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I MEAN HONESTLY YâALL who allowed me to make decisions???
HEY GUESS WHAT: blow me
THIS JUST IN: i suck.
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oaklynnbeckettâ:
Somehow she had managed to find someone a bit similar to her in the dating world as well as the food one. Majority of her friends had managed to have several relationships or be engaged or married. Which left Lynn feeling rather alienated most of the times and afraid to rock the boat with her million and ten questions that she had. For example did people even ask someone to be their significant other or was it just assumed after a long time? Did one person lose their dreams for the other to have theirs? How many dates did one have to go before it was acceptable to fart in front of the other? So many questions racked the womanâs head but very few ever managed to make their way outside of her head. âHow did you get into the boxing world? It is an interesting career,â Not many people she knew in that ring of occupation. âHave little freedom as is so I tend to be a bit selfish about it,â With her mother, siblings and friends she rarely had time for what she wanted. Not that she was complaining because if she was ever given that much time she would have to actually figure out what she liked. âWhich is not bad, because after my entire life being in the Navy I donât even know what I would do. Sounds stupid but how does someone pick up a hobby at the age of 28?â She was rounding up, her birthday wasnât till a month away but she already felt old so why the hell not add up? They were getting closer to her house as she made a left turn, âYou can get that â I promise to do my best to not listen,â she commented on the other womanâs phone screen lighting up. âRight? I want to do that. Or go to Iceland and just have these miniature adventures. Get all the stamps. It would be an interesting fight â navy versus professional.â She commented as she stopped the car and used her hands to draw an arch in the air as it would appear in a billboard, a couple light chuckles escaped her rose colored lips before she stopped the engine and took the keys out, âMay the best taco lover end up surviving.â She concluded as she opened her car door and hopped off her vehicle. The woman walked towards her door, taking into account how the lights of the doorway were on indicating that Thals was out tonight, opening the door she pushed it open allowing Thea to enter as she followed her and closed the door shut behind her. âWelcome to my crash pad,â really her grandmothers who had been kind enough to realize that service members are not loaded and she would need some help when coming back home.
The question caused Thea to flinch as if sheâd been struck, body tensing up for a moment as she wasnât accustomed (or a fan of) sharing personal information with, well, anyone, but even so she found the truth seeping past her lips. âMy dad was a boxer.â She admitted with a nod, choosing not to go into further detail. She had a scripted response having to do with following dreams and getting inspired by a dirty boxing gym around the corner of her house she gave to the reporters whenever they asked, but for some reason the fabricated story hadnât been the one sheâd told. Instead, sheâd said the truth, albeit an extremely condensed version of the truth, but it was still the truth none the less. Deciding to quickly continue talking as not to encourage questions about it, turning the tables and asking Lynn a question about herself. âThe Navy? What made you wanna join that shit show?â With a brow quirked up, Thea shifted in her seat. âWhatâs got you so tied down?â The question was posed with genuine curiosity, a slight scoff leaving her lips at Lynnâs next words. âDoesnât sound stupid. It was hard enough deciding what you liked doing when you were eight let alone 28.. or 30.â She was talking about herself then, but she once again wouldnât elaborate. âNah, itâs fine. Just my manager, nothing important. Heâs been annoying as shit lately.â Grabbing her phone from her lap and shifting so she could put it into her back pocket to solidify her point, Thea nodded her head in agreement. âTraveling was probably the second best thing about the job... even if I didnât get to see much of anything. Itâd be nice to be able to explore... but youâre right, we could probably sell pay per view tickets for it. Pitch it to HBO.â A light chuckle of her own escaped past her lips as she got out of the vehicle and followed Lynn to the front door. âI will, donât you worry.â She winked with a smirk, walking into the house once the door had been opened and looked around. âLooks as a good of place as any to die.â She said, smirk playing on her features as she moved further into the home. âYou have any tequila?â
domowensâ:
