Why Being a Mother is Difficult?
Its been a year and 3 months since I became a mother. I have 15 months-old baby boy who made me realize, that being a mother is not easy. Not because he is a fussy baby or something, instead, he is so cute, adorable yet very clever.
Then why is this difficult?
"You should do this ... "
"I was ... you should try to ..."
"Their mother is too busy, thats why her kids are troublesome"
Well, every mother is different. Maybe we could face the same storm, but not everyone is inside warm and strong ship. One is struggling to work because she's the only one can do the job, one another is trembling in the house cause she forgot when was the last time she have meals. And another mother is in a steady financial, good health, and a lot of baby sitter to support her, but who knows that his husband is cheating on her.
We all have our own battle. And eventhough you think it isn't hard for you, don't belittle it, cause it might cost a world for someone else.
Since I became a mother in this digital era, I felt afraid to get into social app. I'm afraid that I might watch another mother do some stuff that I can't do. I'm afraid that I might watch another baby can walk and talk faster than my baby. I'm afraid that I might get jealous to other people's life.
I don't know, but at that time I was thinking like "These people just wanna show off", whereas, they just wanna share their happiness, right?
That insecurities need to be cured by support, whether in words or actions. And of course, the positive seeds need to be grown inside our own heart.
One of my dream, I can visit Nepal or Switzerland by my self before I turn 30. My another dream is getting master degree abroad. Thats why I like to read, to watch, to learn anything about it. My hobbies are reading books, going somewhere by myself, make friends from another country. But now, since I have family, I must prioritizing everything, and I bet a lot of mother would do the same thing.
But maybe, not every partner understand this. Trust me, a husband still have their hobbies or at least they can do what they want to do with no guilty, as long as they work well, support their wife and their kids. But a mother? Always in a rush. Go to work in a rush because before she leaves the house, she needs to make sure the breakfast for whole family is ready while she prepare for herself too. Moreover, another mother will take her baby bath first. And then after work, no time for play or hanging out, she needs to get home fast. After arrived at home, "works" are not done yet. They work 24/7, thats why many of them know no more about hobbies.
But, despite all of those difficulties, being a mother is amazing. It might be cliche, but I learn sooo many things since I became a mother.
I understand more, tolerate more, and I feel special about my self. I can get through this, at least I survive until now.
I tried to create positivity inside me, from my self. I have a dream, and I never be too late to reach it.
Cause no matter how long it delayed, as long as I didn't cancel it.