MALA-VIDA

So yesterday I went to see my therapist and we talked about my anxiety. She told me my anxiety is bast on the fear of “what if” and that I’m living in the past with my fears and the only way to get over them is to try new things but also not to over extend myself because over extending yourself can lead to failure and failure leads to spiraling down. So I decided to get a good camera for myself and take pictures of the good things in my life. Party’s, Birthdays, Concerts, House Shows, and just life experiences. 

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So there has been this girl that has been in and out of my life since I was 24. We were great friends and for what ever reason from time to time she would stop talking to me. Didn't tell me anything, she would just completely ignore me. This friendship meant everything to me. We had great times together, she helped me with everything, we would drink all the time with our boyfriends, we even made out at a friends house one time but that’s a whole different story. SO recently she had stopped talking to me again so instead of riding it out and waiting for her to explain why she stopped talking to me like she would always do I went to her house to see what the fuck was going on. So I called her when I was outside and she seemed caught off guard. I asked her if we could talk and she said sure I told her everything that was on my mind (which was stupid of me) and she told me everything that was on hers. She was talking to me about some girls that she didn’t like and how boring or stupid they were but know she seems to be their best friend. Everything seemed fine, we even hung out that night. We got some beer and some weed and went for a drive. We picked up my boyfriend and his friend and went to the edge of Procter Valley Road. Everything seemed back to normal. But when I woke up the next day I saw that she had blocked me off everything Snap chat, Facebook, Instagram, every known social platform you can think of she blocked me on it. I was so confused about what happened I thought we had a great time but instead of pushing this friendship any longer I just let it be this girl obviously doesn't want my in her life I should have known that when I found out that she lied to me about stuff that I would obviously find out.