Hey! Sometimes it really is like that. I guess you’re a teenager right? Yea, those are the really tough years of our maturing and growing up. I like to say that there are two ways of going through it;

1. you’re gonna get through it really well and everybody will love you and you won’t have problems at all. 

2. you’re gonna have really bad stuff happening to you outside and inside. you’re gonna have thoughts about ending it all and saving yourself from hell that surrounds you.

But, the hell you feel right now is there to get you through this process of growing up. It’s happening because it’s trying to get you ready for the things you’ll experience once you start a family and you have all the things such as paying bills on your mind.

And you feel like a waste of space? Like you’re bothering everyone with your problems and you feel like no one cares about you and your problems? But in fact, they do. Sometimes parents don’t show it because they’re too busy worrying about other things and they do not realize they’re putting aside their child. And it gets really tough.

So, that’s when you start to speak. You need to tell them what’s bothering you and they’ll understand you. In the end, they are your parents and they want all the best for you. 

And your friends are literally brothers and sisters you chose by yourself. It’s a family that you choose. So basically you chose people that you like and that like you back. So, don’t be scared to ask them for help too, I guarantee you, they’ll help you. If they don’t, they’re not your real friends and at least you’ll know who you can trust. 

And aw, baby, you’re here for a reason. You’re here to make the world a better place. You’re here for being yourself and for making people that surround you happy. 

And even when you feel you don’t belong here, stop and remember, even tho you sometimes feel worthless, you’re not worthless to someone else. And that’s all that matters. 

When you don’t love yourself, others do love you and will help you to love yourself again. 

One you start loving yourself, you’ll know what true life is and how perfect and worth you really are. 

[ A toi. ]

Il y a tant de choses que j’voudrais t’dire, putain. J’sais qu’on revient d’loin, ouais, et j’ai peur, t’sais. J’voudrais qu’ce soit comme avant, mais nan, rien n’sera jamais comme avant, parce qu’on n’vit les choses qu’une fois.