✨💛Freya's Daydreaming again💛✨

Like I'm just imagining her sobbing and apologizing over and over again for failing not only her and Rumi but the entire next generation of hunters all together

Imagine her apologizing for failing to not only protect her and Thirdlight but also for failing to protect Rumi and being inconsolable as she repeats "She wanted to die Miyeong" over and over

Imagine her also being angry "You left me you both left me and I didn't know what to do and I had to be okay and I wasn't ok and you you left me and I had to fix everything"

Celine *Years of trauma dumping even a medical professional would struggle with comprehending mixed with incoherent sobs.*

Rumi:...........I don't know how to respond to that.

But, no, she would do this. She's sobbing because she misses Miyeong, because she blames herself for what happened but she's also angry at her two best friends, the people she thought she could trust and count on more than anything, leaving her alone to deal with everything and then she's angry at herself for being angry at them.

She didn't get to grieve properly because she had to take care of Rumi had to protect the Honmoon had to keep going because the world would be in danger if she didn't

By the time she managed to get sunlight entertainment up and running and the Honmoon was stable she had to train the next generation

So she keeps pushing her emotional pain down because she's training the next generation and she has to be okay for them has to be strong for them

Then the tree incident happens and she wants to breakdown but she can't because she has to deal with pr and has still be strong and make sure everything is fine

Rumi is stunned seeing Celine breakdown like this she's never really even seen Celine cry so all she wants to do is hug her mom mentor

Like I'm just imagining her sobbing and apologizing over and over again for failing not only her and Rumi but the entire next generation of hunters all together

Imagine her apologizing for failing to not only protect her and Thirdlight but also for failing to protect Rumi and being inconsolable as she repeats "She wanted to die Miyeong" over and over

Imagine her also being angry "You left me you both left me and I didn't know what to do and I had to be okay and I wasn't ok and you you left me and I had to fix everything"

Atleast Rumi and her get to bond at being partial demons with Rumi teaching her about her new demon side. Also Zoey and Mira reconnecting and bonding with their estranged momentor.

Oh no the woman's going to be borderline broken after this she's in no way shape or form after this

She believed she didn't fail that she still had her soulmates people who loved her cherished her and she loved with her entire being

Them being revealed to be imposters and her realizing that she did fail that the idol awards did happen that she's alone will be alone for the rest of her life breaks her

Her and can totally bond over being half demons and of course Zoey and Mira can bond with her two...

After they get her to respond to them to eat on her own to do really anything on her own without them having to tell her to and without her looking hollow.. empty

The shame eats her alive her shame of failing everyone she loves of failing to protect her soulmates failing to protect Rumi of not being enough

When Celine looks at Rumi she sees something perfect her beautiful perfect girl patterns and all she loves Rumi has since the day she was born

Rumi's patterns are perfect and Celine doesn't think she deserves to share something so perfect with her doesn't think she deserves Rumi's care

So she goes into the shower and turns the water hot as it can go she doesn't feel she doesn't feel much of anything she Scrubs her at the patterns until her skin is red and raw

Celine is stuck in a state of shock, didn’t care if her clothes were wet, she was just wanting the patterns to go away under the blisteringly hot water.

Celine is barely registering anything anymore she just feels numb like someone ripped out her emotions and buried under several layers of concrete

She doesn't believe she deserves Rumi's care or forgiveness or Mira or Zoey's for that matter when she pats Rumi's head in comfort it's robotic muscle memory

Huntrix watches her after the shower incident they don't leave her alone for more then a few minutes at time they all have to stop her when she starts scratching at the patterns

Even when eating or being with the girls, she is always looping every flaw in her head…every exploitable weakness…every fault and fear inside her, as it swallows her.

How could she ever think Mi-Yeong could come back from the dead? How stupid was she?

How could she ever think Rhea would come back after 20+ years of abandoning her and Rumi? Why did she not ask what brought her back?

Celine didn't want to be alone wasn't meant to be alone but she is alone and maybe she thinks that maybe she deserves it after everything

After failing her soulmates after hurting Rumi so badly after hurting Mira and Zoey maybe she deserves to feel like this deserves to be alone

Celine eats she sleeps she stares at the wall and thinks she doesn't deserve the girls care that their wasting their time on a failure like her

Celine stares at the wall and thinks about how much of a burden she's being and how she's hurting the girls by just being around them

Atleast Rumi and her get to bond at being partial demons with Rumi teaching her about her new demon side. Also Zoey and Mira reconnecting and bonding with their estranged momentor.

