FELIX 🗣️‼️

Feel free to keep sending asks, I’ll address them when I can!

I think she’d want to do the opposite of what he’s doing. Maybe work at a bookstore or laundromat or whatever jobs will take her until she can get into nursing or rebuilding programs. She works to repair the damage her family did on the other side of the wall. She visits fragments of the wall on Felix’s birthday. Sometimes she even calls.

I think Felix has a habit of forgetting what someone else’s baseline of knowledge is. He is a concept explainer best suited to people already in that field of study. For example, when explaining a computer program, he may reference programming languages, styles, or relevant comparisons that only make sense to people who’ve been at it for a long time. When cooking, he might tell a beginner to julienne carrots or use other technical terms they might not know (or might not have the words for in whatever language he is speaking).

Most likely! I think a lot of them have faded by now and he doesn’t look at them much, but old cigarette burns or scar tissue around his knuckles might still call the worried attention of a close friend or partner.

I think he places some degree of emphasis on maintaining a certain perception of him that means he doesn’t like to seem out of control in front of others (or in front of himself).

Absolutely. Nightmares aside, from personal experience, chronic stress and anger issues are…not conducive to regular good nights of sleep. It’s gotten better with time and practice, but lord knows he’s had a lot of bad nights.

I’m afraid I can’t quite parse the question?

I think he’d be pleasantly surprised by a surprise party, but only if it’s low-key enough. To a certain point, it’s a sign of peace and love and he’ll take all of that he can get. Off key singing is his favorite part, but he could do with not being the center of attention for a little while. If people are signing to him, he’s singing and clapping along, probably in German. I think he’d be the type to repeat it afterwards in a more traditional style in whichever language he misses hearing the most.

I think it’s one of those things he only mentions if someone asks (and he responds quickly with a smile, brushes it off). Very rarely, perhaps on a death anniversary or birthday, he might be in a mood to remember and talk more in depth, but it’s rare.

I think he’s a professional adrenaline hater. Adrenaline makes him feel out of control, and nightmares often fill people with adrenaline. I think before he wakes up, the nightmare mostly lives in his facial expressions - twitches, discomfort, maybe flinching - and then he wakes with a start. He’ll run a hand down his face, try to calm his heartbeat, and almost always has to get up and start his day early. He’s really bad at sitting with nightmares and getting a head start on work, cooking, or chores feels like taking a little bit of control back.

I’ve always thought vaguely bisexual but demiaroace. I think it takes time for him to love people and it takes time for him to become interested in or comfortable with sex, but it doesn’t matter what gender the person is once he reaches that point.

I do think he had a few dalliances with young women he didn’t really know how to say no to, but nothing serious. Maybe one of them got close enough to be considered a friend, but he had bigger things to worry about. I wouldn’t say he’s an inattentive lover, but I imagine able-bodied twenty-somethings in the Stasi aren’t home with energy to spare very often.

I think he got along well with his teachers and it let him get away with a lot of things that probably should’ve been lessons to learn from. He probably had a group of boys he wasn’t all too close with. They’d hang out as a group, play sports in whatever open lots they could find, and occasionally have a laugh beating the younger kids at football or near-bullying them for amusement. Again, things that he should’ve learned were wrong but never really got reprimanded for. It’s what the rest of the group found fun, so he found it fun, too.

I don’t think he had pets growing up, but I think he loves animals. If there was ever a dog or horse or any animal of substantial size in his vicinity, I think he’d approach it and immediately get tackled to the ground. He loves affectionate animals. I also think he talks to them a lot.

If I find more good databases + books I will post them! If anyone sees this and has recommendations or counter-arguments, please feel encouraged to share.

I’ll ponder this more when I have time. Thank you as always for giving me something to think about!

Initially, I was drawn to Felix for his sarcasm. I’m a sucker for competency, and man is he competent. He’s kind to a world that was never kind to him. I think the complete lack of content around him also helped — I wanted more people to write and draw him and saw tumblr as an easy way to achieve that. He’s since fallen firmly into the comfort character category, though I’ve actually spent a whole lot more time with Case, Adler, and Bell.