Here I lay in total darkness hoping, wishing you'd text me back. But you're with her. So lonely I feel knowing you're with her and not me. Dreaming it was me coming over late at night to talk and curl up under the covers, next to you for warmth. And I shouldn't even be thinking these things about someone else because I'm already taken but that feels like it's slowly fading away. As he and I drift apart you and I are moving together. After a long time apart you're finally back in my life, in love with someone else, and still confessing your love for me. So which is it? Surely you cannot be in love with two people at the same time. I wish I could bring myself to utter those three simple words but I've forced myself not to feel anything. Knowing that once I do, there's no turning back. I want to explore what we could have because the chance was never given before but now we've moved on. But did we really? Did we fully move on from each other? Looking into your eyes takes me back to all the memories we share, to the longing desire of your lips on mine. Why do we always want the things we cannot have? I was with him tonight but, I was thinking of you. That shouldn't be happening. I'm falling for your tricks again. I can't stop myself from falling down the rabbit hole into the wonderland we once created. We cannot be together. But why does it feel so right? Why does the world disappear when we're together? Why do I stop caring about every person except you? I think it's sad how we crave the things we can not have. So I lay here, alone in the darkness. Longing for the night that we're together

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