Oh no the woman's going to be borderline broken after this she's in no way shape or form after this

She believed she didn't fail that she still had her soulmates people who loved her cherished her and she loved with her entire being

Them being revealed to be imposters and her realizing that she did fail that the idol awards did happen that she's alone will be alone for the rest of her life breaks her

Her and can totally bond over being half demons and of course Zoey and Mira can bond with her two...

After they get her to respond to them to eat on her own to do really anything on her own without them having to tell her to and without her looking hollow.. empty

The shame eats her alive her shame of failing everyone she loves of failing to protect her soulmates failing to protect Rumi of not being enough

When Celine looks at Rumi she sees something perfect her beautiful perfect girl patterns and all she loves Rumi has since the day she was born

Rumi's patterns are perfect and Celine doesn't think she deserves to share something so perfect with her doesn't think she deserves Rumi's care

So she goes into the shower and turns the water hot as it can go she doesn't feel she doesn't feel much of anything she Scrubs her at the patterns until her skin is red and raw

Celine is stuck in a state of shock, didn’t care if her clothes were wet, she was just wanting the patterns to go away under the blisteringly hot water.

Celine is barely registering anything anymore she just feels numb like someone ripped out her emotions and buried under several layers of concrete

She doesn't believe she deserves Rumi's care or forgiveness or Mira or Zoey's for that matter when she pats Rumi's head in comfort it's robotic muscle memory

Huntrix watches her after the shower incident they don't leave her alone for more then a few minutes at time they all have to stop her when she starts scratching at the patterns

Atleast Rumi and her get to bond at being partial demons with Rumi teaching her about her new demon side. Also Zoey and Mira reconnecting and bonding with their estranged momentor.

Oh no the woman's going to be borderline broken after this she's in no way shape or form after this

She believed she didn't fail that she still had her soulmates people who loved her cherished her and she loved with her entire being

Them being revealed to be imposters and her realizing that she did fail that the idol awards did happen that she's alone will be alone for the rest of her life breaks her

Her and can totally bond over being half demons and of course Zoey and Mira can bond with her two...

After they get her to respond to them to eat on her own to do really anything on her own without them having to tell her to and without her looking hollow.. empty

The shame eats her alive her shame of failing everyone she loves of failing to protect her soulmates failing to protect Rumi of not being enough

When Celine looks at Rumi she sees something perfect her beautiful perfect girl patterns and all she loves Rumi has since the day she was born

Rumi's patterns are perfect and Celine doesn't think she deserves to share something so perfect with her doesn't think she deserves Rumi's care

So she goes into the shower and turns the water hot as it can go she doesn't feel she doesn't feel much of anything she Scrubs her at the patterns until her skin is red and raw

So imagine if you will the girls and Celine not speaking for mouths after the idols awards and Celine is just alone with her thoughts

Imagine her slightly spiralling and starting to have nightmares after the idols awards so she's not sleeping on top of not taking care of herself

Now imagine it getting so bad that she starts badly spacing out and walking around the hanok for hours just now really aware of what she's doing

Imagine her hearing a voice a soft one one that's gentle and kind and encourages her to follow it to come to it and she listens and fallows it into the forest

Now imagine 2 weeks later the girls getting a frantic phone call from Bobby saying no one has seen or heard from Celine in two weeks and the girls freak out

Bobby sends a car and as soon as they reach the stopping point Rumi takes off running for the Hanok and is immediately calling out for her Cece

They are frantic looking all over for the Hanok looks untouched and this causes them to panic even more Rumi especially

After almost an hour of looking and not finding her the girls all stand outside and try and figure out what to do when they hear something from the forest

They go and find nothing and assume it was just animals before continuing their search for Celine continuing until night fall deciding to stay in the Hanok for the night

In the morning they wake up to breakfast?? And go into the kitchen to find Celine cooking in the kitchen the girls immediately run and hug her and she laughs

Rumi is relieved until she asks where Celine was and the woman replies that she was out with her Eomma and Umma and Rumi freezes

Zoey asks what she means and Celine repeats herself before asking if they're okay the girls say yes before going into another room

Rumi is having a mini panic attack Zoey is confused and Mira is wondering if Celine Hit her head before they all hear the door to the garden open and hear voices talking to Celine

