Yaoi Goddess

First and foremost, to any followers of mine/readers of my thoughts who encountered my last post and were concerned for my well-being, please ignore that post! I was not in a regular state of mind. My absence was due to an illness! The CIA has never captured me and my delusions of the CIA or the so-called "Organization" being "out" to capture or harm me in any way were exactly that - delusions! The CIA would never hurt a citizen, much less an innocent female civilian with a respectable job and family such as I, freaksnvans.

My (rational) hopes.

I am a I, first and foremost, hope sincerely that the mercenaries will find God. Killing is wrong, and they know that. Yet they choose to kill anyways. I do understand that the purpose of these characters is not for them to be good people, but the most fulfilling ending would be for them to find faith and make peace with their enemies. I would also like for Scout to stop swearing.

I'd also like for the Mercenaries to say they love the CIA. Any self-respecting Citizen of the United States of America supports the CIA.

My personal hopes.

My personal wishes for what would happen... there are many. I personally wish for Scout to be kicked off of the team altogether. He serves no purpose. Absolutely none. He is comparable to a hamster, a useless creature. I did not shed even a single tear when he died. In fact, it made me dislike him and Spy more. How could you ever be sad about Scout dying? Anyways, regarding Spy, I wish for him to return to his loving wife, or his not-so-loving wife, whichever of these you "headcanon" Scout's mother to be.

I Have Been Locked Inside Of The CIA's Torture Devices For God Knows How Long.

I believed that the Agents outside of my windows were delusions. I convinced myself that I was sane. They are REAL.

The Agents are real. I narrowly escaped from the CIA's grasp (see my last post where I detailed being captured by the authorities) but I was captured again. I will not disclose my method of posting.

Good question. To start my answer, in real life, I am also not fond of Germans, I hold the same contempt for Germans that I do with the rest of Europeans. Especially German men – German women are often beautiful, however, German men are like pests in the dating pool. However, I believe that everything else about Medic makes up for his Germanness.

I don't like how Medic is German. However, if he was a German woman, I would be absolutely down for that. Anyways, i don't like Spy because he is European – and has no redeeming qualities. Medic has all of the redeeming qualities. He is beautiful, he is strong (lugs around the medigun and the pack on his back every day, and runs with it too!), he is smart (a doctor – unlicensed, though, perhaps his genius was too great to be given a license for, as the story is unknown...) and he is funny, not intentionally, but with inadvertent goofiness that is most charming.

Spy, however, has nothing. Only negative qualities. He is French, skinny, annoying and a bastard. As many know, my opinions on Spy have been changing recently – but only because of my dream. That was a different Spy, I have realized.

Good morning, everyone! Last night, I had a wonderfully romantic experience. I mean, it was not real, I had a dream, but it felt despicably real. I cannot believe that the sands of such a beautiful vision could slip right through my fingers as if it were never there. You may be able to guess that it is about Medic, but it was also profoundly eye-opening and made me realize that I actually love Spy as well. I feel as if it was a prophecy foretelling what would happen when I awoke. If that makes sense. Anyways, do be warned that this story of the dream I had last night involves pregnancy. And birth. I haven't had kids in real life, so this was a very strange experience for me.

I had a dream that I was some sort of medical assistant serving Medic. Like a Nurse but not really, I could not call myself a nurse because I have never gone to medical school (I instead have a degree in philosophy) and thus calling myself a nurse or any other medical title would be impersonation and illegal, I believe. Anyways, he needed to test the pregnancy pen on me. It was wildly graphic. I don't even want to explain anything that happened in this dream here because that's personal information and I don't need little snot-nosed freaks in my asks making fun of me for my personal and intimate experience in this dream, but it was grotesque in a mildly enjoyable way.

Anyways, the dream time-skipped to nine months later, as I was pregnant, of course. I was giving birth to the Medic's daughter, I believe, it could have been a son. Or the child could grow up to be a they, I would not know. I am just trying to be inclusive. Please don't make fun of me. I will turn off my asks if I receive even one message regarding the gender of me and Medic's child. Anyways, I was giving birth and Medic was beside me holding my hand and it was extremely strenuous, as having a child would be, I imagine. Spy is beside me, holding my other hand and I look at him and he really trusts me! I could tell from his eyes that he really hopes I deliver this child safely!

He was beautiful. I successfully gave birth to Medic's child and it was such a beautiful moment, besides the part when Spy blew out his foul cigarette smoke on the baby. I hate him for that. But he does have a beautiful face, I must admit. Goodness. Please don't let me fall for a man who comes from Europe, and from France, no less. I don't like the French; if you know me, you know I don't like the French. So this is nothing short of disastrous. I would like to imagine that after the dream happened, me, Medic and Spy raised the child together. I will not include Sniper to satisfyingly make all of the support classes the fathers of my child because I don't like Sniper.

Do you mean IF they confirm HeavyMedic?

Well, I am personally able to separate between myself and Medic. I understand that Medic isn't real and canon is separate from what I would like to think of him. I'm not jealous of Heavy, in fact, I am happy for Heavy and Medic. I would like for Medic to be my husband, but I can enjoy both.

It is important to realize that your fictional husband slash wife slash otherwise favorite character and/or fictional partner in marriage is not actually real. It can be a bit too easy for people like me to become mentally unwell surrounding their character. I have a life outside of Team Fortress 2 and Medic, so I am mentally well enough to enjoy both me and Medic's marriage as well as Medic and Heavy's marriage.