guava!

01.01.2021; cats that i have saved on my phone + a bonus dodie.

ID: nine sketchy drawings of cats done with pencil on paper.

(top left) is looking at a phone. (middle left) is sitting upright on the edge of a table. (bottom left) is crouched with its face on the floor, as if about to pounce.

(top middle) is fluffy and gazing upward. (center) is in front of a field of flowers with its mouth open wide, like it’s grinning. (bottom middle) is a kitten with its head poking out of a jack o’ lantern.

27.12.2020; four figure drawings.

[ID: quick figure drawings of four people done on paper with pen, graphite, and highlighter.

the first (top left) is a girl facing right and looking upward, with one foot out as if she’s about to take a step. she’s colored with blue and purple. her hair is in a loose bun, and she’s wearing a backpack, an oversized t-shirt, and cuffed jeans.

the second (top right) is a girl sitting on the floor with one hand on her knee and the other beside her head. she’s colored with green and purple pen. her wavy hair is down and she’s wearing a sweatshirt and wide legged pants.

the third (bottom left) is a boy crouched in the floor with one foot tucked under him. he’s colored with red and purple, and wearing a t-shirt, jeans, and nikes.

25.12.2020; dodie.

[ID: a digital drawing of dodie (doddleoddle). she has fair skin, long brown hair, green eyes, and is gazing at the viewer. she’s also wearing black eyeliner and pink eyeshadow. the background is colored a pale green, with a darker green border around it. /end ID]

i just want to let you see the new me that you’ve never heard about or from before. i just got hit by a car and he laughed at me as i didn’t get to cry. the moon and the windows are thrown wide open, so much so that they have to listen to us.

my friends are going out without me and are having more fun than usual. the sidewalk is not a little picture but it looks like it only fits two people at a time. i don’t know anything about the other day but i just wanted to let you know that i tried.

i’m trying to look more closely at the world.

i’m trying to truly feel the blades of grass cutting up my bare feet; to sink completely into the sunrise and dance in the streetlights’ shadows; to stop desperately searching for sense.

i’m trying to learn to stand still, starting at seconds first.