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I absolutely have to get around to making an introduction post with boundaries and such.
Let it be said that sourcamtes are fine. Doubles I'm uncertain on for the most part considering I'm so divided in my belief that's split between parallel multiverse theory and 'I am the only me'.
I've been repressing kin matters for a long time and intend on adjusting now that I'm not letting the situation rot on the side.
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"Nightmare hates cats!"
Entirely wrong, I adore an evil little creature actually. Not even evil by personality, but the fact that they were cosmically designed to make life difficult, are sharp in various places, make expressions tharlt confuse and unnerve those who don't know better ('why is he glaring at me?' He isn't), and upset certain groups of men. And that some people are allergic to them, wonderful.
What the fuck else does one presume I would have wanted to see prowling through the manor halls?
Other than appreciating their non-personality evil, I feel about my personal creature the way Emperor Uda felt about his own cat.
"Nightmare hates cats!"
Entirely wrong, I adore an evil little creature actually. Not even evil by personality, but the fact that they were cosmically designed to make life difficult, are sharp in various places, make expressions tharlt confuse and unnerve those who don't know better ('why is he glaring at me?' He isn't), and upset certain groups of men. And that some people are allergic to them, wonderful.
What the fuck else does one presume I would have wanted to see prowling through the manor halls?
Other than appreciating their non-personality evil, I feel about my personal creature the way Emperor Uda felt about his own cat.
Far too long since anyone has called me boss. At this rate, I'll have to become a manager.
good job on the cipher it's straight up undecipherable (said with genuine impression)
Hell yeah
Heh maybe I should make a video telling folkel how to solve it and then put the code somewhere else less complicated. I think the bit has gone on a little too long tbh
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KINGRAPH:
(This is, perhaps, a stupid idea.)
Terribly drawn graph to plot out the general being lately. The idea is that being able to pinpoint myself on here will make things feel less messy and stop the overlap from feeling like a tangle.
Really it should he a 3 point graph not a + but I have a migraine and am throwing thing out there. It also doesn't account for divinity level or dollhood.
Drawing myself kemonomimi'd even just as small for-the-graph heads was eugh for some reason, but that doesn't erase that it's a part of me.
Kin name at work today because they cannot stop me.
When I deed poll, I'm probably going to make it my legal middle name on account of being kinfirmed for so long.
Ccino has clearly left some kind of impact on me because I have been stuck into this stupid game for a year now, having reinstalled is after the old stints years prior.
Forgive the momentary wave of hubris but I am a better atsume player than you casuals. (Peaches evidence.)
Memento obtained, 3 preferences, photos shot. Lowly mortal cur could never. I am a genius at cat power level comprehension. Kitty algorithm master.
Capricious cat indeed but consider her my thrall.
Ego demands I call it godhood instead of demigodhood.
Happy Pride Month time for me to rant about fandom again
(keep in mind chat I am fictionfolk)
I have... mixed feelings about the trans Cross headcanon. I get why folkel like it for sure, and it's certainly not as aggregious as transfem Error, but uh. Where in my source does it say that I'm trans, exactly? Where are you getting this information?
You... you know folkel can change their names without being transgender right,,,,
But, okay, say that I'm trans-coded. I'm still not transgender coded. Can you think outside of gender for one moment? I'm clearly transcharacter. Or like... maybe the opposite of that? I go by Cross because I want my own identity outside of being a Sans. Me, atypical dysphoria Georg, cannot see where fans are getting a transgender read from this.
Is there anything outside of Underverse that Jakei has said that I'm missing here????
Either way uh. Cross is transCross and I'll defend that with my life because having a character with my specific identity is really cool
Saying this with no stance on the headcannon itself because I've never thought about it much, and looking only at the 'where did this come from' angle.
I think this image went around for a while and got picked up by the utmv subconscious. I've seen it shared around a lot. I'm assuming a huge part of it is that it's (presumably based on this, I'm not willing to scroll back that far) by Peñaloza herself.
Mmmm yeah I've seen that! Makes sense why it's a Thing then. A silly drawing means next to nothing, though, especially when the character in question is not shown to go through gender turmoil.
Again, I have no hard beef with the headcanon because drawings like this have been made, I guess I just get kinda sick of folkel projecting on me LOL
Entirely understandable!
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Sometimes I want to make this my main blog instead of my side blog, and have my works be the side so I feel less obligated to constantly pumped out unfinished garbage. We shall see.
Happy Pride Month time for me to rant about fandom again
(keep in mind chat I am fictionfolk)
I have... mixed feelings about the trans Cross headcanon. I get why folkel like it for sure, and it's certainly not as aggregious as transfem Error, but uh. Where in my source does it say that I'm trans, exactly? Where are you getting this information?
You... you know folkel can change their names without being transgender right,,,,
But, okay, say that I'm trans-coded. I'm still not transgender coded. Can you think outside of gender for one moment? I'm clearly transcharacter. Or like... maybe the opposite of that? I go by Cross because I want my own identity outside of being a Sans. Me, atypical dysphoria Georg, cannot see where fans are getting a transgender read from this.
Is there anything outside of Underverse that Jakei has said that I'm missing here????
Either way uh. Cross is transCross and I'll defend that with my life because having a character with my specific identity is really cool
Saying this with no stance on the headcannon itself because I've never thought about it much, and looking only at the 'where did this come from' angle.
I think this image went around for a while and got picked up by the utmv subconscious. I've seen it shared around a lot. I'm assuming a huge part of it is that it's (presumably based on this, I'm not willing to scroll back that far) by Peñaloza herself.
