no limit

posting this before the main posts my unfollow but hello! i have never done this before (i really did a lot of things for the first time in this group wow) so here goes nothing. after taking a hiatus to try and figure things out with my muse for benjy that was being fickle and stubborn, i decided that it’s for the best i leave the roleplay so somebody else could take his spot and develop their character better. it wasn’t an easy decision to make considering how much i love the five months (would have reached sixth on the 19th ;-;) i spent here but i kept pushing off threads and plotting messages until the last minute these past few weeks so really, that alone was a huge cue for me to take my leave. still, there’s not a part of me that regret coming to famed during my last week of high school’s national exams. (i knew i wasn’t going to ace my science subjects soooo. and i was right! lmao.)

thank you to everyone who ever plotted and did threads with me and my favorite idiotic son, i had a blast knowing some of the people here and i wished i had reached out more because everybody seems wonderful but i would admit i'm not the best at doing so. i have to work on...that. i will also like to apologize to those that i left hanging in the ims, or drop threads without notice (because i'm...the...Worst™) or even unintentionally hurt or annoy?? if so, i hope you can find it in yourselves to forgive me ;u;

[ ✉ → benjy ] if you think that’s the only place where your dorm is safe, i guess

[ ✉ → benjy ] but you said it, not me

[ ✉ → benjy ] cave living might not be that bad though.

[ ✉ → benjy ] you’ve got shelter, and there’s probably water nearby. you could start eating bugs. sounds peaceful

[ ✉ → benjy ] wow what an honor.

[ ✉ → benjy] i’d suggest a 24 hour rotation of taylor swift’s greatest hits if i lived with hyunmi. she’d be a great influence on me and we’d be living our best lives.

[ ✉ → ash ] are you really condoning cave living? and eating bugs?

[ ✉ → ash ] or is this your way to telling me your future plans?

[ ✉ → ash ] because i’m pretty sure there are much better places and FOOD out there-

[ ✉ → ash ] ........

( txt ; benben 🤡 ) at least u do one (1) thing right in this life ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) don’t blame me when i kick u into the sun then ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) …….. ok i’ll give u that

( txt ; benben 🤡 ) u’re asking for too much ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) woooow way to take my words out of context boi ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) has YET to kill u 😏 ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) there’s still a chance it will ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) who wants ur hoodies omg ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) but they are! ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) just like u 💖

( txt ; benben 🤡 ) that’s funny but i also kinda feel bad for u ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) it’s mostly funny tho ( txt ; benben 🤡 ) i will never buy one for myself but we can go check it out yea

[ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] kick me into the sun when i embarrass myself in public ok so not now [ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] see? i know you too well

[ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] IT’S NOT THAT HARD I’M A LOVABLE PERSON GEEZUS [ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] what can i say? i only focus on the important things [ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] sure there’s a chance that it will but there’s also a chance that it won’t [ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] and i’ll take the latter  [ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] gotta live positively! or whatever they say these days....  [ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] excuse me? my hoodies are great. they’re the prime of comfort [ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] -________________- [ ✉ → lyra 🌙 ] you are dropping in my list of friends i would die for btw

“the best surprise this side of the world~!” hyunmi sang, giddy like a child on christmas morning, who had already ripped open layers upon layers of tacky wrapping paper and strewn them across the room. exaggerating was a crime she often committed for the sheer theatrics of it all.

if hyunmi had predisposed interest, she should venture into an acting, make a career out of fake smiles. (wait, she already was.) but excitement was a hard emotion to keep at bay, to attempt to hide with a poker face; her face was wide with a beam when she scurried over and grabbed benjy’s hands, reeling him in. she was ecstatic to show him. (or scare him.)

“don’t be silly, oppa! when have i ever done such a thing?” lying was also an activity hyunmi did quite well. for the most part. she cleared her throat then stepped aside, gesturing dramatically with splayed arms at something on the coffee table. “say hello to charlotte, my new pet tarantula!” and in a plastic container, lid an eye-catching green, a black tarantula the size of a fist gawked at them with beady eyes.

