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So today was a good day, boyfriend and I woke up early, picked up a friend, got bubble tea, went back to our house, had a threesome (nothing new for us), and then I went to work.

Got home, showered, ate and relaxed. But the feeling of just being upset and down came out of nowhere, and I've been so good lately. The last time I was like this was last week, it was a major episode, panic attack and all, but before then I was fine for so long. Why does it have to come back when I finally start to feel whole again? Why everytime I feel good, for too long my body says no? Why can't I just be okay for awhile?

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The worst thing about anxiety is that you know those thoughts are irrational, you just can’t seem to control them

I dont know if I can do this anymore, the whole having to put on a face because you dont want him to know you're upset and annoyed. But I can't just put on a face for him anymore. I'm upset, I get dressed up and do my makeup and I feel cute and I dont even get a "you look good" nope, nothing. We make out for like an hour and get "no, you're not getting dick" I got dressed up and look nice and I just need this. And i got nothing. So im just stupid and ugly for thinking that trying would make him want to fuck me. I'm so done trying, I hate feeling like this. He doesn't tell me I'm pretty, he doesn't say nice things to me anymore. Im so done

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“i can’t concentrate i feel indecisiveness i’m so tired, so tired i bottle up everything i don’t want to be around anyone i want to hide inside i want to hide behind a mask”

— t.m.

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“some days i just want to scream scream into the void scream with all the power of my lungs but i have no air left and i have no hope left so i stay silent and alone hiding every feeling i own”

— t.m.

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“That was the problem: I loved you too much. I thought of you too much. The memories of you are shattering the life out of me.”

— Juansen Dizon, September Flashbacks

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Me: i don’t want to be myself anymore

Anxiety: then overthink every part of your life

Anorexia: then starve and get thin

Depression: then die

Well fuck me then

So apparently I really need to stop directly comparing my self worth to my fuckability

Because 1. I know my boyfriend loves me

2. Why would I just magically become unfuckable?

Every time I'm like "just shut up and fuck me" he's always "I'm not in the mood"

Bitch your dick is in the mood, I can tell.

But it won't happen then I get sad and insecure about my body because it's obvious it's my fault he doesn't want to have sex, what's physically wrong with me that he wouldn't want to? What do I have to change?

That's where I am, Every time

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Lmao my period got me fucked up

I cried because he woke me up because he got loud playing video games and then I was just sad

Like bitch you good?

When your mood swings are so intense that when someone threw away your food you start to cry and lock yourself in a room because fuck life

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if i had $1 for every time i wanted to kill myself i could afford therapy

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some days you really want to wake up and be your best positive self but instead that does not happen and that’s just la vie

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