|| ADRIAN / SIMON / ARTHUR ||
19 | he/it/co | queer | objectum + posic
|| autistic, DID system & disabled ||
|| physically nonhuman ||
|| a bunch of bots and a dog in a trenchcoat ||
This is my main blog for all my silly shenanigans, most of which follow the theme of alterhumanity, disability, and overall yapping. I usually don't interact/reblog discourse stuff, but if I do it will be tagged accordingly.
I'd prefer if minors didn't dm me, asks & other interactions are fine tho :)
I'm physically a dog, bird, green blob, biohazard thing!! I fully believe I was made in a lab, so if you don't support how I view myself then just leave please. This is a place accepting of all kinds of alterhumanity.
I'd like to be referred to by nonhuman terms (creature, critter, thing) although I am also fine with person and individual. Some labels that I use are nonhuman/alterhuman and pseudohuman
Full kinlist, indepth identity
🦜My sideblogs:
Art: @llamasaremood
System blog(half-inactive): @messy-database
Objectum/techkin: @truckloving-techthing
Bird related: @your-local-autistic-bird
Faceblind blog: @faceblind-culture-is
Cloud photography: @cloud-entity
🐕Some cool posts I've made:
My experiences with face blindness
How biohazard perfectly describes me
Physical nonhumanity & being a lab experiment
About my cryptidness
🐎tags I might use:
#goobers breaching containment = headmates posting on this blog
#my writings = long text posts
#alterhumanity yaps = long posts about alterhumanity
#lab creature moment = lab experiment related stuff
#lab creature assortments = collection of identity flags & terms
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Been seeing a lot of posts about physical nonhumanity lately and it's got me thinking about how I experience it and what I believe about myself and where I came from.
I don't feel human, I'm not supposed to be a human, I just happen to look like one.
I am a lot of things but at my core I feel that I am a Biohazard. A green mess that was never supposed to get out into the world.
Long ramble under the cut with a short TLDR at the bottom.
Where the feeling came from
Why do I feel like this? Well, I've always been inexplicably drawn to labs and underground facilites, lab experiments and weird science stuff. Ever since I was a kid I made stories upon stories of those things. Had daydreams and fantasies. When playing with friends I'd make my character somehow related to a facility or lab. I'd YEARN to find any show or movie with that kind of stuff in it. (Which was really hard because the stuff I would've loved as a kid were all for older audiences.)
But it wasn't always fun, there were times where (in some media) I'd get oddly uncomfortable in my body when seeing someone strapped to a table or being stuck in a lab cell. It just feels so familiar to me.
When I was younger I also believed (and still sometimes get the same feeling) that every helicopter that flew over head was after me for some reason. And this has been a thing ever since kindergarten age.
The uneasy feelings could just be because I was a scared kid, but there's no proper explanation for why I always felt that way. I don't have any specific trauma (that I know of) that would explain it. I don't have any experiences that could cause this kind of reaction to stay for my entire life.
I always wanted to shapeshift too. I don't think I was ever supposed to have just one form. For my entire life I've felt so uncomfortable being stuck in one body. I always yearned to fly, my heart would ache (and still does) because I can't fly anymore. I also miss being quadrupedal and not recognized as human.
I always related to the track collars in movies where they are made of a thick material and have a light on them (bonus if they have the ability to shock). And having something around my ankle feels correct in some deep personal way, a mix between a comfort and something else. It's like it calms me down.
It's all been a lifelong thing that's always been there, ever since I started forming memories.
Where did I come from? (To preface..)
This is where I become a bit nervous to share what I believe. I don't want to be looked weirdly at and have someone tell me my beliefs are "too strange".
But the thing that makes me feel confident enough to share this is because I've seen other lab experiment nonhumans out there sharing their experiences. I love reading about where they came from and how they ended up where they are now!!
I've been thinking about my own origin for a while and I'd say I have a pretty solid idea of where I came from.
Where did I come from?
Simply put: I feel that I was made in a lab. Not born, but made. No idea what country, when, or how. But probably somewhere around the early 2000s. My first form was made in a petri dish. I ended up growing more and more until I either became more shaped like a dog/bird or was somehow forced into one. Not too sure about which yet...
I was definitely able to switch between bird and dog, like a shapeshifter. Not sure about the details yet, there's so much more to explore.
I was there in the lab for some time. There's a lot of blur and I don't have many memories from this time, just feelings.
They definitely experimented a lot with me. Testing all kinds of things. I was a bit feral and hard to contain, but they managed to keep me for at least a few years. I'm glad I don't remember what they did to me, but it still feels like my body remembers and has reflexes & reactions because of it.
Eventually I ended up getting out of the lab. I suspect I escaped in some way because it feels like I'm not supposed to be out here in human society. They would not let something like me just roam around freely without supervision.
I definitely traveled some distance before ending up in the country I now live in. Either it was by flight or just wandering, or maybe even a secret third option?
I must have somehow lost my original form somewhere along the way because now I'm stuck in a human appearing one, while my dogself and birdself is still hidden in me somewhere.