“lots of time.” he answered in a deadpan tone, letting her tugged him towards the coffee table, the feeling of dread slowly creeping in. she was too happy --- that alone should be a warning sign. but it wasn’t until he caught sight of the thing sitting on the coffee table and hyunmi’s words piecing together in his head did he realized it a little too late.

and then:

a shriek cut through the room eerily similar to a 12-year-old girl's but very much his own, his heart almost bursting from his chest at the sight and he quickly stumbled backwards, nearly tripping on nothing but air; every part of his mind screaming at him to get away as far as possible. he ran to duck behind the couch, the only possible hiding spot he could think of and after taking a few (a lot of) deep breaths to calm himself down, he slowly raised his head from the couch to stare at the younger female, his voice an octave higher. considerably so. (mina would have been proud.)

“please tell me that’s fake, hyunmi, please, please, please.” he was too young to die early, for god’s sake.

( ✉️ → benjy 🌱 ) sorry to crush your dreams but it’s not a dog ( ✉️ → benjy 🌱 ) here are my dogs though!! ( ✉️ → benjy 🌱 ) attached file ( ✉️ → benjy 🌱 ) don’t freak out but here’s what i got for myself ( ✉️ → benjy 🌱 ) attached file ( ✉️ → benjy 🌱 ) the details r like really pretty!

( ✉️ → ?? ) Guess whaaaat? ( ✉️ → ?? ) I bought something nice for myself. ( ✉️ → ?? ) I think it’s really cute but I’m not sure. ( ✉️ → ?? ) Reply when you have time plz ( ✉️ → ?? ) I seriously need your opinion on it :c

[ ✉ → benjy ] i’ll have faith in you in every area except ones that could involve you inadvertently burning down your dorm

[ ✉ → benjy ] or any other building with technology capable of producing fire in it

[ ✉ → benjy ] bc knows everything i do, remember? i’d get caught before i even did it

[ ✉ → benjy ] does being an american citizen living in south korea give two governments reason to tap my phone?

[ ✉ → benjy ] should’ve thought of that before suggesting arson

[ ✉ → ash ] so basically you don’t trust me anywhere except....an open field...?

[ ✉ → ash ] or a cave?

[ ✉ → ash ] riiiight

[ ✉ → ash ] yes. i mean, what’s stopping them from learning about each other by tapping into your phone? or mine, for that matter

“this better be a good surprise you’re talking about!” benjy exclaimed as soon as he stepped onto the girls’ side of the dorm, his eyes immediately narrowing at the figure standing in the living room. he had received a text from the maknae just minutes prior asking him to come over for a ‘surprise’ to which he was wary about, because when it comes to hyunmi, that could mean anything; from finding a potential murder victim on the ground (it has yet to happen and he isn’t planning to cross that off the list anytime soon) to being forced to help do her chores (because benjy is easily swayed if you have the right items; namely fried chicken). he had half the mind to drag tristan along with him for backup but his roommate has yet to come home and though the idea of turning her down was tempting, his curiosity had gotten a better hold of him and so here he was, walking over to the younger female with a slight cautious to his steps. he has a very, very bad feeling about the whole thing now that he was getting closer and closer but something tells him it’s too late to run away.

“you are not going to bribe me with food to clean the toilet again, are you?”

chaotic. that was the first word that benjy could think of if you asked him about the current state of the backstage area. it seemed like the first day of the concert wasn’t going to start off well, with issues piling up every hour, mostly about costumes which included his own. a piece of clothing --- a jacket, had been misplaced by one of the staffs which instantly stir up a frenzy among them; all trying to find the missing outfit. he could just sit around and wait like he was asked to do but benjy felt hopeless staring idly as everyone scrambled on their feet. so with a nod and a finger to his lips at the rest of his members, a silent meaning of keep them distracted!, benjy slipped out of their sight, wanting to be useful somewhere else.

his jacket can’t be far off, right? surely he could find it by himself without the constant noise of element’s staff shouting over each other. walking down the hallway, he noticed the cameras but made no note of it, busying himself with finding his jacket, though his concentration quickly dispersed when he caught sight of a certain aria member. “sunbae-nim!” he called out to his fellow labelmate.

ah, the things he does for the people he loves.

like now, for example as he made his way towards holly’s penthouse, his oversized hoodie (pried off from the sneaky hands of his members) hanging loosely over his skinny frame while holding the gift meant for the bee member in his hands. if it hadn’t been for his sister insisting on making him personally send the gift as soon as possible, he would have put it off and gave it to her the next time he sees her, but she made him promise and even million miles apart, there was nothing he wouldn’t do for his sister --- and that included breaking a promise.

doesn’t stop him from complaining to her about the fact that she bought holly a present and nothing for him though.

