sydney

Hi all! My name is Sydney and I write SVU canons, one shots, and fics. I don’t have a set schedule of when I post, I just do so whenever I feel like it or whenever I have ideas. If it isn’t obvious, I only write about Sonny and Nick, and occasionally Elliot if I really feel like it, which is not often if I’m being honest. This is because I feel that I can connect with Sonny and Nick the most and I can best get into their mindsets, personalities and behaviors compared to the other men of SVU. 

Requests are open and encouraged! Please keep in mind when requesting, though, that I do not write any kind of smut or sexual activity! I am asexual and I get very uncomfortable with things like that. If you can’t accept or respect that, this definitely isn’t the place for you. Anything else is acceptable to request! 

Masterlist: 

Sonny Carisi 

“I Really Need You.”

“You’re My Favorite Girl.”

“You’re Lucky I Love You.”

“Welcome to the World.”

“Bounce From Your Knees.”

“Helpless.”

“Do Not Disturb.”

“Alive.”

“Anything.”

“Always.”

“Family.”

“Interrogate.”

“Confess.”

Nick Amaro

“Take Care of You.”

“Someday.”

“Numb.”

“Talk to Me.”

“Savior.”

“Gone.”

“Together.”

“Forever.”

“When You Get Home.”

Elliot Stabler

It was a Friday night and you had just gotten off of work. You ended up getting take out and making your way to the precinct to bring Nick some food. You expected him to be there until late in the night again as the squad is working a currently dead end case. However, when you arrived in the squad room, nobody was there except for Nick. He had case files spread out on his desk, and his attention kept going back and forth from his computer to the files, occasionally writing things down on a notepad.

“Hard at work there, Detective?” You asked.

Nick jumped, not knowing that anyone was there. He was relieved to see that it was you.

“Oh, Y/N, hey.” He spoke.

“Hi, love. I brought you some dinner,” You told him, setting down a bag of food on his desk and then kissing his hair. “I didn’t know how late you’d be staying tonight.”

Nick stood up out of his chair, kissing your cheek. “You’re the best. Gracias.”

“How’s the case going?” You asked.

Nick sighed. “Not good. We’re at so many dead ends, I don’t even know how to go about solving them. Everybody else has given up.”

“Maybe you should take a break, babe. Clear your head a bit.” You suggested.

“I can’t, I need to get somewhere with this case if nobody else will.” Nick insisted.

“Okay,” You threw your hands up in surrender. “I guess I’ll leave you to it then. Make sure to eat, please. I love you.”

Before Nick could respond, you saw Cragen open his office door, standing in the doorway.

“Amaro, go home. Get some rest. We’ll get a fresh start in the morning.”

“But Captain I -“

“Go home.” Cragen repeated.

“I will, I just have to finish these notes.” Nick told Cragen.

Cragen raised his eyebrows at Nick before going back into his office, closing the door.

You knew that Nick wasn’t going to go home right away like Cragen told him to. In cases like these, Nick would never quit, no matter what. He just said that he would go home to appease Cragen.

As you were about to walk away for good, you stared at Nick, his head buried into paperwork yet again. You really wanted him to take a much needed break and come home. And you knew exactly what to do to make that happen.

You walked back over to Nick, rubbing his shoulders from behind his chair. He didn’t lose focus completely, but you could tell that he was enjoying the massage. He relaxed into his chair, humming in pleasure, while still trying to pay attention to his work.

After a while, you stopped kneading into Nick’s shoulders, but your hands remained in the same spot. You bent down to get closer to Nick, whispering in his ear.

“I’m not wearing any underwear,” You smirked. “Just thought you’d like to know.”

Nick got goosebumps as he felt your breath in his ear. He turned around to look up at you, shock appearing on his face. He couldn’t believe that you would be so bold as to tease him like this at the precinct. Fortunately for him, nobody was around to see or hear it.

“Good luck on the case, Nicky. See you when you get home.” You called out, walking towards the exit.

Nick stared at you as you walked away from him, his head filled with thoughts of how you look under your pantsuit. The sound of your heels clicking further and further away brought his attention back to the fact that you were leaving. He quickly put all of the paperwork and case files away, grabbing his belongings and jogging after you.

Unfortunately for Nick, you were too far ahead of him and your car was already gone when he made it to the parking lot. He threw his things in the passenger seat of his car and made a beeline for your apartment. His only focus was getting home to you after the stunt you pulled on him.

