moved to @6ad9irls

I do not have screenshots. I don’t.

I deleted the conversation after April initially blocked me.

It was painful to see it there so I removed it. I didn’t think April would act like this.

I didn’t know that proof of our dynamic and interactions would be needed.

My understanding of this situation is that I said some fucked up things and instead of April calling me out for shit as it happened so I could work to fix it, she saved up evidence of all my wrongdoings and then posted it for the world to see.

We had a sexual friendship during which we would have sexual conversations and interactions. We both consented to this and I would routinely check to make sure that she was still okay with our dynamic. When she implied or expressed she wasn’t confortable with sexual interaction at any point in time I would stop. Now admittedly I do have some problems. I am an addict. I shouldn’t of asked her those questions and those questions were fucked up and transmisogynistic. I’m sorry for asking you those questions, April. That was shitty and unfair to you. Those sort of questions are better saved for discussion in therapy. I understand that now. I am working on getting mental and physical help with my addiction. 

I have a treatment plan. This is a rough outline of my plans and I will be talking to my therapist to get their support in refining this. Be aware that I am still a minor. Most support systems for sex addiction are only accessible to adults.

I will still be doing forms of treatment in the meantime but some of the more intensive treatment will have to wait until my 18th birthday next August.

Now, I don’t expect kindness or belief of what I have to say. April has screenshots. I do not. So believe what you want; all that I ask is that you don’t suicide bait me or try to attack children associated with me.

This applies to you especially if you are an adult. 

Nobody deserves to be told to kill themselves, and considering my position as a teenager with a sex addiction I would appreciate if people could at least attempt to empathize with me. 

I have a problem. Telling me to kill myself doesn’t solve it.

It should go without saying that nobody should punish children for associating with problematic people. They aren’t hurting anyone. I’m not a danger to children. Everyone is problematic in someway or another.

I’m sorry that shit got so messy and fucked up. I’m sorry that I hurt you, April. 

I did love you. I still do. I miss you everyday and you’re such an amazing, complex and hilarious person. I know I’ve said some shitty things on here but I was never truely mad at you. 

I genuinely believe you think what you’re saying is true. I can’t be angry at you for that. I hope someday you can move on and make peace with this. 

If you ever wanna talk you know my discord and I’m also availible here.