  âTheaââ he feebly protested, but it was far too late. The unknown manâs collar firmly in her grasp before Dominic could try any other tactics. To be fair, he had to admit, the guy kind of deserved it. The man was just lucky this was all thatâd transpired. âHe got the idea.â The Owens boy tacked on in the backdrop, waiting to see if Althea was going to actually let the guy go. Though, given the words that left the arrogant foolâs mouth once she allowed him to slink away from the situationâ Dominic wasnât so sure he really did. Shaking his head the brunette let out an amused, half in disbelief, snort as Althea switched back into the casual mood theyâd existed within before the whole encounter. Like a switch flicked on and off, suddenly everything was fine and she seemed reasonably unphased by the whole thing. âYeah, letâs get another round. partially just for me to celebrate that not escalating into a bottle being smashed over the guyâs head WWE style.â He teased, his previously concerned expression shifting into an amiable lopsided smile. âI need another basket of fries though, youâre going to drink me under this damn bar way too soon otherwise.â
No one had ever accused Thea of being even tempered, even as a young child sheâd thrown infamous tantrums whenever sheâd felt the slightest bit inconvenienced or snubbed. It was part of the reason her mother had been so keen on allowing her only daughter to join such a volatile sport, the little girlâs quick temper worked well and it helped get her aggression out. However, now without her outlet, Thea was finding it harder and harder to not simply erupt on people like she just had (though if she was being honest, the man did deserve it). However once some of her anger had been released upon the unsuspecting victim, she was able to go back to her version of normal with her shoulders relaxing as she finished off her glass of tequila. âI can control my anger when I want to, thank you very much.â She snorted slightly, a ghost of a laugh passing through her lips as she waved the bartender over and ordered both of them another round. âAh, câmon Owens get it together.â She said playfully, pausing for a moment before she continued, âMake it bacon cheese fries.â
stephlenoxâ:
Steph didnât like to think about just how much time sheâd lost with Ben; the decade theyâd spent estranged and living separate lives. But the fact that so much of that lost time had died with her twin brother? Well, Steph liked that even less. There had been only so much catching up on that lost time they could do in the nearly seven months she got after he returned to Wilmington, after he reentered her life. Particularly when Ben had been just as eager to hear about her life as she had been about his; it broke her heart, too, to consider all the things sheâd never tell him to his face. All the things heâd never see.Â
Thea wasnât Ben, but she had been his best friend when Steph hadnât been part of his life. Sheâd known Ben in ways Steph never would; had seen him grow from a teen, desperate to escape his pain, to a man whoâd managed to find some kind of peace with it. Sheâd shared memories Steph would only learn through stories, and though Steph was hungry for it all, for any new scrap of information that kept her brother alive in some way, as she waited outside Carolina BBQ, one hand on Parkerâs stroller, she found she also desperately wanted to know Thea herself. The woman her brother had grown so close with, had lived with for so long.Â
Sheâd (miraculously) arrived a few minutes early, and the wait didnât get any easier as the seconds ticked on. After nearly a year of texts and calls and even the occasional facetime, she didnât think Thea would chicken out and stand her up, but it was hard, nonetheless. Wondering if sheâd live up to the person Thea expected her to be â from their own limited interaction, but from whatever stories Ben had told her, too. Wondering if lunch was even such a good idea. Wondering if she was trying to hold too tightly to the past when she should be focusing on the future. But letting go didnât come easy to Steph, and relief was hot and quick in her veins as she heard her voice, and saw the face sheâd yet to see through anything but a phone screen. âHi,â she said as soon as Thea was within earshot (of anything beyond a shout, anyway). âIâm so glad to see you.â Her smile was more tentative than her gesture; a reflexive hug that began as she stepped forward and wrapped her arms around Thea. âHow weird is it that we never really met before today?â
Theaâs entire body tensed up as soon as Stephâs arms wrapped around her frame, more out of reflex than any negative feelings she had about the embrace. The boxer wasnât used to any physical contact that didnât involve pain or pleasure. The hug had caught her off guard but before she could even process, her shoulders relaxed and she returned the embrace, head leaning against the other womanâs gently as she let out a breath she handât realized sheâd been holding. âMe too.â She agreed, giving Steph a gentle squeeze before pulling back from the hug, light smile on her features that only seemed to grow the longer she was in Stephâs presence. It was a strange feeling for the woman, meeting face to face with someone who was such a big part of someone else she loved, a practical stranger, yet she felt completely at ease with Steph. Something she hadnât felt since moving to Wilmington.