When Nick arrived home, he went straight to the bedroom, knowing that you’d be there. While he had the right idea, you were actually in the en-suite bathroom, standing at the shower, in a satin robe, waiting for the water to heat up. Nick watched as you pulled the bun out from the top of your head, letting your hair fall down your back.

You turned around, knowing that Nick was standing in the doorway. You moved closer to him, untying your robe and letting it fall to the floor as you stood in front of Nick. He silently watched your every move, until you were close enough to touch.

“You care to join?” You asked, motioning to the shower.

Nick hungrily grabbed your face in response, kissing you while you helped him remove his clothes.

The two of you made way into the shower, still not breaking from the kiss. Nick pinned you up against the shower wall, water falling onto the both of you. He moved from your mouth downwards to your neck, kissing and sucking at your skin.

A/N: Part one here. Second part of the request from @mooneeeee ! I know that I said that there might be a part three to this but I think that I’m satisfied with just two parts, so I hope y’all still enjoy regardless! Song lyrics from Just A Little Bit of Your Heart by Ariana Grande.

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I know I'm not your only, but at least I'm one

I heard a little love is better than none

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart is all I want

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit is all I'm asking for

~

You were drifting into a light sleep when you felt a dip of the mattress, and arms wrapping around your waist. Lips and facial stubble brushed against the crook of your neck and jawline, hot breath on your skin. You hummed in pleasure as you turned over onto your opposite side.

“I didn’t know that you were coming over.” You said as you observed Sonny laying beside you.

Sonny kissed your lips, his breath smelling like scotch. “I wanted to see you.”

“How sweet.” You smiled, kissing him back.

Sonny started to kiss you more aggressively, his hands beginning to roam further down your body. You pulled away and he looked offended.

“Not tonight, I’m tired.” You yawned.

Sonny didn’t argue with you or try to change your mind, just sighed and turned over to lay on his back. As soon as he did, you made yourself comfortable on his chest. The longer you laid there, the more you smelled something specific on his shirt. Body spray? But it couldn’t be Sonny’s, it smelled too feminine. Maybe he was with his mom or his sisters?

“Did you visit your mom today?” You asked, breaking the silence.

“No. Why?”

“You smell like perfume. Just wondered if you saw your mom or your sisters and the scent rubbed off on you.”

“Are we really gonna do this again, Y/N?” Sonny snapped, sitting up.

You sat up as well so that you could face Sonny. “Do what, Dom? I was just asking a question!”

“You’re interrogating me again, just like the last time that I was over!”

“Why do you get so angry at me just for asking about your day? Am I not allowed to do that either?”

“I get angry because you don’t ask about my day just for the sake of asking. You ask about my day because you’re looking for things. Things that you’re not gonna like when you discover them.”

You stared at Sonny for a moment. You were surprised at what you were hearing and still couldn’t understand where he was coming from.

“So why are you hiding things from me in the first place?” You asked him.

“Because we’re not in a relationship, Y/N! You’re not my girlfriend! We fuck, we go to sleep, and then in the morning one of us leaves, and we do it all over again whenever we feel like it. You and I have no relationship beyond that. I don’t have to tell you anything!”

You could feel yourself starting to tear up. You knew that you and Sonny weren’t in a relationship but you didn’t realize how little he thought of you, and it hurt to hear. You could tell that the things that Sonny knew you weren’t going to like had to do with whatever kind of relationship he has with Amanda. There’s no reason why he would lash out like he does unless it was something important to him that he didn’t want you to know about.

“So.. this whole time, you’ve never had feelings for me at all?”

Sonny didn’t respond. He stared blankly at you as you waited for a response.

You wiped your eyes as you could feel the tears falling. “So this whole time, you’ve had some sort of thing going on with Amanda, and when you’re done with her for the day, you come to me just for a quick fuck?”

Sonny sighed. “Y/N, it’s not like that.”

“Then tell me what it is like, Dom. Because you get texts while you’re with me, and then all of a sudden you have to leave. I ask you who the text was from or why you have to leave and you lash out at me. You come over to see me, and you smell like women’s perfume. I ask you who you were with or why you smell like that and you lash out at me. I’m surely not as stupid as you think I am, Sonny.”

“What the hell do you expect me to do then, huh? Confess my feelings for you, ask you to be my girlfriend, and then we live happily ever after? Is that what you want?”

