Never just sex with Satoru.
You and Satoru agree to become friends with benefits with one clichĂŠ rule: no falling in love. But you do. And you stupidly confess. What now?
Tags: Smut, angst w comfort if you squint, fwb, p in v, riding, kinks, gojo is a little avoidant shit, model!gojo. Havenât proofread yettt, I donât write as much lately. 18+++ I have never written smut please donât fire me..
You have felt Satoru everywhere by nowâburied deep in between your legs, lengthy cock stretching you and hitting that one spongy spot that makes your vision go blank, his hands on your face like he's holding something precious.
You have felt his large hands map every inch of skin you wear. No surface untouched especially late at night when he texts you he's coming over with little to no explanation why.
That was the deal. No, that is the deal.
And you have had a lot of sex with Satoru. From fucking in the comfort of your bedroom or his, to riding him all sweaty and hot in his jeep, to even getting eaten out in changing rooms during his fittings.
He's tried everything with you. Every curiosity he's had about a new toy, a new kink, a new positionâhe's tried and fulfilled with you. You've been stretched into positions you never thought you could with him.
Your legs over his shoulder with him greedily thrusting, your back so arched against his chest while receiving mean back shots, reverse cowgirl with a leash around your neck, full nelsonâanything, you name it, you've done.
You've had him in between your legs so many times to point out that he particularly dislikes missionary, loves rope play, biting and marking your skin like you don't have a shift next morningâbut he's never vanilla.
He always devoured you with a hungry mouth, a desperate and lustful look in his eyes, animalistic thrusts, brutal grip on your hips when he slammed down on you like he wanted you to break.
Sex was casual between the both of you.
Sure, he was attractive. And you didn't have a problem with hooking up with him when he'd bring you over the gates of heaven or soothed you through the most aggressive orgasms ever.
You were fine with the whole arrangement before last week when he'd texted you "I'm coming over, leave the door open." At 2 AM.
Shrugging, you left him on read, unlocked the front door and he was walking through it no more than 15 minutes laterâdark gray sweatshirt masking his muscles, hood messily pulled over his white tuff of hair, sunglasses slipping from his nose bridge, usually bright eyes dull like you'd never seen them before.
He had crossed the threshold to the balcony where you were curled up in on the couch, crawled on top of you and...
Kissed you with soft lips, slow movements of his jaw, reverent touches, hesitant hands that mapped your body under him.
He kissed with too much feeling. With too much gentleness. With something so not Satoru.
Slid in between your legs, deliberately softened your walls till you could take him, tasting you on his tongue till you were tattooed in his mind, made you fall apart like he'd never done before.
Then he repositioned himself, chin glistening from your juices, didn't bother with a condomâyou were too far gone to even stop him and remind him of protection, mind hazy with his unusual attitude.
He had pushed himself inside, losing himself in your wetness bit by bit, watching how his cock disappeared inside your walls.
Both your legs by his sides.
And he drew his chest downâskin flush against your breastsâlocking himself in missionary, a position he avoided at any given chance.
You shook underneath himâeyes glossed over from the feeling of him, unprotected, raw in you. The slow drag of his cock in you, meeting your warmth over and over.
Veins imprinting themselves in you, leaving their shape, moulding your pussy to fit him and only him. The deep, intimate thrusts had your throat go dry, a ball growing there and your orgasm growing painfully slow.
Satoru's breathing was shaky, his lips on your neck, behind your ear. Sucking on your nipples, leaving faint marks you'd see in your reflection morning.
Desperately begging in your ears with pleas that had you clenching around him.
"Please look at me, baby, please."
He was making love to you.
No harsh grinding, no position switching or new experiments.
Because you liked it too much.
You liked this Satoru too much.
You should have listened to your friends when they warned you.
You knew you were fucked when he came undone with you, whispering sweet nothings you found yourself silently praying to be true.
"You look soâhng- beautiful, angel."
