Kenzi

I was riding the L today and it started picking up its pace rapidly. Typically I’d dig my nails into the skin of my palms preparing for the train to leap of the tracks just like the yellow line did months ago. Today, I let go. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes my lids merely draping over. I thought about whether or not it would hurt, If I were to die. In that moment it didn’t matter. Death would find me no matter how hard I try to hide behind each corner. It was all about the wait, would it take me in the night and grab my ankles as I shelter underneath my bed. Or would it find me now, on the L. It didn’t matter anymore for I would be found. There is peace within my realization for hiding has become unnecessary, I shall embrace death for its been with me since the beginning. An old friend I’ll walk with, hand in hand. I shall embrace death for I know it better than anyone else

can’t talk rn i’m going through a breakup i made up in my head