(he has an inkling hannah loves holly more than him sometimes.)

“seollie!” benjy knocked on her door, his childhood nickname for her all too familiar on his tongue. they had grown up since their days of playing in his family’s backyard (whenever holly wasn’t busy or whenever they had time to indulge hannah’s whims), even spent years apart (the hurt he --- no, they felt over her leaving had faded overtime, with him taking longer than hannah’s) but there was not a doubt that he still saw her as the little girl that fit in nicely between him and hannah, turning the duo into a trio. or in other words, family.

“let me in or i’m letting myself in!”

he has always been horrible at dealing with bad news.

most of the time he tries to forget about it by keeping himself busy. throws himself into dance practice and studio recordings more, play video games, bother his friends. do anything to steer his thoughts away. he doesn’t turn to alcohol because he knows better- should know better.

but tonight, it seemed like the only option. (it wasn’t, but it was a good reason to tell himself anyway.)

sitting across from lyra, whom he managed to drag out to a bar and keep him company (for fun, he told her; to let loose, he explained further, lies hanging onto his every word, the truth hidden beneath his lopsided smiles and pleading eyes), he hadn’t stopped drinking since they sat down an hour ago, not even bothering to keep up with the conversation they were having. or did they even have one? benjy can’t remember.

he was two bottles in already, his hand clutching his third, almost reaching his limit of sobriety. usually he would be buzzed with energy, even more than his usual self but instead he was feeling somber. tired. the weight of the news from his sister heavy on his shoulders.

maybe he shouldn’t have looked for answers on the bottom of a soju bottle.

closed to ─ : @fmdbenjy​ date && time ─ : may 19th, 2018 && 10:11 pm.

‘benjy, life is boring’ amor announces with a significant lack of tact to the words, it was nothing new for the other to hear though by now she was sure he was more than used to hearing his best friend for life, complain about just how dry life could be. no doubt he was dreading it as he listened to her words now, it meant amor needed something to spark up and that usually was equal to danger or mischief. benjy ,bless his heart, tried his hardest not to become a part of her shenanigans but the thing about being best friends was that there was no way he could avoid it, if amor was being reckless and stupid benjy’s general attitude was that he should not let her do or be those things, alone. ‘what can we do that won’t get us in heaps of trouble but will you know… stir things up a little? i just want a bit of fun, it doesn’t have to be troublesome but…well most genuinely fun things are for us’ she sighed in consideration as she glanced upon the other, handing him the food she had made him which was basically just a toastie because both had been craving stuff from those western roots more. ‘i’m really stumped and i don’t like it, we can’t be losing our flare for the great and the wild can we? come on, this youthful duo never dies. we really need to get out there and do something’ she hummed in thought as she opened up her laptop beside him, shuffling onto the corner of his breakfast bar stool and resting head against his shoulder, still half asleep. ‘help me out here, tell me that my worst fears are not haunting me truly and we can still pull a few lively tricks out the bag? i promise i’m not looking for something that will get us in the bad books, just something that’ll make things interesting’ 

“did i ever tell you how dramatic you can be?” he chuckled, taking a big bite of the toastie she made for him because god forbid he gets close to a cooking equipment and manage to set it on fire. again. but he couldn’t deny that her words had some ring of truth in it--- a lot of it, actually. life had been boring lately for the element member and maybe it was one of the reasons why he sought amor in the first place, knowing her and her ability to always rope him in her shenanigans, which are much better than whenever he’s on his own. he liked to pride himself as being the sensible one out of the two but even that kind of thinking always goes down in the drain in the end. “yah, we will always be the youthful duo with a flare for the great and wild! no one can take that away from us.” he patted her head that lied against his shoulder gently for reassurance. “and we can always just prank someone.” another bite and a swallow later, he spoke up again, clearly having thought it before. “like hyunmi, for example. did you know she brought home a spider the other day? scared the crap out of me.”