"soulmates never die"

Thank you to everyone who puts them and their feelings first.

Thank you for knowing we can love them fiercely and still protect their boundaries.

Thank you for choosing real love over clout.

Thank you for giving Liam and his loved ones love and dignity.

its

not

the

end

i’ll

see

your

face

you just wanted to be loved and to make people happy with your music. i hope you can now see this outpouring of love that you never received in your time.

today shouldn't be the official goodbye.

and today especially shouldn't include random "fans" showing up to his funeral.

this is not a meet and greet. please show a shred of decency and stay away.

all the memories

I have with you

in my heart

forever " ❤️

She did not understand. She didn’t get the comfort baked into seeing old usernames and favorite fic writers, an online version of the way familiar faces you haven’t thought of in ages come to a funeral, and you suddenly realize the depth of their indelible mark on your life — how you wouldn’t be who you are today, personally, emotionally, creatively, without these names, these stories, these references, these inside jokes; all weighty things that hold a level of nostalgia you could never possibly explain.

i've built a life without one direction for the last 5 years. when i last logged out of tumblr in 2019, I've been able to do a lot of things. I went to college, went to law school, started working, etc.

but when i heard about liam, it just hit me that the life i've built the past few years was just preparation for when the time comes that 1d ever reunites. it was a subsconcious goal for me to achieve my dreams because then i'd be able to actually heal my inner fan-- the fan who never got to buy merch, buy cds, buy tickets, watch them live, etc.

all these years, i've mindlessly scrolled past the solo endeavors of the boys. i didn't listen to their solo songs, etc. i now realize it was bc i felt like i was betraying my inner fan if i started to love the stuff they put out alone. it was a weird thing to think but i think that's the explanation why i never went out of my way to support them in their solo careers.

im so, so lost. this loss is unspeakable.

At some point, and for some of us it will be very soon while for others of us it will be a long time from now, you will start to feel like you want to listen to One Direction, or to Liam’s music, and simply enjoy it. You’ll watch This is Us or San Siro and you won’t be in mourning, you’ll be enjoying yourself. You will look at Liam and think only happy thoughts, and you will know that he is gone but in that moment it won’t hurt the same.

And you may, in that moment, feel supremely guilty about it.

I need you, when it happens, to take those feelings of guilt and let them go.

Liam, I am so certain of this, would not want you to feel guilty for not feeling sad. Liam, with his big heart and his joy and his happiness, would want you to take delight in what he made for you. I know and believe this with everything in me.

We have all suffered a deep loss that will change everything, it will change how we view our fandom time forever, to varying degrees. But someday, your heart will say, I want to let life in. And you should let it, when that happens.