*disclaimer pls leave if my words upset you*

everything is dark

how much longer do i have to live

scattered on my wrists

a reminder that i’m broken

from feeling at home

and you’re so far into

yelling about my insecurities

hounding me for making your life hard

you constantly squeeze the joy from my being

than ask where i have the audacity

he said why not

i said no

he kept sliding his hands

i said stop

and tried to walk away

he grabbed me by the wrists

and said it’s not time to leave

i pulled away

and got to my car

i’m sorry to the girls

who couldnt get away

and i’m waiting for karma

to deal with the guys

i know it’s rare

it’s probably not going to happen

but i hope against the odds

one falsestep might rip them from my mind

maybe not now but hopefully in time

makes me want to walk through your fire again

i pray they don’t find my ramblings

but to the ones that have seen them

protect them from the people

who knew me less

so my thoughts will never be made into

i don’t want anybody else

and the more i think about you

if i turn my body a certain way

is you fall into old habits

when realeased back to the wild