âPretty weird.â She agreed with a nod, slight chuckle passing through her lips as she shoved her good hand into the pocket of her jeans. âBut itâs good to finally see you. And Parker.â She said, turning her attention to the stroller next to Steph, peering into it to steal a look at the baby. âHeâs so cute.â She said, the words a little forced as Thea had never been great with kids. âYou ready to head inside? Iâm starving.âÂ
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veeferro :
âOh my God, will you stop honking? You literally have me, like, two hourâs notice,â Vee exclaimed as she strolled down her long-winded driveway toward Theaâs car, one hand clutching the floppy straw hat on top of her head while the other held a canvas bag full of the essentials (sunblock, sandwiches, an extra pair of sunglasses). After finally crawling in the front seat, she spent the rest of the drive over to Penelopeâs putting the ends of her hair into braids so that they didnât frizz in the heat. âNot upset enough to where sheâs going to bail. At least, she better not â I had to call up my backup babysitter for this since the nanny has the day off. Sheâs, like, good or whatever, but sheâs also, like, twenty-years old and tends to eat all of my ice-cream,â Vee frowned, glancing over her shoulder. âUgh, does this mean Iâm going to have to get up?â The doctor rolled down the passenger-side window as she saw the redhead approach. âHey, skinny! Crawl through the window!â
It hadnât taken her too long to get dressed after sheâd forced herself out of bed and into the shower, and she was wandering around her apartment, tidying and putting a cloth over the surfaces when she heard the sound of the horn honking and poked her head around the window. Because of course Thea wouldnât actually text her to let her know she was outside. âAlright bitch Iâm comingâ she shrieked out the window in the direction of the car, picking up the bag off the side table and slinging it over her shoulder. Thirty seconds later and she was outside the car, staring at the occupiers of the front seats. The suggestion of her clambering over the seats ellicited a scornful scoff, âare you having a fucking laugh?â. But it seemed that nothing was going to move them, and so with a groan she started to clamber through the window. âFirst youâre late, now you make me climb through your window, Iâm beginning to think you donât actually like me Tâ
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As Vee made her way down the driveway Thea couldnât help the smirk on her own features as she honked the horn one more time. âOh no,â She began sarcastically as she pulled away from the driveway and began the trip to Penelopeâs, âNot the back up babysitter!â A slight laugh left her lips as she drove, glancing over to Vee before putting her eyes back on the road. âIsnât that the one good thing about being a babysitter, though? Being able to eat all of the familyâs junk food?â Not that sheâd know, she hadnât ever babysat a day in her life.Â
Leaning across Vee to yell back out the window, Thea kept a hand on the steering wheel as she hollered âHurry the fuck up!â to Penelope before leaning back into her own seat and looking at Vee. âOnly if you want to. We can strap her to the roof if ya want.â Smirk coming back to her features, Theaâs brows raised as Penelope approached. âHey, I remembered the margaritas. You canât expect me to do both... and Veeâs makinâ ya climb. If you scratch the leather though Iâm gonna kick your ass.âÂ
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leo-shxwâ:
âApart from the fact that I never seem to have any juice anymore, itâs fine, mum.â Tucking his phone between his ear and his shoulder as he punched in the key code to the front door of his building, Leo pushed the door open with his hip. âI know and itâs fine, honestly, I work all the time anyway, I think the cat is actually glad to have someone around, even if it does mean I need to find room for a second bathroom. I gotta go, mum, I just got home, Iâll call you in a couple of days, okay? Love you too, bye.â
