evelynlesmyng

*First off, PDJ because I have PCD. Please don’t judge because I have post concert depression. Still? Yeah I know. I just need to write about my experience because I think it’ll help me carry on again. And it’s approaching four years since I’ve seen them live for the very first time. Comparing this time to my experience from three years ago, I think I’m handling this pretty well actually.

*Second, shout out to my amazing C Star for helping me record basically everything, because I wasn’t emotionally stable enough to hold my phone without shaking and for capturing their voices over my deaf screaming and ugly sobbing at the same time. Thanks for letting me embarrass you as I cried listening and watching GD serenade me. But c’mon you saw the other VIPS, I wasn’t that bad. hi Lorie.

*Third, thank you thank you thank you to everyone who went on my emotional roller coaster ride with me the morning I was trying to cop tickets. That shit was so nerve wrecking, holy shit. Thanks for keeping me together and giving me strength to click as fast as I did, LOL. Ya’ll know who you are!

*Fourth, thank you to all my other fellow VIPS. Even though I didn’t get to interact with all of you guys directly, reading about all your experiences and feels and looking through all your photos and fancams makes me feel a little less crazy. I know I’m not going through this PCD alone. I honestly think we are the best fandom out there.

*Lastly, for those of you who don’t know, I’m not a religious kpop listener. I’m only like this for Big Bang, and will only allow myself to fangirl for them and only them, especially for GD. I have been listening to and supporting them for nearly a decade now. And no, I don’t know what they’re saying majority of the time but idgaf. Please don’t judge.

Okay let me just start writing before I get any more off track. Oh and if ya’ll would like, you can read about my experience from three years ago, HERE. Heads up though, it’s a pretty lengthy read and this one might be as well.

Alright, so as of yesterday, it’s been officially three weeks since I saw Big Bang live again. Getting my voice back after this concert was the ill struggle. It was their second world tour and it took them three years to come back to the U.S. FINALLY!! The waiting game was so real but I feel so blessed I got to see them again, even though I only went one out of the two days they had their concert here. Not going to lie and not only me, but my sister too feels the Alive Tour was so much better. However, with that said, that doesn’t make this MADE tour any less amazing. I certainly had a kick ass time and I’m sure everyone else did too. Seeing them live is so worth, and it’s so different than seeing them in music videos and stuff. There’s interaction involved and although I’d like to believe it’s directly towards me they are speaking to, singing to, blowing kisses to, winking to, it’s still nice to hear them in person. The atmosphere of the yellow sea coming alive makes me so happy. Like seriously, forever a VIP. My great grand kids will know who they are if I ever have any. Getting off topic again, I’m just going to try my best to jog my memory of this day, although it was unforgettable, it’ll forever feel surreal and dreamlike. On the real though, did I actually see Big Bang again!?? Yes, yes I did.

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The Journey

It was less of a journey actually this year because my sister drove since it was a Saturday. I had work for a few hours that morning. My job actually gets my mind off a lot things majority of the time, so I wasn’t totally fixated on the anticipation of the wait time I had to go through until 8pm. But of course, knowing me, I would set three alarms for every hour between the interval of 5pm to 8pm reminding myself that I’m seeing Big Bang that day. Not that I needed the reminders anyway. So yeah, my sister and I left the house around 5pm. Traffic was heavy as shit leaving Manhattan. Literally all the cars in front, to the left, to our right and behind us were fellow VIPs. It really sucks that Big Bang couldn’t have their concert in actual NYC. No offense to Jersey though, but New York City is where it’s at. And yet again like three years ago, they kept referring us as “New Jerz” when I’m pretty sure a good amount of us are from New York. Not Jersey. Like c’mon when you think of the east coast it’s obvious that NYC first comes to mind. Okay, definitely getting off topic again, so we found parking in the lot near Prudential Center. Took us a whole hour and a half to finally reach Prudential Center. We were hungry so we just grabbed Chipotle. Chipotle is only $7.50 in New Jersey like what even. Okay, New Jersey, I guess you’re not that bad. We ate outside of the center just looking at the endless line, trying not to think about how long it’ll take to get everyone in. Like it was already approaching 7pm but they still didn’t start letting people in. So yeah, we scarfed down the rest of our burrito bowl and walked to the end of the line. Not going to lie, it probably took us at least 15 minutes to find the end of that line, only to find out we didn’t know what the line was for, because like three years ago, there’s GA and VIP and this year there’s floor GA, so it was just chaos and people weren’t standing in an actual line and the Prudential staff didn’t even know what was what. But whatever, we made it in before 8pm and show started late as we expected. They of course had to entertain us somehow, and they blasted all their music videos trying to hype us up. And yeah, GDbae obviously had the loudest cheers (insert heart eyes emoji).