Babbling when he held your face, blue orbs melting with yours when his gaze was zeroed on you and only you. Not on your skin meeting his.
"Just a bit more beautiful, I'm almost thereâshit, you're close too, huh? Clenching onto me so sweetly..."
Those stupid nicknames of hisâmaking your heartbeat falter, your pulse travel to pound against your temples, heat settle on your cheeks.
God, he's such an asshole.
Making love to you on your balcony under the moonlight, on the 10th floor where no one else lives.
When morning came, when you found yourself on your bed alone and with a heavy chest, you knew you were screwed.
He kept fucking you after that day like he didn't rearrange the wires in your brain with no effort.
He kept having sex with you like he wasn't kissing every crevice of you just a week ago. Like he hadn't silently loved every part of you, kissed and paid attention to every insecurity and scar on your skin.
Still, he took you to the moon, had you spasming around his cock like alwaysâonly this time, leaving you empty even after he filled you up with his cum.
You knew you felt empty because you wanted him to love you again. You wanted him to see you again, not the body he goes to whenever he wants.
Fuck, you really messed everything up.
You were asking for the impossible, for Satoru to care and love.
So you tried to push him away. Avoid meetups and his messages that only arrived after midnight strikes the clock.
It made no differenceâin fact, you felt worse without him around.
By the second week of dodging him, you were about to cave and call him when your front door unlocked and there he was.
Dressed in all black, straight from workâblack chemise with enough buttons undone to reveal his pale collarbones. Black slacks and perfectly tailored dark pants that only highlighted his height.
Your heart lurchedâhalf fear and half relief that had adrenaline already coursing through your veins. You stumbled over your words.
"Satoruâwhat are youâhow did you get in here?" Voice shaky, a light frown placing itself on your face.
He was wearing a stern expression on his face, all pursed lips and locked jaws is the kind. An unfamiliar sight to you as he was always obnoxiously smiling even when ticked off.
His hand rose to reveal your spare keys, you dont remember even granting him access to them but don't have time to ponder about that before his arm drops, he throws the keys on the counter and closes the distance between the both of you till he's looming directly over youâhands in his pocket.
"You have been avoiding me." He says, an underlying layer of annoyance sending a chill down your spine.
You try to deflect, "No."
A beat passes, the expression on his face remains.
"No, I haven't." You say more clearly.
And finish with, "I've been busy."
Complete and utter bullshit, you get off work on the dot and your shifts have never been so boring.
But he doesn't need to know that.
Not convinced at all, Satoru curves his spine till his glasses slide off on their own from where they were perched on his nose just enough for his eyes to pierce holes through you.
Blue, cerulean, sky blue consumes you.
So much you wish you could swim in them.
"Try again." He says, not narrowing his eyes.
You swallow, feeling an uneasy sensation in your stomach that makes you want to throw up when revealing yourself to him crosses your mind.
But he wonât believe you if you spew some other bullshit out.
âSatoru.â You whisper, seeing his eyes run over your whole face.
His figure stiffens. A thousand thoughts running through his mind, a billion questions. Shit, are you pregnant? Werenât you on the pill? Fuck, what is he supposed to do now?
You see the way his adamâs apple bobs at your statement.
âWhat is it?â He asks, feeling his knuckles turning white in his pockets, a shiver overtaking his body.
Trying to start, you say. âI.. uh.â Still not sure, and still not confident enough.
Satoru silently prays it isnât what he thinks it is.
A moment of silence passes, he watches you shift around, fiddling with your hands. Biting on and on your lips.
âY/N?â He calls out to you and you snap out of it.
âI think Iâm falling in love with you.â
And itâs not as stupid as it sounds.
You donât like Satoru because he fucks you like no other man has. But because he messes with your heart without even knowing it.
Holding you after heâs done is not casual, itâs not normal. Youâve had ex boyfriends who donât know the world aftercare, but Satoru bathes you, he wipes you clean.