Celine looks so happy Rumi hasn't seen her that happy in years and she looks.. healthy she doesn't look tired or exhausted like she usually does

Rumi is going through every possible option in her head to figure out how to get these imposters away from her Eomma without hurting Celine in the process

Celine meanwhile feels happier then she has in years and can't remember why she was ever sad with Miyeong and Rhea by her side

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Rumi's crying again and Celine's up before any thought pops into her head she carefully picks the toddler up rocking her gently as she's done mentally times

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Rumi's hungry and Celine's in the kitchen making her breakfast teddy bear shaped pancakes the ones Rumi loves it's peaceful this morning

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Celine takes Rumi to the teddy bear museum that weekend she'd promised to and Rumi looks so happy as she carries the little purple teddy Celine got for her

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Demon hunting has gotten easier Celine thinks only for a second as she cuts down the last demon Rumi will start training soon so she supposes it's a good thing the Honmoon hums happily as she returns home

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to see them

Rumi's training is going well Celine thinks as she kisses Rumi's forehead after giving her a bandaid she doesn't remember the last time she had to bandage an injury but she does her best for her daughter

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to remember

Rumi's found her fellow hunters soulmates and Celine couldn't be happier she knows they'll be there for each always Celine doesn't remember a time when she and her fellow hunters weren't

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to remember

Celine cuts herself while making dinner for the girls the night before they debut and it doesn't hurt she has a high pain tolerance despite Mira's concern about it being deep

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it won't let her feel pain again

The girls debut and Celine is so proud of them she makes sure to cook for them that night as well and tells Zoey she's fine after she burns herself like she told Mira she has a high pain tolerance

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it won't let her feel pain again

The Honmoon is breaking and Rumi's gone the Honmoon is breaking and Rumi's gone her daughter had just asked the unthinkable and Celine feels dizzy and Tired

The Markings on her skin glow she sees them it's still trying to keep her together

The Honmoon shatters and Celine feels nothing She doesn't feel anything it feels like her mind is cotton as her body falls to the ground with a thump

Rumi finds her near the tree still body positioned like she had fallen over and Rumi's heart sinks into her stomach as she runs over desperately calling out for her mother mentor

Flipping Celine over reveals that she's still breathing but her eyes are closed and she won't wake up despite Rumi's pleading and begging

Rumi carefully as carefully as she possibly can picks up Celine and Brings her inside and to her bedroom Zoey and Mira following right behind

Zoey says she probably needs rest and Mira tells her to not panic because Celine's still breathing so Rumi gets Celine cleaned and she and her girls Wait

They wait a day then 2 then 3 then a week goes by and Rumi starts panicking Celine's not waking up she's not even moving she's still breathing tho

Mira is the one to call Bobby and tell him Celine's fallen sick and as always he says he'll deal with things that sunlight entertainment and says he wishes Celine a speedy recovery

Rumi sits by Celine's beside as days go by Celine's Still breathing but her eyes are still closed and she's not moving

Almost a month goes by and finally Celine opens her eyes except their hollow eyes like all life had been drained from them Rumi calls her name and Celine doesn't respond

Celine doesn't respond to any of them not Zoey not Rumi not Mira not as they call her name not as they give her food and water Celine's still breathing and doesn't respond

Another week and a half Celine's still breathing she won't respond to them not as Rumi hugs her and begs Celine still won't respond

Two weeks more go by Rumi goes to check on Celine it's become routine Celine's not in her bed Rumi's heart freezes in her chest before she hears the humming

It's coming from the kitchen and When Rumi gets in there her heart starts beating again Celine's still breathing and Humming while making breakfast

Celine's still breathing and Celine's humming a song Rumi hasn't heard since she was little And Celine responds in a cherry tone when Rumi asks her a question

Celine's still breathing as Mira and Zoey join Rumi at the kitchen table and smile as they see Celine up And responsive breathing sighs of relief

Celine's still breathing as she turns to them and they all freeze as they stare at her iridescent eyes her smile not quite right as the Honmoon is covering her skin like patterns

Rumi's crying again and Celine's up before any thought pops into her head she carefully picks the toddler up rocking her gently as she's done mentally times

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Rumi's hungry and Celine's in the kitchen making her breakfast teddy bear shaped pancakes the ones Rumi loves it's peaceful this morning

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Celine takes Rumi to the teddy bear museum that weekend she'd promised to and Rumi looks so happy as she carries the little purple teddy Celine got for her

