but then shannon dies and over time he just can't seem to connect with anyone the same way. nothing feels the same and it all feels wrong. he lives in LA and his closests friends are lesbians so of course he wonders if he's gay. he tries checking out guys, flirting with them here and there at bars when his coworkers aren't paying any attention to him but that doesn't really do anything for him either. he can tell when a guy is objectively attractive but it never stirs anything in him.

he did love shannon with everything in him and he was attracted to her so to him the only conclusion is that he is straight but broken. he has panic attacks in his relationships and self sabotages because it feels wrong. buck wants him to pick random women up at bars but he has no interest in hooking up with just anyone. he watches his friends be in straight and gay relationships with admiration but also jealousy that he can't have either.

i don't think eddie saying he's straight is him being in denial but more so that he doesn't have the right information. he's just been told that he is this one thing and he knows the opposite isn't him either. i think it will take him meeting someone that is demi and to explain it to him for it all to finally click into place.

he hates it but he does it until season seven. he's feeling better ! he's got a girlfriend now and everything is settled so there's no reason for him to be on medication right ? he doesn't tell anyone because he's doing good. he's feeling great, actually.

then he meets a woman that looks exactly like shannon. he's already becoming hypomanic during this time so now it's escalated into a manic episode. he's in early stages of psychosis when buck shows up at his door. now. i'm not a big fan of the way they had chris find out. i just don't think it was necessary to do that to the kid. it will end up playing out the same way but the trauma of that just feels so unnecessary to me so kim the night kim shows up only marisol walks in. in canon bobby and athena's house burn down and bobby is in the hospital. i will be pushing that just to the next week. which isn't that important but i just wanted people that aware of the timeline and such that is what's going on here.

they're called to a scene and it's a car crash. it's kim. eddie keeps saying we have to save her this time and i can't watch her die again. buck fills bobby in on the situation and bobby tells him that he has to have a psych evaluation if he wants to still be a firefighter. he is put on a 72 hour hold because he is not stable. he is put back on medication.

he has to tell chris about the situation since he was gone and marisol is gone now too. chris gets so upset. he's a kid and he can't understand how eddie could think someone else could be shannon. that's his mom. it's a change in his life and routine again and he gets so angry he just wants to hurt eddie too so he calls his grandparents. his grandparents show up and take him because it's what they've always wanted so this is their way in. they're old school and don't believe in eddie being bipolar and that he couldn't control it so to them this was just eddie proving them right. he was dragging chris down with him.

eddie works and focuses on his mental health but his confidence about being a father is in the gutter until his new medication starts to work and after a few more weeks he's thinking clearer. all he wants is his son back but he knows LA is home and where they belong so instead of moving to el paso eddie just rents a longstay airbnb there. everything in texas is the same except he just doesn't buy a house. if you want to say bobby is alive then he comes back when they're ready but if bobby is still dead then he comes back for the funeral.

he's taking his medication again all throughout season nine but with all the shit that happens it just stops working. it should be adjusted but eddie doesn't really notice that he's slowly slipping mostly because he's focusing on buck's stuff and the immigration case. it all just piles on until he gets stabbed then it really goes off the handles. he doesn't tell anyone because he thinks he deserves it. he can take this for everyone else.

i do think he already has some ocd but after being stabbed he develops religon ocd and goes into religious psychosis. i don't really know the details of that at the moment but i think i would rather figure it out in writing.