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ohmygod no nvm. were back. we're so back. primus FUCKS. were literally chilling

anyways. i love primus. stu wouldve loved primus too

i think im also just generally really pissed abt other stuff. i cant keep track of any of these thoughts or feelings. i want to crawl out of my body

actually it would also be good to stop smoking as much because i know it makes my bipolar worse but alsoooo.... 😇😄🙄whateverrrrr. whateverrrr. who cares man

i wish i had meds that fucking worked better

like if i dont feel like a real person than it shouldnt fucking matter. and i can just learn to function and ignore that gnawing feeling in my chest

i feel like it's so hard to like logic my way out of suicidal ideation / depressive spirals sometimes. like why am i doing what im doing? to get better?? okay but like. why. because we know when it gets good it doesn't stay good. and the goodness feels so pointless lol