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Demon hunting has gotten easier Celine thinks only for a second as she cuts down the last demon Rumi will start training soon so she supposes it's a good thing the Honmoon hums happily as she returns home

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to see them

Rumi's training is going well Celine thinks as she kisses Rumi's forehead after giving her a bandaid she doesn't remember the last time she had to bandage an injury but she does her best for her daughter

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to remember

Rumi's found her fellow hunters soulmates and Celine couldn't be happier she knows they'll be there for each always Celine doesn't remember a time when she and her fellow hunters weren't

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to remember

Celine cuts herself while making dinner for the girls the night before they debut and it doesn't hurt she has a high pain tolerance despite Mira's concern about it being deep

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it won't let her feel pain again

The girls debut and Celine is so proud of them she makes sure to cook for them that night as well and tells Zoey she's fine after she burns herself like she told Mira she has a high pain tolerance

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it won't let her feel pain again

The Honmoon is breaking and Rumi's gone the Honmoon is breaking and Rumi's gone her daughter had just asked the unthinkable and Celine feels dizzy and Tired

The Markings on her skin glow she sees them it's still trying to keep her together

The Honmoon shatters and Celine feels nothing She doesn't feel anything it feels like her mind is cotton as her body falls to the ground with a thump

Rumi finds her near the tree still body positioned like she had fallen over and Rumi's heart sinks into her stomach as she runs over desperately calling out for her mother mentor

Flipping Celine over reveals that she's still breathing but her eyes are closed and she won't wake up despite Rumi's pleading and begging

Rumi carefully as carefully as she possibly can picks up Celine and Brings her inside and to her bedroom Zoey and Mira following right behind

Zoey says she probably needs rest and Mira tells her to not panic because Celine's still breathing so Rumi gets Celine cleaned and she and her girls Wait

They wait a day then 2 then 3 then a week goes by and Rumi starts panicking Celine's not waking up she's not even moving she's still breathing tho

Mira is the one to call Bobby and tell him Celine's fallen sick and as always he says he'll deal with things that sunlight entertainment and says he wishes Celine a speedy recovery

Rumi sits by Celine's beside as days go by Celine's Still breathing but her eyes are still closed and she's not moving

Almost a month goes by and finally Celine opens her eyes except their hollow eyes like all life had been drained from them Rumi calls her name and Celine doesn't respond

Celine doesn't respond to any of them not Zoey not Rumi not Mira not as they call her name not as they give her food and water Celine's still breathing and doesn't respond

Another week and a half Celine's still breathing she won't respond to them not as Rumi hugs her and begs Celine still won't respond

Two weeks more go by Rumi goes to check on Celine it's become routine Celine's not in her bed Rumi's heart freezes in her chest before she hears the humming

It's coming from the kitchen and When Rumi gets in there her heart starts beating again Celine's still breathing and Humming while making breakfast

Celine's still breathing and Celine's humming a song Rumi hasn't heard since she was little And Celine responds in a cherry tone when Rumi asks her a question

Celine's still breathing as Mira and Zoey join Rumi at the kitchen table and smile as they see Celine up And responsive breathing sighs of relief

Celine's still breathing as she turns to them and they all freeze as they stare at her iridescent eyes her smile not quite right as the Honmoon is covering her skin like patterns

Rumi's crying again and Celine's up before any thought pops into her head she carefully picks the toddler up rocking her gently as she's done mentally times

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Rumi's hungry and Celine's in the kitchen making her breakfast teddy bear shaped pancakes the ones Rumi loves it's peaceful this morning

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Celine takes Rumi to the teddy bear museum that weekend she'd promised to and Rumi looks so happy as she carries the little purple teddy Celine got for her

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Demon hunting has gotten easier Celine thinks only for a second as she cuts down the last demon Rumi will start training soon so she supposes it's a good thing the Honmoon hums happily as she returns home

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to see them

Rumi's training is going well Celine thinks as she kisses Rumi's forehead after giving her a bandaid she doesn't remember the last time she had to bandage an injury but she does her best for her daughter

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to remember

Rumi's found her fellow hunters soulmates and Celine couldn't be happier she knows they'll be there for each always Celine doesn't remember a time when she and her fellow hunters weren't

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to remember

Celine cuts herself while making dinner for the girls the night before they debut and it doesn't hurt she has a high pain tolerance despite Mira's concern about it being deep

