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introduction? idk... I'm giving up sorry :<

idk my name idk whatever my vibe is ig...

idk my gender

idkklkk how old i am dont ask idkidkidk

idk what i like anymore

i have just been trying to work on my webcomic..

ʚ ༝Pulled Teeth༝ ɞ and that's it i have nothing else i am nothing else but my vent accounts and the art i make i give up on everything else

idk anything uua idkk.. hehe idkk ꫂ᭪ i have nothing to tell u...!!!

im sick of pretending i actually have anything to say or have any sort of depth!! i don't!! i just want to be pretty and draw and that's it i am nothing i know nothing!

ʚ ༝...i have other accounts if u find them keep them separate from this one :c...༝ ɞ

DNI: hardcore MCR fans, specifically people who idiolize Gerard and try to be like him or have a page mostly filled with him or MCR (i have nothing against him or mcr, just ex trauma that effects me strongly💔) i will block you sorry

!!to clear up things i have nothing against or any trigger for vampires!!! <3 ily!!

this took so long my hamds HURHT 🩹

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🐈‍⬛ this was very fun t𖹭 drawּ ֶָ֢.!

sometimes it makes me depressed when i see male characters that struggle with masculinity (especially from trauma) and are instantly called trans mtf by the fandom said character is from :c i feel like thata controversial to say though... i don't think i would care if it didn't happen that much but it literally ALWAYS happens

steven universe? trans mtf

jax from tadc? trans mtf

Chihiro from Danganronpa? trans mtf

i promise there's more if u look quite easily to find but.. idk why it makes me sad.. is it really so impossible to imagine a guy struggling with femininity and masculinity in a way that doesn't always mean they want to be a girl? maybe it's self harm or survival or forced by an external output like a line of work or abuse... (this is with certain characters in mind not necessarily the ones i listed, just listing well known examples) and they're still treated like they should just be ladies? why? i feel like this avoiding such a deeper topic of toxic feminity and force fem & abuse, sexual abuse even in men... 💔 cause these topics go hand in hand it's hard to ignore but people are erasing it for HCs when sometimes the trauma itself isn't even a hc it's canon but completely ignored ughh.. idk 😿

it's even so frustrating to see when said male character shows fear of femininity and feminine topics and are instantly called transfem (from trauma or something else in some cases) LIKE WHAT?? genuinely what omg 😭😔

(I'm not talking about AUs that are treated as separate storylines meant to bend a story I'm talking about HCs which are often treated as canon and are very defensively upheld)

i understand there's a love and need and want for transfem/mtf characters and good rep and even convoluted or complex transfem/mtf reps but yk like that trauma does exist right? you're also erasing other representation by doing this.. maybe it's fine as a one off until u realize other ppl see it and could be going through a trauma similar to that character and suddenly the trauma is erased it really does send harmful messages just like if any other representation of things that are fewer and less accepted were suddenly erased and treated as canon it is a bit harmful! :C can we plz be allowed to have men with fractured feminity & trauma that are fem repulsed/fearing and/or fem presenting while still desiring to be male!!! it might be uncomfortable but i need it to exist freely plz ty 🐾

(๑ ᷄ ᷅)🐾 prettiest sailor & prettiest pirate... 🌊⚓🩵

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i 🩵 blue...

hm? me? a bitch? a lying bitch?? why would you call your baby sibling that? hm? well i wasn't actually ever a baby sibling was i? i was looked down on but i had to cater to you like you were a baby. the attention was always on you bec is big girl okay? is big girl fed? what about big girl? it's big sister's turn get out the fucking way little 6 yr old me!! duh! god! I'm so dumb , right?! oh im older right but i was so sweet so fucking nice to everyone and so innocent and i still haven't even said anything mean about you out loud in.. actually ever! yup, cuz it's actually easy for me to forgive or because i had no choice but i had so much love and hope in my heart you called me a devil and that i had monsterous demon eyes which was my insecurities but oh my bad it was just a bad day but you never apologized and i was insecure of my stare for years well it turns out I'm autistic so maybe that weird stare wasn't my fault not that it was my intention anyway, i loved you and i never stayed mad even if you hurt me so much screaming at a baby literally screaming like someone was murdering you in my sensitive ears when i was so little but i still loved you and smiled at you and you kept kicking at me like a dirty dog and i still forgave you after that YOU HUMILIATED ME AT MY WORST MOMENT IN FRONT OF HUNDREDS OF STRANGERS AND I FUCKING FORGAVE YOU SO QUICKLY and now you're calling me a bitch for something i didn't even do at all without any second guess you really think I'd do that??????? really??????? when all I've ever done is loved you?????! i never even had bad days i never even lashed at you EVER that wasn't in my parameters of my personality it still isn't sure I'll get pissed in my private writings only me or strangers will see but to peoples faces?? I'm silent and fawning and i really do mean it it's not just fear to my face all i feel is love and maternal care and it's taken advantage of over and over and over and it's in my nature to just be what i am a loving permanent presence i can't even go outside of it it takes so so so sooo much for me break sooooo much for me to explode even after that small time of me exploding i instantly feel sadness & regret and the pull to love and heal even when it's not my place when i should stop or when I'm tired but i can't and I'M THE BITCH when it's literally in my NATURE not to be anything but a sign of love and unwavering loyalty

how?? howhowhowhowwww?? how could you ever think i could do such a thing??? ME INSTEAD OF OUR LITERAL ABUSER & UR FIRST THOUGHT IS ME?!???? wth. wth. i can't breathe how could anyone ever think that about me i could never it's impossible i didn't do anything why would you say it's me?? and scream?? and everyone is soso angry at me for something i didn't do it was our abuser it wasn't me now she's going to hate me forever and still i cry because I'd hope she would love me again that i would eventually have a big sister again but it's over

the clouds hold this doll's tears 🌧️

I LUH TIS BRUSH SM GYAAAA