Just waiting till I am able to bloom.

Circle glasses would give me so much gender euphoria. Thank got that doesn't mean square glasses give me dysphoria, or it would become terrible to see.

Fucking up my back one weird sitting position at a time.

I am living life with my only goal being having a good time, because what's the fun in stressing over silly things.

Great, now that people are here, who is ready for the tortilla throwing competition?

Roll call, if you are here, say I.

I just want to cuddle a friends right now. Just be held by them friendly style.

Fuck, I once again scrolled too far into someones blog liking every post. This is the second time today.

I just went way too deep into someones blog liking every post I saw. Then I noticed they were online and now I am a bit embarassed.

I love my friends so much.

I should buy a nice cardigan.

Whenever I finally come out, I am gonna do it with a sheet cake with the words "I'm trans but too scared to say it out loud, so I put it on this cake" and just give it too my parents. Because I know damn well you can't be mad when there is cake around.

The first time I had shown someone who knew I was trans a picture of my face, the first thing they said was that I was pretty. I dismissed it at the time because I just could not accept it as the truth, honestly, I still can't. But while this may have been something so simple to that friend, it means so much to me still, as it is was the first time I had ever gotten a compliment on my looks that felt genuine. It was the only time I have ever felt truly beautiful. And it means so so much to me.

Time for another shit night.

I have a strange habit of never calling things by their name. Like my last post, I could have just said I was feeling gender dusphoria, but instead I said some stupid shit about how I wish a was a woman.

And I am wishing I was a woman again. Fucking bullshit I tell you.

Bout to be weird for a while, can't promise I will respond for a bit.

My hearing is super good, except when my ear decide to play the highest note possible.