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@forlorn-flowers
rp & aesthetic blog for an original final fantasy xiv character, written by @mothervvoid.
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high/medium activity. lore-bending at times.

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Once again thinking about attack dogs vs guard dogs and how in another universe Saint was almost literally made into an attack dog. Even in XIV he was made into an attack dog, just with the appearance of a cat. All jaw, all teeth, all bite. He doesn't know how to curl up in a field of sheep or on a rug at home. He was never given the chance. Surrounded by anything—anything at all—all he sees are enemies. Sheep, loving hands, it doesn't matter. Surround him, back him into a corner, and he'll fight like hell for a breath of fresh air, for freedom.
AND YET!! He protects his home and his people like a guard dog madly in love with what he's been given. Mostly because he's been given so very little over the course of his life. So much has been taken—stolen technically—and he's at the point in his life where he can finally defend those things. To not do so would be an injustice to the work he's done to escape that hell he had been dragged into when his world imploded.
But he doesn't guard like a guard dog. Because he has no idea what kindness, gentleness, or even love look like. He's gone so long only knowing what it means to attack when told, to bite and rip and tear when told that it's the only way he knows how to defend. Threats he can deal with. Peace he can not.
And yet when he walked—well, ran actually—away from James the first time it was a choice he made without even really realizing it. To lose so many people he loved and cared about over the course of his life, and to feel grief to such an unhealthy level, he chose to become a guard dog. To take his freedom and say "I'm tired of taking, of killing. For once in my life I want to defend something. To know what it means to love and be loved."
elizabeth bishop // @heart-of-corundum and I's wols // closeup of william-adolphe bouguereau's pieta // marina tsvetaeva
@bygone-eras / @heart-of-corundum
There's this distinct humming sound whenever the house gets unlocked, some kind of primordial echo that rumbles through the entire building, ancient mechanical warbling to call to attention that someone has returned to the nest. It's a rare sound these days, one could easily mistake Tyler for being the sole inhabitant. Even though she had her own business, more often than not, she was usually the only one home.
Today she's in the kitchen, it's eight o'clock at night, and she's just realized she hasn't eaten dinner. Saint isn't home, or wasn't—that's him now, it's got to be—the door is opening and someone's heavy footfalls echo through the foyer. She can hear them, all the way in the kitchen.
She quickly plucks the pancakes off of the griddle before they burn and goes to greet him.
@mothervvoid // @forlorn-flowers and I got to talking about Tyler loving Saint even after she finds out about his lengthy past deeds and the lifetimes of blood that coats his hands. One particular line they threw at me stuck, so I wrote it into a short little blurb of a story. If anyone has kept this sad catman's timeline straight, this would likely have occurred many years down the line from whatever canon would have been.
“Well I don’t know Sylrin!” Tyler screams, ears flat and tail bristled. “I only know Saint. I know you!” She punches your chest. Punches you because the anger needs to go somewhere, the unspoken desperation needs to be seen and felt and understood. You feel nothing, though you know she threw her weight into it. "You are my brother. I chose you! Your name! I am Tyler Graves because you were there for me when—”
She stumbles on the words and you watch her eyes go glossy, her brows crease as she holds back a wave of grief and horror both.
You open your mouth, but to do what you don’t know. Console her? Like you had ever been good at it. Every step along this journey with her you’d only ever hurt her, ruined or made things worse—
“You were there for me when no one else was," she says after once again finding her voice. "When even my own brother had abandoned me! You don’t get to decide that I don’t know you, that I can’t love you as you are!” Every word breaks, every breath shaky as though the small platform upon which she’d built her courage was now crumbling beneath her feet. “I make that choice. I decide if I can love this version of you.” She finally withdraws the fist from your chest and cradles it to her own. Curls in on it like it might disappear at any moment, that all too brief physical connection you too rarely let her steal. Her last words are a whisper, a prayer to that little thread now broken. “And I do. I do love you."
Silence finally falls between you, that gap between the beating heart of you and that little curled up fist now entirely too wide. And for the first time in your life, you want to move and can’t. You don’t know what the right thing to do is.
Bekker would have you raise your walls. Break the small, fragile thing laid bare before you. Remind it that life is cruel...and that people are worse. And yet you are of two minds about it.
I don’t know Sylrin. I only know Saint. I know you!