Holds you in the bathtub, washes your hair, draws absentmindedly circles on your tired and tense shoulders.
Brings you your favorite dessert before he goes on to have his fav.
Makes you laugh a laugh that comes from the deepest parts of you that yearn to be light and happy with him.
Heâs such a prick, completely unaware of his effect beyond his looks.
And youâre such an idiot for believing him.
For liking someone so good.
He stands there, quiet for what feels like an eternity. Your chest is tight when he straightens up and takes a step back.
âWe agreed on no feelings, Y/N.â He says like your heart isnât splitting in half.
You breathe out a shaky breath, slowly nodding because you know. âI know, Iâm sorry.â
His eyes unlatch from you, taking a look at the window that shows the view of Tokyo from your floor.
âI donât see you that way.â
You pull a tight smile on your face. âOkay.â
Then you tip the glass over, ruin yourself further. âWe can keep seeing eachother if you want, my feelings wonât come between us. I know what I got myself into.â You say. A bittersweet feeling on your tongue.
You just canât let him go.
He looks shaken by your proposal, head swinging back to you.
âNo, youâll just hurt yourself, Y/N.â
Stop saying my name, stop being so considerate.
You almost choke on your words from the thorns growing in your throat when you speak. âNo, I promise I wonât. We can keep seeing each other.â
And you both keep seeing eachother.
But you detach yourself from everything. From him.
He notices your fucked out state on a different world the first time he feels you after the confession. A distant look in your eyes and not the usual cloud of pleasure in them.
Is he not making you feel good?
It took a week, a full week for you to let him in after what happened.
And itâs not true, you do feel good. You know you feel good because heâs doing everything rightâthe coil is threatening to snap in your lower stomach, but you donât feel it as much as before.
Youâre quiet, minimally moaning, hiding the noises. Not saying a single word unless he asks you something.
âBaby?â His hands find the back of your neck, making your eyes flutter open while he pounds into you.
Propping himself with one hand next to your head, his other holds the back of your neck while your sight settles on him and the worried look on his face.
âHm?â You sleepily hum, exhausted from the orgasms, the rounds, the ache in your legs and the sensibility of your clit.
He asks, breath heavy, pieces of hair clinging to his forehead as he reaches his escapeâquiet groans filling your ears. âYou okay, sweets?â
You nod, not really sure what heâs even asking.
âFuck.â He groans, thrusting a few times before burying himself deep in you as you clench around him and feel his ropes paint your insides white.
Collapsing next to you, his hands leave your body and you run cold. An arm protectively swings over your waist as he readjusts on the bed, coming down from his high before he cleans you up.
You still havenât said a word. Somewhere too far gone, feeling too used. But you agreed to this.
Thereâs no one to blame.
And though youâve both been at it for hours, even though Satoruâs cum is oozing out of you and his cock is limp, he doesnât feel satisfied.
That uncomfortable feeling in his pit stays there for days while he works.
A photoshoot here and there, a text to you which he receives no reply to, a runway, no response from you. A missed call.
He finds himself wondering what youâre doing when you donât reply.
Cooking in those skimpy little lace shorts he brought back for you from a high end brand? Brushing your soft hair with your legs crossed and your face stoic? Covering your beauty marks with concealer maybe?
The days drag on and on, hours struggle to bleed into other when his phone is so dry, when the smell of you is no longer clinging onto him.
His sex drive is dead. Libido low for the first time reaching a new low.
He doesnât even text you multiple times a day for sex, he just wants you to reply.
So much he considers driving himself back to your house again.
But he doesnât have the spare keys anymore. The ones he had sneakily picked up one time.
Those wouldâve been really useful for a surprise right nowâhe couldâve painted your apartment in pink roses, gift bags of Victoriaâs Secretâs new line he heard just came out.
Gosh heâd do everything to see you in those new panties. To then take them off and kiss every curve of your body, every dip of skin.
Shit, itâs never really just sex.