“That’s exactly what I want! Don’t you get it? I’ve had feelings for you for as long as we’ve known each other, Sonny! I knew going into this that it was casual but I had hope that maybe things would change. That I’d become more to you than just some quick fuck. I stuck around for you, Dominick,” More tears started to fall from your eyes and this time you didn’t care. “And… this whole time… all you’ve wanted is somebody else.”

Sonny wiped tears away from your cheek with his thumb before tucking your hair behind your ear so that it was out of your face. He took a deep breath before speaking.

“I care about you, Y/N. I really do. And if things were different, maybe I’d be able to give you what you want. But right now, I can’t do that. Amanda… she’s special to me. Really special. I can’t let that go. I can’t move on from that without knowing what all could’ve happened between her and I. There’s so much potential there and I can’t choose you over her. I just can’t.”

The two of you stayed silent for what felt like forever. You were hurt, disappointed. You didn’t know what else to say to Sonny. You just wanted to forget that this had ever happened. You wanted to be able to move on.

After a while, Sonny got up off of the bed, bending over to kiss your forehead as you sat on the mattress. “I’m sorry that things had to end like this.”

A/N: Request from @mooneeeee , I apologize that it took so long to post! There will be another part to this as well, maybe three in total but I’m not sure yet. Also I know that I’ve stated that I don’t write smut but this is about as far as I’ll go in that department! Even this was hard for me but I needed to write it so that I could establish the relationship. Song lyrics from 1 step forward, 3 steps back by Olivia Rodrigo

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You got me fucked up in the head, boy

Never doubted myself so much

Like, am I pretty? Am I fun, boy?

I hate that I give you power over that kind of stuff

'Cause it's always one step forward and three steps back

I'm the love of your life until I make you mad

It's always one step forward and three steps back

Do you love me, want me, hate me? Boy, I don't understand

~

“Oh, Dom!” You cried out, digging your nails into Sonny’s back.

“You’re so good, baby.” Sonny praised in between kisses, continuously thrusting himself inside you, about to climax.

Sonny moaned as he finally came, the two of you both breathing heavily. He flopped himself down onto the bed beside you. You slid over to him, laying your head down on his bare chest.

“God, I needed that.” Sonny sighed, kissing your hair.

“Long day?” You asked.

“Long day would be an understatement.” Sonny grumbled.

“Do you wanna talk about it?”

“I’d rather talk about how fucking hot you look right now.” Sonny eyed your naked body up and down.

You blushed, staring up at him. “You don’t look too bad yourself, Counselor.”

Sonny hummed in pleasure, kissing your hair again.

You laid on his chest and admired the way his body looked, the way that you felt so close to him in the moment. The casual sex was great, but you love the cuddling and sleepovers even more. You want so much more than just sex with Sonny, but there’s always something that gets in the way. Sonny lashes out any time you try to bring up your relationship or the way that he or you feels about things.

As you were just about to drift off to sleep, you heard Sonny’s phone vibrate on the bedside table. You sat up off of Sonny and he rolled over to grab his phone.

“Who is it?” You asked.

Sonny ignored you as he read whatever message he received. You watched as his eyes moved from right to left, glued to the phone screen.

“Is something wrong?”

“Nothing’s wrong, Y/N. Why are you so concerned about who’s texting me?” Sonny snapped.

“I’m not concerned, I was just curious if it was work related. Didn’t know if you’d have to leave again.”

Sonny got up out of bed and began putting his clothes on. “I do have to leave, actually. And it’s not because of work.”

Your eyes widened. You didn’t understand what you had done to make Sonny so frustrated and why he was being so harsh all of a sudden. You could tell by his reaction that Amanda Rollins was the one texting him, and the reason for him leaving. They’ve been close ever since you’ve known Sonny.

“Sonny, wait! Can’t you just talk to me?”

“What is there to talk about, Y/N? We’re not together, which means I can do whatever I want with whoever I want. It’s none of your business what I do or who I text or who I hang out with. I’m a grown man and I don’t need to be interrogated.”

“I’m not trying to interrogate you! Aren’t I allowed to ask you questions, make conversation?”

“Sure you are, but not when it involves my texts or the other people in my life. You get so clingy out of nowhere and it’s fucking annoying, Y/N.”