Ending the call, Leo slipped his phone into his pocket, walking over to his security guard as he was waved over. âWhatâs up, Patrick, everything good?â As a package was held out to him, Leo checked the address before rolling his eyes a little. âDoctor turned postman, thanks for this.âÂ
Taking the stairs to his floor, Leo sighed happily as he opened the door to his apartment, the familiar meow of greeting as his cat wandered over to greet him. âHey buddy.â Door closed behind him, Leo gave the cat a quick scratch behind the ears before placing Theaâs parcel on the coffee table. âHey, Thea? Parcel out here for you? You know itâs not illegal to go down and get it yourself, right?â @altheasantxsâ
Moving to Wilmington had been a split second decision akin to throwing a dart at a map when giving the owner of her favorite bodega the final say on her decision, but her mother had been all too happy to hear of the news, quickly throwing her to the wolves and finding her a place to stay with her own husband, knowing full well Thea couldnât say no to her. While the pair had been legally married for over a decade, they were still strangers; never forming a friendship to go with the faux relationship theyâd concocted for the US Government. So living together had been new and a difficult adjustment. Thea wasnât used to having to answer to anyone, to think of anyone but herself and especially not used to sharing a bathroom. But there they were, sharing an apartment she didnât feel at home in in a city she was sure sheâd never grow to like.Â
âWhat?â She asked, annoyance clear in her voice as she emerged from her room, having just finished showering and blow drying her hair after an exceptionally treacherous workout at the gym. âYou know itâs not illegal to just bring the mail in without fucking complaining.â She said in a slight huff, grabbing the package and using a knife from the block in the kitchen to slice open the packing tape, putting it back before pulling open the flaps and peering at what was inside. âHere.â She said, pulling out a pack of cookies with his name on it. âMom sent you these.â Once heâd taken them she went back into the box, pulling out different things from home her mother had sent, a slight smile tugging the corners of her lips upwards, the expression only growing as she realized just how much her mom had sent. Gloria Santos had been sending her daughter small care packages of things from their favorite spots in Boston since sheâd moved to Wilmington and began complaining about the southern city. They were always bright spots in her day whenever she got them, only admitting to her mother just how much she missed home and regretted her decision to move.

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iMessage đ˛ Penelope B.
PENELOPE: You
PENELOPE: Suck
PENELOPE: Okay gotta go there's a guy that's been giving me the eye for the past hour and ya gal's got needs
THEA: Yeah I know
THEA: GET IT GIRL
VEE đ˛Â THEA
VEE: mmmm yeah maybe when i find a halfway decent man who wont leave after the kid turns one. just a thought đ¤ˇââď¸
VEE: but we're so dang charming! ughhhh we need to roadtrip to alabama one of these days so that i can show you all that southern charm we're missin out on here in wilm.
VEE: đ¤˘đ¤Ž i hate this i hate it i HATE IT
VEE: god i should have done that. where does one even get lube??? is there a lube store hidden somewhere around here that no ones told me about????
[twenty minutes later]
VEE: well...he is really pretty....im sceered theeeeaaaaaaaaa.
THEA: you really have to learn how to pick em better don't you? until then, keep it up with the pushup bras
THEA: charming? more like nosy as hell and lacking any kind of personal boundaries. if alabama is anything like wilmington i really might have to pass
THEA: you'll be FINE
THEA: at a sex store? i'm sure wilmington has one or three. i'll look it up and we can take a trip and get you all of the essentials
THEA: .... pretty is GOOD. don't be scared, get your flirt on and get that dick
iMessage đ˛ Penelope B.
