FDR U Kidding Me?!

So tired of constantly fighting the effects of brain washing that happens from long term sexual, physical, religious, and psychological abuse. Its like these men have broken the part of me that felt worthy of being treated like a human being, and now years later I'm still picking out shards of glass embedded in me. What if I deserve so much better but I can't see it because of how badly I've been treated for so long? Its like Ive lost my understanding on what human relationships are supposed to be at this point.

Mucus wakes up my brain every morning by convincing my body it is chocking. The fear of chocking and dying at the moment of waking triggers my PTSD and instead of falling back asleep I close my eyes to flash backs..... This has been every day since this last PTSD relapse and I can take it another day. And yet I do.

and the people who have now tried to do it more than three times can go FUCK THEMSELVES IN HELL YOU ROTTEN SHIT HEADS.

If you don't stand up and help a child who has been victimized, you are standing up and helping pedophiles. If you don't stand up and protect victims of sexual assault, YOU are standing up and protecting the perpetrator. If you don't stand up and protect rape victims YOU ARE PROTECTING RAPISTS. If you don't protect and support victims of domestic abuse, YOU are supporting and protecting wife beaters. Its really hard to talk about experiencing physical or sexual assault, even to a person you really thought you could trust. Please realize that if someone chooses to open up to you. Its because they trust you its because they believe you will support them. Whatever you do, don't say you can't choose sides, don't say you don't believe them, don't say you have to get the other side of the story, or that's just not like him, or, children have very vivid imaginations or well that's not really my business, or I can't judge him for something i didn't see. Remember when you say those things and stay friends the perpetrator. You are LITERALLY teaching your criminal friend that he can rape and assault consequence free. Even worse you are telling the victim that you don't really care what has happened to them. No matter how many sympathetic words follow, you have already shown your true character. Think hard about your values, and what you want for your daughters or your wives or girlfriends the next time someone is admitting to you that they are the victims of a sexual or violent crime.