You stared at Sonny blankly and he stared back at you. You didn’t respond to him, and it seemed like he had nothing more to say. While on the outside you seemed unbothered, on the inside, Sonny’s words hurt. He abruptly lashes out but it ends up being your fault. For what reason? Why does this keep happening?

Sonny huffed, grabbing his things. “I’ve gotta go.”

You watched as Sonny walked out of your bedroom and down the hall, taking a turn and then disappearing from your sight. You laid back down in bed, rolling over to your side, preparing to go to sleep. You were hurt by Sonny but it wasn’t a deep hurt. You weren’t worried about what would happen next. You would go to bed and forget about the whole situation by the morning.

SO NEXT IDEA. 1 step forward 3 steps back by olivia rodrigo. sonny and the reader have a casual fling going on but reader wants more than hookups. she fell like hard for sonny and she thinks that every step forward they take 3 back because sonny is also clearly in love with Amanda and like reader pours her heart out to sonny. maybe we can get like a strand of hair gets tucked behind her ear scene from by sonny

but also no happy ending, sonny also loves reader but he cant commit because he still has what if's about Amanda and he thinks they might end up together, this could probs be broken into 2 parts

also i’m a write who has severe writers block so prepare for many requests bc ur my. new fav

“Family.”

A/N: I’m a huge Harry fan!! I’m so happy that you enjoy my posts and I’d be glad to take any requests that you have!! Also sorry for the wait, life has been kicking my butt lately 😅

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Matilda, you talk of the pain like it's all alright

But I know that you feel like a piece of you's dead insidе

You showed me a power that is strong еnough to bring sun to the darkest days

It's none of my business, but it's just been on my mind

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You’ve known Sonny Carisi for almost your whole life. You both grew up in Staten Island, living right next door to each other. The two of you would play outside together as kids, and ride the bus to and from school, side by side. When your family decided to up and move to another state, you were absolutely devastated. What would you do without your best friend? Would you ever see him again?

You endured trauma and abuse from your family all of your life, and when you turned eighteen, you decided to leave them. You moved back to Staten Island, never seeing your parents again. You managed to go to college, get a job, and find yourself a place to live. It wasn’t easy, but you made a new life for yourself. One that was better than before. You were safe and you were free and that’s all that mattered to you.

One morning you went to a cafe nearby to get a coffee and something to eat. As you walked in, you saw a tall man in a gray suit standing in line to order. You thought maybe he looked familiar but you couldn’t tell. You watched as he ordered and took his coffee from the barista, turning around and heading for the door. It was exactly who you thought it was; Sonny Carisi. You could never forget that face, even if it had been decades later since you last saw him.

Sonny noticed you staring at him as he continued to walk towards the door, and he looked confused. You grabbed his arm as he walked past you.

“Hey, wait!”

Sonny stopped and turned to face you, still perplexed. “Uh, yeah?”

“Sonny, it’s me. It’s Y/N. From when we were kids?”

Sonny’s mouth dropped. “Oh my god, Y/N! I can’t believe it!”

Sonny brought you in for a hug before you could say anything else to him. You were so happy to see Sonny after so long. You thought that you’d never see him again.

When Sonny finally released from the hug, he sat down at the nearest table, motioning for you to sit. You did as he wanted and sat down across from him.

“I just can’t believe that we finally found each other. What have you been doing? Where have you been?” Sonny asked.

“I’ve been right here in Staten Island, ever since I turned eighteen.” You told him.

“Why didn’t you tell me or try to find me?”

“I just… didn’t want you to have to deal with all of my baggage..” You muttered.

“Y/N, we were best friends. Why would you think that any of that would matter to me?”

“I don’t know… it’s just not something that I wanted to involve you in.”

“Alright,” Sonny mumbled. “Well, what made you come back?”

“I needed to get away from my parents. I didn’t want to spend one second more than I had to with them. It was time to take control.”

Sonny looked straight into your eyes as he said, “I’m so proud of you for having the courage and strength to leave them.”

You started to tear up. It was nice to hear Sonny say that but a part of you has always felt lonely ever since you came back to Staten Island. You’ve been by yourself the whole time.

“I don’t have anyone anymore.” You spoke softly.

“Y/N, I know that it may feel like that, but you don’t need them. The way that your own parents treated you is unforgivable and they don’t deserve to have you in their lives,” Sonny insisted. “You had me before you left, and you have me now. Hell, you had me after you left too, I just didn’t know where to find you. But now, we have each other again. We’re family.”

