You need to evict red ogre right now

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Man fuck mental health, I used to feel like I was on the edge of full psychosis, changed some meds now I feel like an unemployed corporate drone. Still get hallucinations and still as always feel like there is something wrong in my core, I feel out of place wherever I am no matter how accepting, and it's starting to creep further in, sometime I feel out of place in one on one situations. After I changed things I feel like, I've been isolating, well saying I have is loaded honestly. It feels like something bigger than myself is constructing every aspect of everything (my mental state, the world, others actionss,) and I am along for the ride and it's making me isolated. The problem is that shit feels good. It feels good as fuck to be a puppet for some unknowable force that seems to need me alone. I am used to being alone, when I first started socializing again 2 years ago I remember missing being a loaner, but like, I don't know I don't know I don't know. I can't tell what's happening, and if I need to change back or if actually this is good, like I feel, good? I feel like what I imagine a normal person is supposed to feel like.