I wonder if they gave up trying to find me because it's been so many years. They probably suspect I didn't survive, and making it into a big thing probably wouldn't have benefited anyone. So I'm lucky in that way. And I'm completely unrecognizable from the outside nowadays.
How it presents itself in me currently
I yearn to be in cages and it has always felt euphoric and like I belong in there whenever I've been inside one. Both metal cages and those holding cells with a glass wall are extremely homey and safe for me. I'd love to see and be in them more often.
I miss the feeling of being monitored and having something that tracks me; some kind of collar and some leg/ankle monitor.
I miss the lab, a lot. The more I think about it the more I want to go back. I know it probably wasn't the most comfortable place but knowing how humanity is right now, I'd prefer to be somewhere kept away from all the stress and horror. Listening to ambience videos with lab sounds helps soothe me a lot, it's nice.
My hypermobility and being neurodivergent feels tied to my nonhumaness. I'm not supposed to be human so my brain is not functioning like it. My joints are all messed up too. The transition from a green mess to dog/bird to a human body has taken a toll on me for sure.
My blood is supposed to be green but it looks red when taken from my body. There was a time where it didn't do that but that was before I got stuck here.
I miss being a biohazardous piece of green, but because I've been stuck for so long in this shape I can no longer leave it or even change how I look from the outside. I guess it counts as a camouflage technique so that I can't be found out, but it kinda sucks sometimes. I miss my old form.
I get phantom shifts of being bird and dog very often. Probably the most common shifts I get out of all my kintypes. And I think they might be the only ones that are physical (Not sure since I could've been able to shapeshift into more animals?).
I can't comprehend being related to my family. It feels... off. I share similarities with them yes, but I don't feel like I'm one of them. I do still acknowledge that I had a childhood and was socialized in a human way.
TLDR: I'm a lab made green biohazardous dog bird experiment and I miss my home (the lab), I've always felt like this since my childhood, and it still affects me.
And with that I think I'm finally done writing this post. I spent a lot of time thinking and writing this so if you read all of it, thank you!! If anyone has any similar experiences they'd want to share I'll gladly read it! Feel free to reblog and comment :))
I would like to invite you to compare the way you treat and think about paraphilias to the way you treat and think about other disorders with me. particularly if you are a member of communities that aren’t as likely to spread stigma surrounding disorders like NPD and ASPD etc like in typical society.
anti paras tend to hold the beliefs of ‘anti para unless anti contact’ in a guilty until proven innocent sense, the conflation of paraphile with predator is so deeply ingrained from decades of social stigma that it provides people with a safety net to acceptably say that we should kill and harm paraphiles.
as someone who has personality disorders, these disorders sometimes compel me or make me desire to harm people. acting upon my desires to hurt people around me would be physically and emotionally traumatic for strangers and even people I care about. why can you rationalise empathy for people like me, when this pertains to BPD, NPD, ASPD, schizophrenia, etc? if someone was to say ‘anti NPD, except anti abuse ones’ why is that unacceptable, but ‘anti para, except anti contact ones’ is acceptable?
do you understand that sexual taboo is affecting the way you treat and think about human beings? do you understand that sex being integrated into the conversation is what’s affecting your mental shift from ‘person with a condition’ to ‘predator’ as soon as the conversation moves to paraphiles? ‘narc abuse’ is a condemned term in these communities for conflating a condition with abuser. but conflate ‘paraphile’ with ‘predator’ and you very wilfully submit to a decades long psyop that has also been historically used to hurt the gay and trans community.
it’s frustrating that I try and keep this blog mogai focussed, but more and more violence and bullying is being incited towards various groups that already suffer from social stigma. you aren’t interested in protecting children if you can’t get over your own internal biases— who is going to protect the children who are paraphiles? who is going to protect the victims who are paraphiles?
consider your own hypocrisy, dont disregard reason and empathy to soothe your personal discomforts
I've known a number of non binary people in my life and I think single biggest conclusion I can draw from that is that non binary people are not the same. Like if Men fit in box A and women fit in box B, people really, really want nonbinary people to fit in a theoretical box C, and it just doesn't work like that. They are outside the boxes. They defy any simple categorization because they are not a third way of being, but every other possible way of being.
Being supportive of binary people is relatively simple, they have decided to sort themselves into one of the boxes that we have lots of experience interacting with. Being supportive of nonbinary people can be comparatively tricky, because you have to resist the urge to create box C and drop them all there. That's how we end up with various prejudices like "woman lite". Humans really, really like to categorize things. It helps us think. Unfortunately, sometimes it helps us think wrong.
If you have a non binary person in your life, I think it is important to take the extra effort to learn about them specifically.
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It is something that is quite often repeated in therian spaces is the abundance of wolves in particular. Rather than doing the methode where a bunch of species are listed I am curious how close the community on average is to wolf.
Please select the closest common clade. If you do not have a nonhuman identity, please select the bottom result if you wish to see the results to avoid skewing the information. If you have multiple types select the closest (or most significant depending on your desire). If your type is not classified such as theriomythics, please select the Other option. If the type classification is unclear (i.e. certain ediacaran or similar ancient life) select which you think best fits.
