i get excuses to see them do it later with others. Im just tired. I want a real friend, a real relationship, real people. who will love me and care for me.