snowfairies

me 16 hours a day

in elementary school they put everyone on the line and said the number of beeps you made it to in the pacer was a measure of your grade, worth, and health

in middle school they gave us each 10 m&ms and then we went on a walk, counting the steps until we’d walked far enough to burn them off

in high school my running coaches gave us a number that was the ideal weight for runners and worked harder for the girls that hit that number

in college i would come home to grandparents praising how much weight i’d lost and fondly calling me tiny

and then they all turn around and ask me why are you like this? why can’t you stop thinking about this? why are you so obsessed?

do you think this is beautiful?