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it won't let her feel pain again

The girls debut and Celine is so proud of them she makes sure to cook for them that night as well and tells Zoey she's fine after she burns herself like she told Mira she has a high pain tolerance

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it won't let her feel pain again

The Honmoon is breaking and Rumi's gone the Honmoon is breaking and Rumi's gone her daughter had just asked the unthinkable and Celine feels dizzy and Tired

The Markings on her skin glow she sees them it's still trying to keep her together

The Honmoon shatters and Celine feels nothing She doesn't feel anything it feels like her mind is cotton as her body falls to the ground with a thump

Rumi finds her near the tree still body positioned like she had fallen over and Rumi's heart sinks into her stomach as she runs over desperately calling out for her mother mentor

Flipping Celine over reveals that she's still breathing but her eyes are closed and she won't wake up despite Rumi's pleading and begging

Rumi carefully as carefully as she possibly can picks up Celine and Brings her inside and to her bedroom Zoey and Mira following right behind

Zoey says she probably needs rest and Mira tells her to not panic because Celine's still breathing so Rumi gets Celine cleaned and she and her girls Wait

They wait a day then 2 then 3 then a week goes by and Rumi starts panicking Celine's not waking up she's not even moving she's still breathing tho

Mira is the one to call Bobby and tell him Celine's fallen sick and as always he says he'll deal with things that sunlight entertainment and says he wishes Celine a speedy recovery

Rumi sits by Celine's beside as days go by Celine's Still breathing but her eyes are still closed and she's not moving

Almost a month goes by and finally Celine opens her eyes except their hollow eyes like all life had been drained from them Rumi calls her name and Celine doesn't respond

Celine doesn't respond to any of them not Zoey not Rumi not Mira not as they call her name not as they give her food and water Celine's still breathing and doesn't respond

Another week and a half Celine's still breathing she won't respond to them not as Rumi hugs her and begs Celine still won't respond

Two weeks more go by Rumi goes to check on Celine it's become routine Celine's not in her bed Rumi's heart freezes in her chest before she hears the humming

It's coming from the kitchen and When Rumi gets in there her heart starts beating again Celine's still breathing and Humming while making breakfast

Celine's still breathing and Celine's humming a song Rumi hasn't heard since she was little And Celine responds in a cherry tone when Rumi asks her a question

Celine's still breathing as Mira and Zoey join Rumi at the kitchen table and smile as they see Celine up And responsive breathing sighs of relief

Celine's still breathing as she turns to them and they all freeze as they stare at her iridescent eyes her smile not quite right as the Honmoon is covering her skin like patterns

Rumi's crying again and Celine's up before any thought pops into her head she carefully picks the toddler up rocking her gently as she's done mentally times

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Rumi's hungry and Celine's in the kitchen making her breakfast teddy bear shaped pancakes the ones Rumi loves it's peaceful this morning

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Celine takes Rumi to the teddy bear museum that weekend she'd promised to and Rumi looks so happy as she carries the little purple teddy Celine got for her

The markings glow on her skin she doesn't see them

Demon hunting has gotten easier Celine thinks only for a second as she cuts down the last demon Rumi will start training soon so she supposes it's a good thing the Honmoon hums happily as she returns home

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to see them

Rumi's training is going well Celine thinks as she kisses Rumi's forehead after giving her a bandaid she doesn't remember the last time she had to bandage an injury but she does her best for her daughter

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to remember

Rumi's found her fellow hunters soulmates and Celine couldn't be happier she knows they'll be there for each always Celine doesn't remember a time when she and her fellow hunters weren't

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it doesn't want her to remember

Celine cuts herself while making dinner for the girls the night before they debut and it doesn't hurt she has a high pain tolerance despite Mira's concern about it being deep

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it won't let her feel pain again

The girls debut and Celine is so proud of them she makes sure to cook for them that night as well and tells Zoey she's fine after she burns herself like she told Mira she has a high pain tolerance

The markings on her skin glow she doesn't see them it won't let her feel pain again

The Honmoon is breaking and Rumi's gone the Honmoon is breaking and Rumi's gone her daughter had just asked the unthinkable and Celine feels dizzy and Tired

The Markings on her skin glow she sees them it's still trying to keep her together

The Honmoon shatters and Celine feels nothing She doesn't feel anything it feels like her mind is cotton as her body falls to the ground with a thump