You wiped your eyes with your sleeve, a small smile forming on your face. Sonny was everything that you ever needed. He knew just what to say to make everything okay.

“You’re so special to me, Sonny. You always have been. Never leaving my side, being there for me when I needed you. Remember when you’d let me hide in your backyard behind that huge tree to get away from my parents?”

Sonny’s face dropped. “I do, but I hate thinking about it. You shouldn’t have had to hide at all. It’s not right.”

You shrugged. “Things happen.”

“Yeah, well, they shouldn’t have happened. You’re the strongest person I know, Y/N.” Sonny told you as he grabbed your hand from across the table.

You smiled at Sonny. “You mean the world to me, Dom. I’m so glad that we found each other again.”

A/N: Sorta short compared to my usual posts, sorry y’all. Inspired by the song Keep Driving by Harry Styles :)

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Maple syrup, coffee

Pancakes for two

Hash brown, egg yolk

I will always love you

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It was the first day of the trial for Sonny’s first big case as ADA. He had been up most of the night going over all of the evidence and any other important information that he’d need for the trial. You don’t know when he ended up coming to bed, but you woke up early, planning to do something special for him before he left for his big day. You carefully disentangle yourself from Sonny’s grasp, tip toeing out of the bedroom and into the kitchen.

You get out pots, pans, bowls, and every ingredient that you can think of from the fridge so that you can make Sonny a big breakfast before he has to leave for the day. Sonny usually just grabs a coffee on his way to work and calls it his breakfast, but today, you knew that he couldn’t go to the courthouse on an empty stomach. You begin frying two eggs in one pan, sunny side up, and hash browns in another pan on the stove. While they’re cooking, you whip up some pancake batter in a bowl. As you start pouring the batter, you hear footsteps in the living room.

“Good morning, doll,” You hear Sonny sleepily mumble before his arms are wrapped around your waist as you stand at the stove. “Something smells good.”

“Morning, Dom,” You greet him, smiling at the feeling of his touch. “Pancakes, hash browns, and eggs just how you like them.”

“You know I love you, right?” Sonny asks, practically drooling at the sight of the food on the stove.

You giggle at him. “I love you too. Coffee isn’t enough when you have such a big case today. Now go sit, I’m almost done.”

Sonny released from his grasp on you and sat down at the kitchen table. He took a sip from the cup of coffee that was already waiting for him at his place setting. He watched as you finished cooking, plating the food and bringing it to the table.

You give Sonny his plate before sitting down at the table with yours. He puts butter and syrup all over his pancakes, and shakes some salt and pepper onto his eggs before digging in. You glance over at him as he eats, chuckling to yourself at how hungry he appears.

“Take a breather there, Counselor.” You joke.

“Why don’t I have you cook breakfast for me every morning?” Sonny asks.

“Because you insist on only coffee.” You remind him.

“After today I might rethink that decision. This is way better than coffee, baby.”

You smile in response to Sonny. “I’m glad you like it. You need all of the strength and energy that you can get for a big day like today.”

“You take such good care of me. I’m so lucky.” Sonny trails off as he goes back to eating his breakfast.

The two of you finish your food and get ready for the day. Sonny showered while you picked out your clothes for work, and then the two of you switched as you went to shower and he went to pick out which suit to wear for court. You both brush your teeth, wash your face, do your hair, etc. Sonny finishes before you, gathering all of his notes and papers for the trial in the meantime. When you come out of your bedroom and into the living room, Sonny is nervously pacing around the room.

You walk over to him, wrapping your arms around his waist, holding him close to you. Sonny sighs in relief and you can feel his body relax a bit as you hug him.

“You’re gonna do great, Dom. You’ve already got this.” You tell him as you look up at him.

“Thanks, baby. I’m just nervous.”

“You have no reason to be nervous. You’ve been waiting for this moment for so long. You know exactly what you’re doing and everything will work out in the end.”

Sonny sighs. “I guess you’re right.”

“And regardless of what happens today, I’ll be right here waiting for you when you get home and we can do whatever you want afterwards.”

“Sounds like a plan, doll.” Sonny softly smiles.

“Just remember that I will always love you, Sonny Carisi, no matter what.”

Sonny tightly wraps his arms around you one last time, kissing your hair before releasing his grip.