I'm tired. I am just so tired. I am so behind on everything that I am supposed to be doing. I should be somewhere else in my life right now. I keep telling myself that I would change but I never could. And I'm so done with it. Like what's wrong with me. I feel like just crawling into a hole. I'm just done. I need help but there's no one to help me. Why do I spend so much money on food, I need to save it. I just have a hard time with everything. I don't know how people don't feel guilty for refusing food that's offered to them. It's so stupid. I feel heavy and ugly and I have no confidence. I have so many responsibilities. I need to focus on school, work on my French, and figure out college and I am failing at all of it.
I hate so much stuff too. I hate how my sister keeps talking to me! Like I am doing stuff leave me alone, I'm not even responding to you! And my brother keeps trying to be funny but he's not, if anything he's a disappointment. My best friend just irks me, stop touching me! It's not funny to keep hugging people who hate being touched. But I'm jealous at the same time. Why do people like her so much, I never had someone interested in me romantically. I don't even want to date anyone. It would just be nice to know that people find me attractive. I am so behind on everything and I'm scared. I'm just letting my youth pass me by and I'm scared. I am going to run out of time with nothing to show for it. I'm embarrassed. I should have quit my job, but I'm still working there for some reason. I feel like an outsider. I hate the management. I just ughhhhhh!
People need to stop coming to me with their problems! I can't even help myself how am I supposed to help you! Help me, I'm dying and drowning. Too lazy to swim up for air. I'm so tired and I hate myself so much. I want to be a different person. Stop talking to me and just leave me alone. I need to think but everything is so damn loud. Let me be.
Stop making fun of my music and shows. Stop asking me questions. Stop making small talk. Stop talking about your achievements. Stop commenting on my body, it confuses me. My BFF needs to stop calling me skinny because I weigh less than her. It feeds my ego in a way I don't deserve. It's not true. I keep lying to myself and others like wtf. Why do I always lie, is my life really that boring that I have nothing better to do. I can't even express my feelings because it grosses me out. Don't touch me please it brings back memories I don't need. Memories I'm trying to forget but I don't tell anyone because I'm a wimp and I'm scared. I am not put together, I've been slowly breaking all this time.
I want to cry, but I can't bring myself to do it.
There is no alone time because people don't stop talking to me.
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