things

Newsom discussed the “fear of loss” that informed her fourth album, and how it was prompted by her marriage to comedian Andy Samberg. “Everyone’s getting older. When I crossed that line in my mind where I knew I was with the person that I wanted to marry, it was a very heavy thing, because you’re inviting death into your life. You know that that’s hopefully after many, many, many, many years, but the idea of death stops being abstract, because there is someone you can’t bear to lose. when it registers as true, it’s like a little shade of grief that comes in when love is its most real version. Then it contains death inside of it, and then that death contains love inside of it.

me: *dissociates for no reason at all and spends the whole day zoned out, emotionless and unable to focus*