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ugh i know i have to trust tha everything and my therapist who diagnosed me with did and i love her to death probably knows what she's talking about and it does explain my whole life but i keep getting Doubtful because of my presentation and it's driving me nuts both feeling the doubt and being annoyed by the doubt existing

my problem when listenifn to new music is i don't start with The Classics i always delve into some shit no one's heard of and it's not like im doing it on purpose to go Heh .... This band only has 300 listeners im literally better than you ....... it's just where i go and then im stuck desperately trying tj get people to listen to these bands. literally a prison of my own making

Hi guys

perhaps it is time to elevate my lifelong casual vampire enjoying into something more

microdosing being a pharmacist because for some reason they gave me 5 stock bottles and an empty orange bottle when picking up my meds

joking with my mom we should make a joint industrial+goth & kpop playlist because that's what we mostly listen to in the car and it would make Auxing easier but that would actually suck because we have to put all the goth songs on like 30 to hear them but the kpop songs can go max 24 before it gets way too loud cuz our car speakers suckkkkk lol

la roi est mort vive le roi by enigma sounds like the DVD menu music for a scifi horror film to me

i genuinely cannot figure out how to do this thing my physical therapist wants me to do and it's really frustrating me

i forget long time followers probably rememebr my real name i think i've only been using bit for like three years maybe i don't remember

at physio yesterday we were small talking and she asked me if i knew when our pride parade was and we talked about it and i was like "ya i'd love to go but it's too hot for me i physically can't go" and we joked that we should move ours to october and do a halloween double features and i offhandedly said "y'know it works people love to to explore queer themes in horror" and then i had this panic of like fuckkkk what if she thinks im cishet and doesn't want me to say queer and i didn't remember till after the appointment that literally every medical professional knows im trans by way of Having my medical file. Oh yeah