karamatsu girl (gender-neutral)

⚠️ : animal death ( i bring it up briefly, but i still wanted to give a trigger warning. )

hi, everyone! it’s been a bit since i posted on tumblr so i wanted to give an update / explanation on why i’ve been gone.

so, since december, i’ve been struggling a lot with anxiety and burnout on multiple fronts, but especially when it comes to posting my art and socializing. this is something i’ve always had trouble with, being able to be perceived and interact with others for months at a time before crashing and needing to isolate myself in some way to recuperate. i have tried posting a lil on instagram during my break from tumblr, but it’s mostly been relegated to stuff on my stories.

the major reason why i haven’t updated you guys over here sooner is that trying to get past my anxiety around coming back on here has been like wading through quicksand. i get overwhelmed by it very easily and it feels easier in the moment to just push it off until the next day… and that’s how i ended up being gone for months now. still, i should’ve tried harder to give you guys an explanation sooner so you wouldn’t be left in the dark as to where i’ve been. i’m really sorry about that. same goes for anyone who’s tried reaching out to be through dms. my lack of response wasn’t out of disinterest or anything like that, i’ve actually really missed talking to my friends and i deeply apologize if my silence made anyone think otherwise. i really do love and appreciate the people i’ve connected with on here, i’m sorry that i haven’t been able to show that properly the past few months.

⚠️ — another thing that’s made it harder for me to be more active is that i lost my cat, kiki, on the 23rd of january in a pretty unpleasant way. i don’t want to go into details about it, but not having her around has made things a lot more difficult for me. i had her since i was around 10 years old, she was a major source of comfort and emotional support for me so not having her around anymore has really sucked. i’m also not in a place where i can get another cat so i’ve been basically raw-dogging things for the most part. still, i’ve found small ways to honor and connect to her despite her passing, ( particularly with my new sona shown above. )

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Since Tabimatsu officially ended, the staff announced that they're planning to release an Illustration book eventually!

The date is still unknown, but I'll probably post about it once more info is out (since I plan to get the book, lol).

i think sideM should collab w osomatsu-san and put them all in Beit so they can all get JOBS!!!!!!

anyways i hate kaoru from idolmaster sideM. i need all my osomatsu-san side blog followers to know that i hate this man. "i need a lot of money fast to pursue an extremely niche medical research track, which is why i quit my stable and high paying job as a surgeon to become an idol while having no soft skills, physical strength or stamina, or interest in getting along with people" are you Stupid??

he's not even using his idol clout to spread awareness of the rare disease he's trying to cure (like SEM does) so it can secure funding, he sees it 100% as a job and refuses to have fun, he is actively unpleasant and uncooperative in every interaction with his coworkers because he's trying to "rise to the top". it seems like the only thing he has going for him are his looks and that he kind of liked to sing when he was a kid. why not become a model at that point when you have the personality of a wet tree trunk. or better yet why not STAY A FUCKING DOCTOR!!!!!