PENELOPE: I definitely didn't sign up for that
PENELOPE: Fine u bore. You're missing out an amazing buffet though
THEA: Those are my terms and I'm not budging
THEA: Unless there are tacos I don't give a flying fuck
lynn đą taco soulmate.
lynn: sometimes I think it's just I lack guts with confrontation...verdict is still out.
lynn: for a moment I thought you said watching sex and drinking tequila, a decent night may I add.
lynn: remind me to pass up the next social gathering up.
thea: whatever it is it'll keep you outta jail and isn't that really all that matters?
thea: ya know, maybe that's how my night'll end because it doesn't sound too bad
thea: will do. you can join me at the bar instead
thea: or i can take you to the taco place i found just outside of town that has carne asada tacos to die for

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It was a truly admirable thing to pull off, Thea being able to resist repeating past mistakes and let another hard fist grace his features. There was never any doubt from his side that she would happily do so; she had a way of being annoyingly rebellious, no matter what threats he sent her way. The last time they saw each other had been the only one where she had actually hurt him, but even before that, he was confident that there had been times when she had felt a pressing need to rearrange his face a bit. And as much as she tried to brush off his words and act unbothered, he knew that the topic of her life dream and goal was still a sore subject, and that even if she refused to let him catch a glimpse of her weakness, it was still there, lurking underneath the surface. As she leaned in, a devilish smile tugged at Riverâs lips, pulling in a deep breath to catch the scent of her, welcoming the familiarity of her closeness and hating it all at the same time. And yet, her words only pulled a humorless laughter from his lips, mocking her comment for thinking that it would make a difference. Like he cared what she thought of him, or what anyone thought. Reluctantly, the brunette managed to loosen his grip within seconds, making him feel a sense of weakness that he wasnât at all fond of. She slipped out of his hold so easily, and he could feel the adrenaline starting to pump through his veins, triggered by her actions. There had always been something about her that could get him going so easily in the past â and despite the years that had passed since then, she didnât seem to have lost that impressive ability. For a brief moment, River watched as they were being served their drinks, reaching for his own glass to knock back a quick first gulp. Letting the glass find its way back to the counter once more, he eyed over the dark-haired beauty standing before him, letting his gaze linger a little longer on her ass, feeling that insatiable hunger growing inside of him. Hungry to take another bite of what had been his in the past, of what he had once enjoyed so deeply in-between the rage. He wanted to eat her alive. Stepping forward, the male reached out for her body again, arms wrapping tightly around her slender figure as he pulled her back in, pressing her back firmly against his chest as he held her in place. âYou really gonna come here calling me a piece of shit, when youâre nothing more than a worthless cunt yourself?â Hands moving up her body, eagerly taking in what they had missed over the years, his head pressed against the side of hers, nuzzling her hair as lips placed themselves right by her earlobe. His voice lowered then, barely even a whisper spoken right into the shell of her ear. âThe only fucking Iâll be doing tonight is you.â A brief, silent laughter fell from his lips then, one hand finding its way down lower, steering towards the area between her legs. He was toying with her, but there was no question about the fact that he wanted her badly. Her perfectly sculptured body and hot temper had been reason enough to make him cheat on the woman he loved in the past â no wonder she could still attract the same side of him, even without her being forbidden fruit this time. âEither Iâll fuck you senseless until you learn how to treat me with more respect, or you behave from here on, and Iâll be sure to do it nice and hard â just the way you like it.â
