Seems like no man can treat you right, either you’re only getting losers or maybe it’s about you. People model the way they are treated. Sometimes when someone experienced trauma they can only put them selves in situations like that again because it feels normal. Just a fuckin thought. Maybe crust dudes are all the fuckin same. Like Byron who because I white supremicist and like raped his wife or whatever that story is if you know it. Glad both you chickies got away.
Byron also raped me. He raped me because I didn’t allow him to rape two other women. What happened with nick was incredibly fucking wrong and stupid but he understands what I did and understands why we are not together. I just dropped him off today. I already know from the trauma I’ve experienced my whole life that I am prone to be back in those situations but the thing is, is once the real big bad thing happens I’m gone. I am not perfect by any means but what happened between us was not my fault. If I don’t stand my ground and stand up for myself and the shit I have worked hard for then why even bother in the first place?