You suffocate in your feelings, in the emptiness that comes of being a toy. Turns out, youâre not as strong as you thought you were.
Being nonchalant about what you feel is way harder than you thought it would be.
Your girlfriends are sick of it. Sick of hearing about him.
The whole scenario of him rejecting you runs another lap around your head as the elevator climbs 10 floors.
The familiar automatic ding of the lift snaps you out of your head. Doors opening, you step out.
You step out and boxes and boxes of pink flowers are on your doorstep, swallowing the entry with no way to get in your house.
Sure, you knew he was a sex addict. But⌠not to this extent.
So when you catch sight of the singular envelope sticking out from the biggest box of roses and pluck it out, you expect something like âU and me tonight?â With a cheeky emoji.
But you rip the envelope open to âPlease pick up the phone, princess.â
Yet, you kick the roses sideways to make way, unlock your door, drop your bag and text âDoor is unlocked.â With a disappointed sigh leaving you.
You make your bed knowing itâs going to get ruined in a few hours, clean the kitchen like heâs going to care about anything that isnât ramming into you.
And the door unlocks sometime past 9 in the evening while you swirl a glass of wine in between your fingers on the balcony, sore legs kicked over the small coffee table.
He comes up on your right through the door. The details of his outfit unknown as you donât pan your eyes over to him.
One month of no sexâno, no you, has shown Satoru that he does feel for you.
Itâs shown him that what he felt was not just naturally from sex, it was straight from his heart. It wasnât his hormones acting when his chest tightened when he had to leave.
Leave your peacefully sleeping figure in the morning all alone when it was practically begging for his arms to wrap around you again.
Itâs shown him that he canât breathe without you there.
He kneels in front of where youâre sat on the couch to reach your line of sight as you refuse to even acknowledge him.
Your eyes narrow to the wine before downing it all and setting it down on the glass table and swinging your feet off it.
The silence is thick with tension, unspoken words clawing at your lips. Both yours and Satoruâs.
You feel his eyes trace your every action.
Your spine meets the leather of the couch before you finally break the silence.
âIâm yours, Satoru. Just get on with it.â
His heart shatters into a billion different pieces. Just get on with it? Like youâre a task he has to finish? Like youâre not someone with feelings?
Feeling his heartbeat skyrocket, his mind starts running with questions. Do you not want him anymore? Does he not satisfy you anymore? Have you found someone else?
The thought of you with someone else has his stomach churning. He hasnât even come to have sex with you, just to clear the air.
Still, your vague look and lack of expression makes his body go cold.
âIâm not here for that.â He says, feeling his voice waver, vocal chords shaking.
Your head finally turns to him. âThen why are you here?â
Internally, he winces. âBecause I canât go another second without you, Y/N.â
You feel the stars sparkle in amazement, the moon shine in delight. Your heart double over.
âI love you.â He cuts your thoughts off.
âIâm a liar, I love you so much I canât breathe when youâre not around. When youâre not talking to me or holding me.â
âIt was never just sexâIâ
You cut him off, smashing your lips against him on his knee. Thereâs no need for you to reciprocate, he knows you love him.
He sighs against you, shoulders dropping from the tension in them leaving, forearms wrapping around your waist as he gets up and sits in your seat.
You land on him, knees digging onto the leather by his sidesâfeeling his heartbeat against your chest while he pulls you flush against him.
Your arms hold him tight by the neck. Moving around and repositioning yourself ears you a grunt from him as you feel him grow beneath you.
A sheepish smirk presses against his lips as you fail to suppress it. In revenge, his hands drop from your waist and onto your ass, pushing your clothed pussy over his hardening boner.
One month of celibacy has you sensitive to the slightest touch, the imprint of him being nothing like the shitty toys you hoped would get you off in his absence.
He groans once more as you shift over himânow deliberately grinding in slow movements.
A hand slips under the shirt youâre wearing to find that you arenât wearing a bra, though he already suspected it from your hard nipples against his chest.
