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To think this one minor social transgression gives so much fuel to people against feminism. We have to be 100% correct all of the time. If we’re not, the whole thing goes to shit. It’s a hard job. I think this is why I have a hard time with anti-feminist. It’s the attitude. The unhealthy opposition to females and feminism. The rejection of all feminism because they have observed or experienced unequal treatment themselves. And sometimes, it feels like they’re just upset because they have to play nice. Sometimes these people end up being Men’s Rights Activists, which feels a lot more like being anti-female or anti-feminist than advocating for the rights of men. I have said it a million times... I am not against the rights of men in any way. Men do face discrimination and hardship via our societal expectations and perspectives of them. Likewise, I don’t support any brand of feminism which implies women are or should be superior to men. I think Mens’s Rights Activists are the yin to any feminism that borders on advocating against men yang. Neither I like. 

PS. I think it’s totally weird that I work nearly exclusively with women in my current job. I don’t favor this situation because I think the reverse (male majority) is and has been historically disastrous. I can see how over years and years of men surrounding themselves with themselves has happened rather naturally since I see it in my work. The combination of the opposite sex/gender not being interested in a field and social ridicule for breaking gender expectation to pursue said field has constructed strong divides. Then those chasms grow wider when one sex/gender dominates that field long term without correction. Then we don’t know how to interact/ include the opposite, especially when they don't feel like they belong or can nurture belonging.

We’re also having a mental, emotional, physical turf war with the UK office. Or rather, they’re in one with us. I just like everyone, think everyone is cool, and want to learn and be buds. All this shit one rolls their eyes about it business school, it’s real. The giant disarray giant companies are in, how dysfunctional it all seems in an HBR case, all the scoffing, whaaa but why would they do that. This is my life now. It’s weird how corporations seem so evil, but really, they’re full of really insecure dysfunctional individuals, no one knows what the hell they’re doing, present company included, and everything feel silly. Somewhere at the very top of things and how wealth gets distributed, things get dark. But from down here, it’s just a bunch of cats with computers. Gnawing at one thing or another. So anyway, we have this territory war and our structures are different. They have several people on staff in an office together. We’re only two full-time people and a series of remote freelancers who all want to work on Premiere. Since our leadership hasn’t made the UK/US teams be friends and I’m too meek to be the shining star on this one, I’m going to diverge from their practice and establish our own way that works for our structure. America! To be honest, I want to change, or rather, add to what our unit offers. There isn’t a big enough demand for our type of projects to share between the two units, especially if we’re not buds, and they have the global piece on lock. There’s this other type of project that we in the US keep rejecting because “that’s not what we do”, but it’s not not what we do. The only difference is the deliverable. The analysis, the core, is the same. I want to do that thing we keep rejecting, plus our standard projects. We have the resources to do both. What we do isn’t competitive enough for certain industries that are over saturated with research. It costs too much, it takes too long, its shelf life is massively long. It does certain things very, very well. But what it might not do very well is make our monies goal for the year. So I want to bend, be creative, stop forcing one system onto another. We still might not make our goal, but at least we’ll have done something productive. Anyway, how did we get all the way over here? Oh, I want the people I rely on to be content, so Premiere it is. A lot of biking this week, my insides feel nice.

Meanwhile, my rage and ideology is becoming 15-year-old-teenage status brb.

Curated by Jean Carlomusto, Alexandra Juhasz, and Hugh Ryan for Visual AIDS.”

I liked Moonlight a whole lot. Barry Jenkins reminds me hardcore of film school days.