Glass in her good hand, Thea brought it up to her lips and took a slow drink from it, savoring the taste of the tequila on her tongue as she focused on her attempt to keep calm. Years ago the game River was playing had been thrilling for the boxer, his ability to get a rise out of her second to none in or out of the ring and sheâd once relished in it (not that sheâd ever admit it). But now, now all his antics were doing was testing her quickly dissolving self control and as his arms wrapped around her once more, holding her to him, Theaâs entire body tensed up as another dump of adrenaline coursed through her, the taste of copper in her mouth causing her to take another, longer drink from her glass as the hand on her cast-clad arm balled up into a fist. She didnât react right away, though. Allowing him to spew his insults as she did her best to keep her facial expression indifferent even though all she wanted to do was turn in his grasp and remind him of their last meeting in Boston. âJust call âem like I see âem.â She said through gritted teeth, finishing off her drink in one quick swallow and setting the glass down a little harder than necessary on the wooden bar top before signaling for a refill from the bartender. He had her skin crawling and burning at the same time, a feat only ever having been obtained by him, her leveled breathing hiding the pounding of her heart beneath her chest as her jaw tightened at his words and a hollow laugh pushed itself past her lips. âRespect?â She asked, having had enough as her right elbow flew backwards, connecting sharply with his gut and freeing her from his grasp as she turned around to face him and collected his shirt beneath her fist and turned them once more, this time pressing his back into the sharp squared edge of the bar as she stepped forward and crowded his space- taking a page out of his own playbook while her fist kept itâs tight hold on the fabric of his shirt. âThere is literally nothing on this Earth that could get me to give you even an ounce of respect,â She said lowly, face mere centimetres from his, âEspecially not that pathetic excuse for a dick.â Pushing his chest with the fist currently gripping his shirt, Thea closed the distance between them as her nose brushed against his. âSo why donât you go bother someone else, hm? As much as Iâd love to remind you just how much worse that face of yours could look Iâd rather enjoy my night.â She stayed close to him for a moment, eyes narrowed as she stared defiantly into his, licking slowly over her lower lip before finally releasing her hold on his shirt but refusing to take a step back. âNow move out of my fucking way.â
matiasgarcxaâ:
âYou stay here long enough, itâll start getting creepy, how much everyoneâs connected,â Matias remarked, not really meaning it. It was surreal, at times, but maybe creepy wasnât quite the right word. He didnât take it back, though, moving on with a question of his ownâ âYou from New York?â He found himself laughing at her assessmentâ âNah, this isnât work. It helps with my job, sure, but this is fun. One of the best parts of my week, actually. Donât worry, even if I pull out my notebook, Iâm having fun.â And given this was a rewatch for him, there was every chance he might do just that. He didnât like to take notes on his first viewing, instead taking everything in with his full attention. âSo, no, not getting paid, though all this ads-before-the-previews BS might just deserve hazard pay.â
âWhat do you do that a broken arm puts you outta commission?â The question was nosy, sure, more nosy than he might ordinarily ask, but perhaps the womanâs bluntness was infectious, or perhaps he just suspected she wouldnât take it personally. âYou mean, the only good movies were made before 1970 or something? Nah, you canât study film and ignore the mass amounts of things that are being produced right now. Obviously, not in every course, but Iâm teaching a survey course that runs to the present this semester, and my senior seminarâs designed around my studentsâ favourite films.â
âUgh, canât wait.â Thea groaned with a roll of her eyes, head leaning back against the seat as she took a bite from one of her sour straws. She knew Wilmington was smaller than both Boston and New York City, but sheâd still hoped that the narrowed population would allow her for some of the anonymity sheâd grown fond of in the big cities. âOh, fuck no. Boston.â She corrected quickly. There wasnât anything wrong with New York, but sheâd be damned if she let anyone think the city that never sleeps raised her. âThere is nothing fun about taking notes in a movie.â She commented with a slight snort of a laugh, shaking her head in disagreement. She came to the movies to get out of her own head, something she doubted sheâd be able to do if she was pausing to take notes. âWell someone had to give Maria here a job.â She nodded towards the screen with a smirk on her features. âBut you ainât wrong.â
Finishing off her sour straw, Thea wiped the excess sour/sugar grains off on her jeans as she glanced down at her arm before looking back to Matias. âBoxer.â She answered, but not giving any more information than that. While she was proud of her career and her title, she wasnât one for offering up information about herself to strangers. âNo. But every film class Iâve ever heard of is about old movies. Citizen Kane, Mr. Smith Goes to Washington, and The Godfather or some shit, ya know? All the old shit. The basics or whatever.â Shrugging her shoulders, Thea popped a few pieces of popcorn into her mouth. âSo what recent movies do you teach, then?â