You let out a quiet moan from his cold hands against your back.
The low sound of his muffled chuckle vibrates against your lips as he invades your mouth, tongue tasting every inch of you.
Not letting him be in charge, you tug his hair and his mouth falls open for you to explore.
Your lungs beg for air and only then do you break the kiss, feeling his hand push your shirt upwards till your breasts meet the cold night air.
Without even catching his breath, Satoruâs mouth latches onto your nipple like heâs starved and youâre his favorite food.
His tongue swirls while his other fingers pinch your lonely nipple, coating your chest in saliva, bundles of nerves electrifying under his touch.
Youâre a moaning mess till you have enough of the teasing.
âA-ahâSatoru-â He doesnât stop at your calling.
Finally he perks up. âYes, sweetheart?â
You try to focus on your words as he humps you dry. âMake-makeâlove to me.â
His eyes widen like itâs Christmas day. A second passes. He crashes. God, his name coming from your lips, the seemingly innocent request when itâs so secretly filthy. The wires reconnect in his brain and suddenly youâre grateful you only wore a really oversize, old shirt of his you stole.
What else would you need to wear with him around?
The damp material of your lacy panties gets pushed aside and he unbuckles his pants, freeing his hard, dusty pink, groomed cock out.
You gasp when his tip pushes at your entrance, having forgotten the sheer size of him and his girth.
He groans, head falling back as your juices leak down on him.
âOh fuuuck,â he drags, eyes falling closed. âAh- shouldâve prepped youâItâs been a while now, hasnât it, baby? But youâre so wet Iâm sure you can take me, right my sweet girl?â
So you do, you bite your lips, stabilise yourself on his shoulders and slowly sink down onto him. He kisses you slow, pressing soft skin against you, bitting your bottom lip delicately.
His hands leave your ass and one of them wraps around your back, bringing you impossibly close to him.
The other presses into your hair, angling your head sideways so he can lose himself in your mouth.
He lets you stay bottomed out for a moment so you can readjust, relearn the shape of him.
A needy whine vibrates against Satoru's lips once he shifts inside of you.
You feel his grin against you before he delivers the first thrustâdeep, slow, curved just right to hit your cervix right off the bat. Your lips part for you to let out a moan from your chest.
He takes the opportunity to bite your neck. Leave his mark and kiss down your carotid. Gentle, reverent kisses. Deliberate nips. Purple and pink shades decorating fron your neck to your collarbone and breasts.
You're his vision. His canvas.
With two hands under your thighs, Satoru bounces you on his length. Perfectly inclined pink tip that never really leaves your pussy when he lifts your hips, but meets the familiar muscular ring deep within you whenever he drops you down every.single.time.
The sound of skin meeting skin so intimately getting absorbed by the sky.
You writhe over him, legs starting to ache, lips swellingâthroat going dry from the moaning once he starts to circle around your clit, drawing you closer to the edge.
In one sudden movement, he lays you down on the couch. Your back against the soft cushionsâhis hot figure hovering over you, hand on your hip, elbow dug in the leather to prop himself up.
And he really starts hitting the spot. Your sight starts to blur, tears prickling at the corners from the feeling of sheer fullness. He starts to pick up the speed just a bit, going harder, not fast yet enough for him to feel you reaching your climax.
Your nails claw at his back under his shirt, looking for something that will tether you to earth while you clench and clench till his rhythm is stuttering.
"Oh my pretty girl, I'm so close-ughâyou're doing so well f'me." His teeth sink into your shoulder and you feel your legs going weak.
A hand dips under you, hooking under your back and arching you upwards.
He follows immediately, shaking when he buries himself inside of you. Walls fluttering and pulling him in viciously.
Neither of you dare to move, he collapses over you and flips you both with him still inside your walls till your head lands on his chest.
You don't need to say it out loud.
Havenât proofed this yet because im a little lazy buttttt what if its not just a masterlist eitherâŚ?
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