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I swear I didn’t mean to but I must have pissed off the people standing behind me throughout the whole concert, especially when GD came to our side or when he was doing his solos, because I was in the air the whole time. In the air meaning, I couldn’t stop jumping and throwing my arms up and screaming and tearing at the same time. I think my sister wanted to punch me too cause I kept stepping on her. Hi Lorie. Sorry Lorie. I know you all feel the same, and know exactly what I’m talking about and just can’t contain yourselves,  especially when your bias is giving you fan service. (insert heart eyes emoji x438573495) Anyway, so the tension was built up for their opening by playing their short film thing, and they kicked off with BANG BANG BANG. Then the screen thing opened  like curtains, which wasn’t what I was expecting and o m g there they were, BIGBANG♥♥♥♥♥. Yes, I lost my shit, even though Taeyang has the first line in this song but ohmyyyy, perfect song to start the night. I feel like us VIPs not only sing along with our baes but we dance with them too. Which is what my sister and I did disregarding the minimal leg room we had because we are slightly elevated in our section. It was so hard to fight the impulse of just throwing myself forward just so I could be closer to them. Yeah, I’ll admit it. I must have lost my shit about 2358239523 times that night. They sounded so so so so amazing. Looked even more amazing. Like, I can’t, it felt almost painful seeing and hearing how beautiful they are. Alright, I’m starting to sound delusional.

I’m just gonna list the songs I remember them performing and make comments along the way again. MADE isn’t my favorite album of theirs but that did not stop me from singing//screaming as if Korean is my first language. It’s so hard to enunciate words simultaneously while wanting to break down and cry every second because something so magical is in your presence. Uhg, PCD is definitely hitting me hard again.

BANG BANG BANG (this song is so catchy, especially the bridge because that’s when they slow things down. I know all my fellow VIPs enjoyed getting low to this ^___^ )

Tonight (They probably added this to their set list because they wanted us to remember this night. But honestly, how could we forget it?)

Stupid Liar (I love it when they shake their heads to this song, cause it’s part of the choreography but I LOLed so many times when STUPID/LIAR was projected on the screen and it’ll be the camera focusing on the boys. Okay that made more sense in my head)

Haru Haru (Shout out to the band for making me feel extra feelsy~ during this song because they slow it down so much. Just like three years ago, we VIPs sounded so good and cute singing along to the chorus and harmonizing. Yay to us. This was also the oldest song they sang that night I think)

Loser (Probably my favorite song of the night besides GD’s solo. I thought the revolving glass/mirrors were cool but felt so bad for the sections at the ends of the U because of the blocking screen/curtain openers. But yeah, fucking love GD’s lines in this song. ♥♥♥)

Blue (YAAAY, a song from the Alive album because it’s my favorite of theirs and it brought back so many memories of when they shooted their music video for this song in NYC. But yeah such a feelsy~ song for me. I’m sure for the boys too, because they sang it extra slow)

Bad Boy (YAAAAY x9458340643 because this is my favorite from the Alive album. GD’s lines ♥♥♥ and it was so cute when he asked us to sing along and pretended to be shy by going first. His charisma gives me life. And the choreography to this song is really simple but like, bad. haha that was lame. But yeah feelsy~ for me again because the video was shot in Queens, which is where I’m from)

If You (uhg, such a good slow song. I know all us wanted to be the microphones in their hands during this)

Strong Baby (Seungri’s solo was on point as always)

Wings (Daesung’s angelic voice is amazing as always and his body rolls, and ass shaking, haha)

Doom Dada (My sister lost her shit because TOP is her bias. His raps are so clean and fast. There’s like awkwardness to him that makes me swoon for him)

Eyes Nose Lips (I honestly thought Taeyang was going to perform RingaLinga for his solo but I guess this one showcases his voice better. Uhg, Taeyang never fails to deliver one hundred percent. He’s so perfect)

Zutter (GD&TOP are honestly my favorite. They are the reason I listen to any rap at all. I love bumping to them. They feed off each other’s energy, it’s like I feel their bromance. It’s such a catchy song too. I wish GD was on my side of the stage though, but TOP killed his rap)

Good Boy (I actually wasn’t expecting a GD&Taeyang stage but I wish they sang Stay With Me instead. But I guess two songs from Taeyang’s Rise album would be too much. But whatever, not complaining because Good Boy definitely got us VIPs hyped again. Such a fun song to bump to)

Crooked (YAS YAS YAS YAS YAS. I definitely lost it when this song started. I’m so happy he chose this song for his solo. Probably my most favorite song on GD’s Coup D’Etat album or favorite song of his so far. Who am I kidding, I love anything this man sings or says. But yeah ohmy I screamed so much and loud the people standing in front of me kept turning around to only encourage me to scream louder. I love VIPs so much, they understand. Hi Lorie. Thanks for recording this once again for me. The lyrics are so so so good. Uhg, forever a GD bias. He’s so talented)

Sober (I think this was when Daesung had some drum solo? I never knew he could play like that. It was so cute seeing him feed off our cheering. But yeah of course I lost my shit again because GD has the first line to this song)

Bae Bae (GD has the first line again for this song, so yeah. Swooning forever. I thought the statue thing was pretty cool. TOP’s part during this song is my favorite because it’s so funky)

Fantastic Baby (I know the concert was reaching the end because of this song. Love it when they boom shakalaka with us. ^___^ And Taeyang was trying to make us remember and GD cussing at us. )

We Like to Party (The confetti was so magical during this song. I didn’t want it to end. Almost felt like and probably the closest I’ll get to partying with them)

I think they repeated BANG BANG BANG again? Really wish the encore was longer.