Gingerly, you reach out a hand and place it atop her fist. You don’t even know what expression you're making. What you're thinking. This—this barely functioning relationship between you, it was a shit show. It was pain waiting to happen. Hells, it had happened. Over and over and over again you'd torn each other to shreds. And yet part of you clung to those words, prayed they were true—that someone saw you: the tiny, blackened flame flickering beneath an endless red sea, desperate to hold on. The sad, pathetic mess you'd become behind the obsidian wall someone else had built for you…
But for all the times you'd argued and drifted apart, for all the times you tried to save her from the monster she'd legally made her brother, she'd still crossed those burning bridges. Walked through fire and worse, just to call you—
“Graves?” She’s looking at you now, her sunset orange eyes still glossy but more confusion than grief. You hadn’t moved or spoken, though you’d meant to.
You yank on that fist, and the little Seeker comes with it, the full force of her quickly wrapped up in your arms. You bury your face in her hair, unsure of what words would even suffice to explain the full gravity of what you felt.
I only know Saint. I know you!
She grunts against your grip, not yet realizing it for what it was. How could she? You'd never offered it willingly before. So you take a hold of her head and tilt it back the slightest bit, press a kiss to her forehead. More gentle than anything you’ve done over the course of your bloody, brutal lifetimes and whisper onto her forehead, “Thank you.”

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Snippet of RP w/ @forlorn-flowers that makes my heart happy and full.
“Are you really asking the dumb brutish older brother what he wants to do on a day off? Is kicking your ass in the ring an option? You could probably use the refresher.”
“Yeah sure, why not?” Tyler says with a laugh, “You wanna go? You want a piece of me, huh?”
“Yeah? A whole piece of you, huh?” Saint goaded, nodding. “Okay, sure, I’ll take this piece…right…here.” Raising his hand, he attempted to plant it directly onto Tyler’s face.
“No, no you can’t have that one!” Tyler lets out a hiss as his hand grabs onto her face. Naturally, she licks his palm in an attempt to get him off of her.
SEND 👨👦 + A QUESTION ABOUT MY MUSE AND THEIR FATHER WILL ANSWER IT
@mothervvoid asked— 👨👦was saint a happy child?
"I think you're asking the wrong question, darling," James sighs before crossing his legs, dusting invisible lint from his knee with his knuckles.
"Does Saint know happiness?" Amusement tugs at thin pale lips. "Can he recognize it for what it is?" The Hyur shook his head, more in astonishment than disappointment.
"I don't think the boy would know happiness if it pierced his heart, which—forgive me my frankness, but—is rather funny given the relationships he tends to cultivate. Ask yourself, what does his 'sister' know of him, truly? That he has shown her kindness? That he is rough around the edges but means well?"
James waves the rhetoricals away. "But to answer your question, no. I found him on the street with a fire in his eyes and it has not left him since. It pains me to say I never did discover a way to put it out, though I encouraged him to find ways to ease it. Some, I'm afraid, might have...backfired more than anticipated. But I did what a father could and did it to the best of my abilities. Had he wound up on my doorstep sooner..." James shrugs. "Perhaps I could have helped him more."
It was just red
Wrote this in response to And the heat goes on (where the hand has been) by @forlorn-flowers but never posted it since I was on hiatus. Enjoy the same scene but from Saint's perspective 👍
Anger was rarely ever pretty. Justifiable, yes. A necessary cleansing flame, occasionally. But to Saint it had only ever settled over his life like a miasma which choked the air from his lungs and blurred his vision.
And as he watched Tyler lunge for her sister, manicured nails tearing into flesh, he knew it for what it was. Could see the rational thought and common sense leave his sister as Pythag slammed her palm on every button the smaller Seeker had long hidden away from even him. Careful, pointed blows. A father whisked away, a brother starting a new life. A promise broken. Abandonment of the worst kind. All careful wounds Tyler had hidden beneath that radiant smile and childlike demeanor.
A scene flashed before his eyes of a darkened room, empty save for a small red-headed Miqo'te who had huddled into the corner beside a cold couch, its blankets and pillow still astray from their use several nights before. Tears streaked the small boy's face, but it wasn't grief that lingered in the darkness of his features. A fire had been lit hours earlier, that much he could recall. And already smoke had begun to cloud those bright teal eyes.
Saint began moving before the scene had played through, the boy's knuckles paling as he balled his fists and rose to his feet. Before that haze had fueled him for weeks. But he knew how it ended, where that anger had taken him.
