laughing a little he nodded his head, understanding. “yeah i get like that when i have mine in as well and i am in the zone. glad it didn’t hit you though. girls as pretty as you should be protected from any and all harm.” he smiled, biting his lip. “anyways, i am carson.” he held his hand out the girl, his friends watching knowing his game. he was charming, anybody could see that. the boy knew how to work what he had. 

       rolling her eyes she flicked more cheese at him with a smirk. “i will do all the cheese flicking i would like.” sighing a little she laughed at the boys dramatic remarks. “oh come on drama queen more than two people are going to your party. i know carson is. he has been to so many of my showcases that my parents are letting him skip it to go to YOUR party, so you are welcome. we see who my brother actually cares about.” she reached over stealing some of the fries from the boys plate, tossing them in his mouth. “you can come to my next showcase. you better come. or i will high kick you in the face.” 

taking his jacket held it over her head as they walked back to the bar. she was feeling a little defeated. like a child who had a temper tantrum instead of somebody who was trying to stand up for themselves. she knew luca wasn’t trying to make her feel that way, she just – she didn’t feel like she made the statement she wanted and now she was just walking right back to the bar. this wasn’t over. just was over in the rain. she stood at the back entrance, her eyes going a little wide when the boy stripped off his clothes, biting her lip as she looked away. she wasn’t one to stray away from a good looking man but she felt like maybe luca was one she needed to stray away from. even thinking about that was messy. when she heard him call her name she came into the bar slowly, looking around for a moment before fully coming around the bar to where he had something hot for her. “thank you.” she stated handing him his jacket as she climbed onto a bar stool and took a sip of the hot tea, sighing in relief. “you can keep telling me how sorry you are now.” 

           “don’t judge my family, the hamster was an icon. he came to my sweet sixteen i have to pay my respects.” she stated with a smirk, taking a bite of the pizza in front of her before letting out a giggle. “okay i am kidding, but i really can’t because i have a showcase for school – but if you know..maybe keep the party going then maybe i can come late? if my parents let me escape them after that is.” she smiled, flicking some cheese at the boy.

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       “watch out!” carson yelled out to the girl who obliviously seemed to walk right into the path of the football game he was having with his friends, diving into the sand to catch the ball. getting up he smirked and threw the ball back, his hands up in the air. “another touchdown for me.” he brushed the sand off his body and looked at the girl. “you okay? sorry my friends fucking suck at football!” he yelled across the way to them, only to have the middle finger as a response. 

   aiden wasn’t one to cry, he didn’t show emotions a lot other than the cold ones he was use to portraying. anger, hate, the usual ones that cause people pain – but right now the way that josie still truly loved him with every fiber of her being cause his eyes to water up, tears slipping down the sides of his cheeks. why she loved him he still doesn’t know because he would never see himself the way she looks at him but god was she right. pressing his lips to her softly he kissed her for a few moments, pulling her closer to him. “i love you so fucking much that it actually hurts, i can’t breathe, i can’t think.” he mumbled out, his voice hitched as he tried to get words out that he very rarely spoke to anybody. had he ever told her in the entire time this tragedy of a relationship had been going on? even before things got so toxic? he wasn’t sure, but she sure as hell would know now. 

       she didn’t notice how cold it was, how hard it was raining until he really mentioned it. she was currently barefoot, wearing nothing but a dress and now she was soaked to the bone. the girl was angry and nothing had stopped her from just leaving the place. looking up at luca, she could see in his eyes that he really meant what he said – did she believe it? not really, but he did mean it. he wanted to talk with her, he wanted to help her..or at least convince her not to quit. “it is a shitty excuse. not going to argue with that. i don’t accept your apology like everything is going to be fine but i do want my sneakers…so i will come back with you. everybody has to go though, i don’t even wanna look at the scumbags in their right now.” if she did then she would probably punch somebody and that just wouldn’t be fun – for them. 

aiden pushed her hair out of her face, letting her scream at him. he deserved it all. he needed her to be angry, needed her to yell at him. leaning down he pressed his forehead against hers, his hand resting at the back of her neck. “you are perfect. you are so fucking perfect josie and i am a car wreck. i am shattered glass and bent metal.” he mumbled out, breathing in her scent. it was also perfect. “i am a hazard and you are just an innocent bystander who didn’t do anything to deserve the pain i have caused.” 

      this time when he grabbed onto her she didn’t bother to pull away. she didn’t have the strength to fight him. her fist were balled up at her sides, her hands shaking a little. if only luca knew what the other guys at the bar (customers and coworkers alike) said to her. luca never said anything personally horrible to her, but he didn’t say anything nice to her either. this was the first she had seen that he cared so deeply. or at least acted like it. “you are an idiot you aren’t paying my rent.” she stated shaking her head. “if it bothers you so much when i tell you what they do why do you let it happen?” she asked, her voice cracking a little. no, she wouldn’t cry. she wasn’t a victim. she wouldn’t be. “you barely notice me, since when do you care so much?” somebody caring for her wasn’t a concept she was accustomed too – it was hard to believe he was telling her the truth.

      this is the part that always fucked him up. he got what he wanted, she is giving up. he broke her, and now she is leaving him. this is where his mind messed with him, his heart betrayed her because now that he got what he wanted was when he didn’t want it. he couldn’t let her walk out that door, he needed her. this was the toxic game he played and this is why he wanted her to hate him. getting up he grabbed her arm and pulled him to her, looking down at the smaller girl with such a broken face that he wouldn’t recognize himself if he looked in the mirror. “why the FUCK would you want me? why?” he voiced begged for an answer, sounding just as broken as his eyes looked. 

kaydie jumped when she felt somebody grab her arm, she hadn’t even noticed luca run up behind her. she hadn’t even heard his words as he yelled after her. grabbing her arm back from him she turned around, her eyes like daggers. “no! no, you can’t just say sorry. why would i go back? nobody cares about me there and it isn’t worth the money. i would rather live on the fucking streets then have to work there just to make enough to pay rent for my crappy apartment anymore.” she snapped, unloading a lot more than she planned to today. everybody has her breaking point though and when one of the patrons tried to slip his hand under her dress that broke her, and when she tried to tell luca and he didn’t seem to give a shit? that was her sign that she was done. “don’t pretend you care now because you know your dad will go ape shit if i leave. that is the only reason you are saying this.” 

           “yeah well i am a selfish person josie. are you just realizing that?” he stated, not showing that he was phased by her yelling. did it feel like a thousand cuts to the heart? yeah, but he wouldn’t show it. “why after all i have done do you keep trying to get close again? maybe it is for your own good because we both know i am fucked up, but i didn’t realize you were too.” his voice strained at that last part, he didn’t mean it.