I need my gothic victorian office back, I do not wish to settle for less.
'Haha, goopy man'. Yes, astute observation. I can't be upset about it, it's true in regards to the outer layer.
Though being in there did feel like suffocation. It held me together like glue, and melted me down like acid at different times. It had burst me open. It was my parasite and biggest protector. It was a layer. I appreciate him, in a weird way, for protecting us. Hopefully I don't just feel that way because I'm also that version of myself. The consistency and inconsistency of it all feels strange.
The "I only identify as the younger, not-evil me!" doubles of mine make me especially uncomfortable. I'm still uncertain how I feel about doubles at all yet.
Okay. Well I identify as all of me, I just tend to shift between my corrupt and noncorrupt version. Because I'm me, all of me. There's just a line between myself and myself.
I experience guilt about a lot of the things I went on to do, but I'm getting to be mature about it. I was under the influence of a highly corrupting force. Some people will say thats not true, and that I was essentially the apple version of 'posessed' by some human murderer guy, but I was still very aware of who I am, I was different but the same. The same, but not in the same way. It's more identity discontinuation than genuinely different person. Sure, I was 'posessed' in a way, but only by an extra layer of me I gained from that incident that clung to my bones, there's a separation, but they're inherently connected whether I like it or not.
Right now, 'me' as I consider myself under all the mess, I understand that that was acting as an extension of me. Mostly, I'm aware not just of the before, but if suffocating in myself for 500 years onwards after.
Other times, 'me' as the mess itself, I am cumulatively aware of myself, the corrupt and the prior self I wanted to protect.
I imagine the CDD the this-life brain has, has a tiny bit if something to do with it, but it's still a matter of 'I am me the way I am no matter what', which isn't something fully pure.
But I'm happy for you that you're the do-no-wrong of me- what a saint you are. Having to clarify. (Because I'm just so terrible in full, yes?)
I protect myself for once, I face immense concequences for it, I end up in a different shell in this realm with people who also consider themselves me, but the 'good' version. Alright. If I was ever that good, I would have handled those freaks making a manipulated idol labourer of my brother, wouldn't I? I wouldn't have interacted but certainly I should have pushed more than 'I don't think it's right how much they used you'.
I was a child at the time, I was flawed. If you were that pre-incident me only, 'you' were not perfect.
Maybe I just feel as uncomfortable as I do with it because I'm not alright with doubles, I'm uncertain. I'd like to be, if not for the sake of getting along with more folken, then for the sake of not feeling this heavy sick discomfort when I see one. I shouldn't want to police them just because they're wrong.
Nevermind, I looked back at that confession I reblogged a bit ago again and felt cruel for being so irritated at my less-corrupted counterparts. If you are a non-evilbastard me, I wish you well. I'll keep this up because its still a matter of honest feelings, but I've been hit with the realisation that I'm being a hypersensitive twat.
That aside, it's so strange how my essence of self works. I see my purer self and I feel like that which suffocated me, urged to protect that purer being in some way. I see my 'goopy' self and feel like that 'purer' me, horrified and simultaneously comforted by that entity/extension of myself.
I am an emotionally volatile bastard in a constant transformative state, is the long and short of it.
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The "I only identify as the younger, not-evil me!" doubles of mine make me especially uncomfortable. I'm still uncertain how I feel about doubles at all yet.
Okay. Well I identify as all of me, I just tend to shift between my corrupt and noncorrupt version. Because I'm me, all of me. There's just a line between myself and myself.
I experience guilt about a lot of the things I went on to do, but I'm getting to be mature about it. I was under the influence of a highly corrupting force. Some people will say thats not true, and that I was essentially the apple version of 'posessed' by some human murderer guy, but I was still very aware of who I am, I was different but the same. The same, but not in the same way. It's more identity discontinuation than genuinely different person. Sure, I was 'posessed' in a way, but only by an extra layer of me I gained from that incident that clung to my bones, there's a separation, but they're inherently connected whether I like it or not.
Right now, 'me' as I consider myself under all the mess, I understand that that was acting as an extension of me. Mostly, I'm aware not just of the before, but if suffocating in myself for 500 years onwards after.
Other times, 'me' as the mess itself, I am cumulatively aware of myself, the corrupt and the prior self I wanted to protect.
I imagine the CDD the this-life brain has, has a tiny bit of something to do with it, but it's still a matter of 'I am me the way I am no matter what', which isn't something fully pure.
But I'm happy for you that you're the do-no-wrong of me- what a saint you are. Having to clarify. (Because I'm just so terrible in full, yes?)
I protect myself for once, I face immense concequences for it, I end up in a different shell in this realm with people who also consider themselves me, but the 'good' version. Alright. If I was ever that good, I would have handled those freaks making a manipulated idol labourer of my brother, wouldn't I? I wouldn't have interacted but certainly I should have pushed more than 'I don't think it's right how much they used you'.
I was a child at the time, I was flawed. If you were that pre-incident me only, 'you' were not perfect.
Maybe I just feel as uncomfortable as I do with it because I'm not alright with doubles, I'm uncertain. I'd like to be, if not for the sake of getting along with more folken, then for the sake of not feeling this heavy sick discomfort when I see one. I shouldn't want to police them just because they're wrong.
Fictionkin culture is saying "this is true/canon i was/am ___ !!" as a half joke except its not really a joke because you are who you say you are
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