Saint's hand wraps around Tyler's wrist as her blade glints in the air above Pythag, poised for a heart strike. "That's enough."
More buttons are pushed, Pythag's words no doubt carefully chosen to ache and bleed long after this confrontation had ended. He couldn't see Tyler's face, but he knew those wounds would only open later, once the anger ebbed and rational thought returned. Knew the regret she'd feel as if it were his own.
"You're sick!" Pythag screams, the last word sharp as the knife that loomed over her chest.
He knew his features made it dull by comparison as he said, "If you know what's good for you, you'll run and never come back. If she breaks this grip, I won't stop her a second time."
Wide-eyed, Tyler's sister scrambled to her feet and bolted back into the shaded boughs surrounding their family home.
Only when the rustle of Pythag's desperate retreat faded into buzzing silence did Tyler finally break. The switch blade was the first to go—as had been his sword, once upon a time—discarded into the grass by weak and trembling fingers. Her shoulders curled inward, her breath too quick, too tight.
He could almost see the thoughts, even without the aid of his sister's expression. It was laced into every heave, into the iron grip she held on the blades of grass between her too-white knuckles.
Tyler had been ready to kill her own sister for the wrongs done to her. She had wanted revenge of the most satisfying kind. And she had meant it.
"Breathe," he soothed, one feather-light hand at her back. And she did, but still too quickly. "Slower. You can do it."
Rain began, lightly plinking off his armor. His ears twitched at the sensation, but Tyler hardly seemed to notice. But slowly, so slowly, her breathing eased and the panic with it.
Several minutes passed that way, Tyler working herself back from the edge of outright panic. "Fuck."
He would have laughed had he a sense of humor and had fate not been a twitched bitch. Instead, he nodded. "Yeah." Fuck was right.
You have to mean it, he had told her once upon a time through the mouth of another. But perhaps what he should have said instead was you have to ask yourself, do you really want it? Is it worth it? The stain a kill like that will leave on your soul…
She was a mirror of all his regrets. And despite his most desperate attempts to steer her otherwise, they had wound up here.
"Can you help me up?" Tyler was working shaky legs. More fawn than Miqo'te.
Saint was already moving to help her, an arm wrapped around her shoulders as he asked, "Can you stand?" He knew the answer, but drew thought back to the surface with conversation.
"Yeah." Convincing, if only in tone.
She was nearly dead weight against him, but he didn't balk or buckle. Never would.
"Thanks, Graves."
He didn't dare look at Tyler, at what expression he knew would be muddied with uncertainty. An expression he'd made so many years ago.
But no matter what the gratitude was for, he didn't stop himself. Didn't second guess winding up right here, wrapped around her shoulders to keep her from falling into the same deep hole in which he lived. He would have been her ladder back to the light, even if she had hated him for it.
"You're welcome, Pigtail."
But a ladder couldn't stop a fire. Nor could it make anyone climb.
The problem was, when he had been right here—in the shallow pit of the hole he'd started for himself—he hadn't wanted to be saved. He'd wanted to watch the world burn. And more than anything, he'd wanted the world to take him with it.
and the heat goes on (where the hand has been)
Rating: Mature | WC: 1.4k
Summary: In which Tyler confronts their older sister, again. Featuring @flood-of-shadow
Wearing heels in the forest probably wasn’t the smartest decision.
Saint had griped at her constantly for her impractical choice in footwear, but Tyler found they were quite partial to the aesthetic of it. They looked good in their high-heeled boots, despite the way they could feel their heels slowly sinking into the muddy earth beneath their feet. Making her feel rooted to the spot. It’s fitting, standing at the precipice of the burnt remains of their childhood home.
“You good?” Saint asks, only a few feet behind her.
Tyler’s ears prick up, swiveling at the sound of his voice. “Yeah, I’m fine.”

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Sometimes the worst of ‘em have the best disguises He’ll go as far as it takes to stay in hiding
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I love you angry characters I love you revenge arcs I love you protagonists who kill people and don’t feel bad about it I love you manipulative heroes I love you gray morals I love you terrifying protagonists I love you characters who hold boiling grudges I love you characters who reveal that their perceived harmlessness was just patience the whole time I love you stories about atonement and rage and vengeance that don’t end in forgiveness or guilt I love you stories that explore the healing power of incandescent rage

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if ur media doesn’t have at least one (1) deeply fucked up pair of siblings then i’m not interested