there will always be a war with my heart&mind...

you can give me advice and i will take it into consideration...but DO NOT expect me to do what you are giving me advice for; that's why its called advice, and if you are the type that's getting upset because you cant control me and my decisions then you and i aren't friends...true friends are there even when they tell you i told you so and support and lend you a shoulder when needed. if you honestly cant respect that then i have nothing to do with you..

I get sad/depressed it doesn't mean I'm upset it simply means my anxiety is kicking in...that just triggers my depression...I'm scared...I get paranoid. It's not that I don't trust you. I just can't help myself. I want to crawl into a corner and cry. My hearts walls are cracking I just want to feel normal again...