i know there will be more, but you were the first.
the first i felt as though i could share my life with forever.
the first who i was so open with my feelings with. the cute comments and the endless flirting, the smile lingering on my face and the blush burning my cheeks for hours. you were all that orbited my thoughts and dreams.
the first i was vulnerable with, i showed you all of me, all my emotions and all my scars. it was you who saw them first.
the first who ever saw me fully. my first experiences were with you. bruised necks and scratched backs, swollen lips and soft spoken words, the chemistry was real. with you i felt like i could be open to anything.
the first person i ever slept with. we might be strangers now, but i’ll never forget how safe i felt in your arms, how i felt i could stay there for the rest of my life.
the first i experienced heartbreak with. while what we had might not have been long, it was real to me. the instant connection and bond, something i will have with others as time goes on, but again you were the first.
the first who drifted from me. conversations became less, words became nothing but faces, talking all day became barely talking at all.
the first who completely broke off from me. unopened messages, blocked accounts, no more conversation. we no longer speak and i doubt we ever will but ill never forget our moments, how can i?