...and in my fantasies I rise above it

“yer a wizard, Harry, and a thumpin’ good one I’d wager, once yer trained up a bit, o’ course.”

1.01 “Lyra’s Jordan” // Chapter 25 “Saint-Jean-les-Eaux”, The Amber Spyglass // 1.01 “Lyra’s Jordan” // Chapter 28 “Midnight”, The Amber Spyglass // 1.08 “Betrayal” // Chapter 35 “Over the Hills and Far Away”, The Amber Spyglass // 3.03 “The Intention Craft” // Chapter 28 “Midnight”, The Amber Spyglass // 3.08 “The Botanic Garden”

"I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done…I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none. But I love Lyra. Where did this love come from? I don't know; it came to me like a thief in the night, and now I love her so much my heart is bursting with it. All I could hope was that my crimes were so monstrous that the love was no bigger than a mustard seed in the shadow of them, and I wished I'd committed even greater ones to hide it more deeply still…But the mustard seed had taken root and was growing, and the little green shoot was splitting my heart wide open, and I was so afraid he'd see…"

Ruth Wilson as Marisa Coulter in His Dark Materials Kathryn Hahn as Agatha Harkness in Agatha All Along

You're so much older and wiser and I...

"Не надо привязываться к тому, кто проявил к тебе хоть немного внимания, потому что ты одинока.Одиночество-нормальное человеческое состояние и никто и никогда не сможет заполнить пустоту.Попробуй лишь разобраться в себе, понять чего ты хочешь,чтобы никто не сумел тебя сломить..."