Examples: Minke Whale (balaenoptera acutorostrata) - Mammalia, African Wild Dog (lycaon pictus) - Canidae, Common Tern (sterna hirundo) - Chordata, Pegasus - Mythical: Other, Silver Elf - Non-Terran: Other
How Close to Wolf Are You?
Species: C. Lupus
Genus: Canis
Family: Canidae
Order: Carnivora
Class: Mammalia
Phylum: Chordata
Kingdom: Animalia
Life: Terran
Non-Terran, Non-Life, Non-Classified, Mythic, or Other
Results/I do not identify as non-human
Remaining time: 5 days 23 hours
Please reblog this to share it further as I am quite curious and would benefit from getting responses beyond my immidiate circle.
disordered system culture w amnesia is what the fuck was I trying to say. what was I doing. why did my thought disappear. where did it go give it back. I KNOW I was thinking something I KNOW I wanted to say something I don't remember what it was I can't remember for the life of me
In light of recent events, I have begun submitting bug reports when I see mature content labels applied inappropriately to posts, especially if an appeal has been rejected.
for what it's worth: after a few months of submitting help tickets as 'feedback' when i saw a post inappropriately flagged as mature, i tried following this suggestion instead. today i got my first-ever response from tumblr support on this issue, letting me know that a post i'd submitted a ticket before has had its mature content flag removed.
This is legitimately brilliant. Bug burndown reports (the rate at which your software team can close bugs) is a major metric for most software houses.
It takes an extra step in our part, but this is part of what makes it effective. It's not one click, one reblog activism and it hits them where they care: their damn KPIs.
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u people have got to get more normal ab people who don't make sense to u . I mean like people who ramble on and don't know how to have proper conversation . people who are completely incomprehensible . people who talk about delusions and hallucinations . people who can't understand social cues . people with speech impediments or no speech at all . people with vocal tics . not just because it's the decent thing to do but also bc this is most common in the most vulnerable marginalized people . youth , elders , mentally ill , disabled , addicts as well as more generally people with accents & non English speakers .
Rather than distinctly male or female, the human brain is much more like the heart, kidneys and lungs – basically the same no matter the sex of the body it's in.
“This collapse is a telltale sign of a problem known as publication bias. Small, early studies which found a significant sex difference were likelier to get published than research finding no male-female brain difference.”
It's okay to want to be "human" sometimes. It means no secrets. No rejection from loved ones. It's not as complicated. Hell, it may even mean feeling more comfortable in your own skin. I get it. I've been there.
It doesn't make you any less nonhuman.
When you feel backed into a corner, remember who you are.
Sometimes when I talk about how "all men are ___" and similar ideas are dangerous, it gets misconstrued as this desire to coddle men or deny misogyny, etc.
I am all for holding men accountable. I do think we should call out petty, controlling, abusive behavior, and I do think men should face consequences for these behaviors.
Because it is important that these men face consequences, it is important to teach people — men who have gotten away without so much as a slap on the wrist, women who enable these behaviors, girls who are told that it is okay to be treated this way, impressionable boys developing their sense of morals — that it is not okay to behave this way.
But the second we start insinuating that these traits are inherently masculine, innate male behaviors, we throw that progress away.
It's true that these behaviors are more common in men, but not for biological reasons. It's because these behaviors have been labeled as acceptable, these behaviors have been encouraged. Which is why it is crucial to say "no, this is not okay, this is unacceptable, and there are consequences to doing this."
When you reduce it biological explanations, you give these behaviors a pass. You're saying, whether you mean to or not, that men are behaving as men do, because they're men, and this is how they operate. Which means that these behaviors are acceptable by virtue of being uncontrollable. That's just how men are. They can't help themselves. It's up to everyone around them to protect themselves, because men are just giving in to their nature.
Which is dangerous reasoning! Yes, absolutely hold men accountable, but remember that they are making the decision to act this way, and that society supports this decision and encourages it. If you want change, you have to present change as an option.
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Hey everyone. There's a new youtube feature that rolled out just yesterday that's raising some privacy concerns.
People in the U.S., U.K., Brazil, and Singapore can now share videos and chat with friends directly within the YouTube app. The update bring
This post talks about a new DM feature in youtube. What it fails to mention is that as part of this new feature is that when you send someone a link to a video, and they open it in the youtube app, they will see who sent them the link. Specifically, your channel name.
If your google account name is your real name, so is your channel name by default.
This means the new default behavior is that everyone you send a youtube link to will see your full name if they open it in the mobile app.
To turn this off:
Go to your youtube app settings
Go to Privacy
Turn off "Channel visibility for shared links"
Trimming the source id (the stuff after the '?' in links) will also prevent this from happening.
Imagine a bunch of robots reading human stories about the Ouija board and the planchette moving by itself to communicate with ghosts. So they try it out, but because they don't have the the same human brain of moving things subconsciously, nothing happens. And they just sit and stare. confused.
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