stuck in reverse

Savannah turned to face the girl and smiled, brushing off her own struggles with a wave of her hand. “It’s nothing. I’m fine.” She sighed again, “I’m looking for someone, but I’m having no luck. Otherwise there’s really no reason for me to be so pouty.” Shaking her head, her eyes dropped briefly to the photo in the other girl’s hands. “Are you okay?”

Felicity smiled lightly, nodding. “Oh. Well, I would try to help you but I don’t really know anybody.” She admitted casually, shrugging. “Me? Yeah.. I’m fine.”

“Good. You’re doing great. Taste and smell too, yeah?” Sam cleared the barricade at the door as quickly as he could and eventually got the door opened. “Hey, buddy. How you doing?” He tried his best to lighten the mood, holding out a hand to her, smiling softly.

Felicity practically raced through the door the second it was open, pressing her forehead to the wall once she was out of there, closing her eyes and doing her best to focus on breathing. She turned, working up a smile, looking down at his hand obliviously until she remembered she’d learned about handshakes, holding her own out. “Hi...” She couldn’t help but chuckle. “I’m fine. Um, thanks.”

“Take deep breaths.” Marcus was trying not to panic himself, he had to take control of this because both of them panicking wouldn’t do each other any good. “Alright, I’m going to try now.” He turned towards the door and grabbed the knob. Doing his best to try and get it open. “Well that didn’t work so let’s try..” He stepped back, and lifted his leg to kick open the door. Watching it break open. “We are free.” 

Felicity pressed her back up against the wall, doing her best to try and focus, to steady her breathing... try those stupid things they were telling her about in therapy but she kind of didn’t have much faith in this whole thing. She watched, sure she was going to be trapped forever but eventually he kicked the door and she forced herself to move, fleeing the small space. She stood outside the door and turned around to look at him. “I -- th-thanks..”

“Don’t like tight spaces?” He questioned, trying to distract her or something. Moving over to the door, Harvey tried it. When it didn’t open, he gave it another try and watching it open. “Bloody thing must get jammed up easily.”

“N-no, I... I just need to know that I can--” She inhaled sharply, doing her best to focus on calming down. “--that I can get out.” Being trapped for so long and then being free and being forced back into this type of situation was horribly triggering.

Fiona reached over and brushed away some of her tears before pulling her hand back. “He kissed you? Did he force it on you? Do we need to go to the police?”

Felicity shook her head, wiping away her stupid tears. “No, it... I...” She sniffed, unable to get her thoughts into a straight line. “It wasn’t like Sir, it was...” But a few more tears escaped her anyway and she curled up a little, hugging her knees to her chest. “I don’t know... anything.” She had watched a movie and the people in it had seemed to like kissing and touching, like it was some nice normal thing and Felicity just didn’t understand her conflicting thoughts. “He wouldn’t hurt me like that.” Of that she was pretty sure.

“Are you sure? You don’t seem fine. What’s wrong?” Fiona questioned, sitting down next to her. “Did Benji do something?”

“No...” She shrugged, shaking her head. “I mean, yes... I don’t...” Felicity sniffed, reaching up to wipe her eyes. She felt ridiculous but she was seriously messed up so what hope did she have, right? “He kissed me.”

“Fliss?” Sam’s brow furrowed when he heard her voice coming from behind a door. “Is that you in there?”  It looked like someone had deliberately blocked the door. “Hold on, I’ll get you out, but deep breaths, okay? It’s Sam. You remember what I taught you?”

Felicity paused, feeling a bit hopeful when she got a reply from the other side. “Y-yes.... Sam.” Sam, okay. She remembered Sam. “Y-yeah..” What was it again? She struggled to try and steady her breaths, feeling completely panicked at being stuck. “Th-things I can see.. hear... and feel.”

Rosie looked at the girl and gave her a soft smile. “ It’s going to be okay, I promise.” She told her before jingling with the doorknob. “ There we go, they definitely need to get that fixed.” She mentioned after opening the door. 

Felicity did her best to calm down but it was difficult. She’d lived in captivity her whole life and she just couldn’t cope with the thought she could be back there. “I... thanks...” She murmured, feeling quite embarrassed. “I... hopefully they... fix it soon...”

“Hey, hey it’s okay. Calm down. Everything will be okay.” Harvey stated, looking over at her for a moment. “Want me to try?”

She looked over at him, frantic, before she nodded. “Y-yeah... I need...” She needed the hell out of here. “Hurry-”

“Hey. It’s okay. I’m a detective. I can help okay? But I need you to calm down and stay calm. Alright?” Marcus moved over her to her. “Let me try.”

Felicity shook her head, feeling unable to really calm down because the thought that she wasn’t able to get out made her frantic. She backed away when he moved over, pressing her back against the wall as she stared at the door. “Just...” Get me out. All Felicity could do was nod in respose.

Rosie turned around and noticed the door was stuck again. “ It’s okay.” She softly told her. “ It gets stuck sometimes. You’re fine. Do you want me to try and open the door?”

She nodded frantically. “Y-yes! Please, just... just open...”