alone in my apartment for two weeks, grinding my hips against the mattress every night. it's 1:42am now, and i'm trying to get to sleep at a reasonable hour. but the throbbing between my legs grows stronger every minute i don't think about it. i can't focus on anything except her.
i need to cum. i have places to be in the morning. but i can't, not until she returns
i'm trying not to touch myself — need to sleep, can't get distracted. But my hips keep moving, and my mind keeps going to all the things she told me just before she left. i was moaning, whimpering; she'd been edging me for an hour now
"darling, you know i've gotta go tomorrow right?" i couldn't respond, i just groaned and kept rutting against her thigh. "no no no, use your words pretty girl"
"yes- yes mommy," i muttered
"you're gonna touch yourself every night, understand?"
i whimpered and answered, "yes ma'am"
"and you're not going to cum until i get back, understand?"
i remember stopping and looking at her in terror. for as long as i had been with her she had always let me cum after a few days. i'd never gone that long, didn't know if i could.
"mommy- mommy please don't– mommy i can't"
"who do you belong to?"
"you, mommy, but–"
"that's right baby. now did i say you could stop moving"
"no, ma'am, sorry ma'am." i started grinding against her, savoring what i knew i wouldn't have for weeks
"now that's my good girl"
so here i am, alone, over my blankets, listening to an asmr video to help me sleep. i can't focus on the instructions the video is giving, because all i can think about are her instructions. the instructions she gave me to masturbate earlier tonight. she had me put a vibrator in while i met up for dinner with an old school friend. i sat there for an hour and a half talking about nothing, praying to be fingered. begging the fates to have someone come around and throw me on top of the table, sending the plates clanging around the small restaurant. rip my panties off and leave them hanging on one leg while my fluids drip down my thighs. plunge their fingers deep into me and fuck me until my cum leaves the tablecloth soaked.
hours later, as i finally manage to fall asleep, all i think think of is the feeling of rutting against her thigh, pleasure spiking through my body, and her repeating
"that's my good girl, that's my good girl, that's my good girl"