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Well maybe I don’t WANT to work double as hard as abled people!! Maybe I deserve a BREAK!! Maybe I’ve been working MORE THAN double as hard for MY WHOLE LIFE and it’s led me to immense burnout & caused me to develop several MORE disabilities!! Maybe I should be ACCOMMODATED so I don’t have to KILL MY BODY AND BRAIN over trying to do what abled people can do!! Maybe I DON’T have to work double as hard!! Maybe if there’s the option to let me NOT work double as hard, I should have it, because I’m already working double as hard JUST TO SURVIVE!!

Cause like

I dont know about anyone else

But I am perpetually hovering three inches above the strong subconscious belief that everyone knows what they're doing at all times except me, so if you change your normal patterns and I notice, then I will assume it is an intentional choice with a thought-out plan behind it and I will avoid interfering

"I feel like I'm the only one who does this chore. Can we start taking turns?"

"I'd like you to ask me how I'm doing more often."

"It bothers me when this area stays messy so long. Can you do X when Y happens?"

"I feel like the onus is on me to initiate X, and it's wearing me down. Could you try making the first move more? Like 3-4 times a week?"

"I'm feeling upset right now and I'd like to spend some time with you."

"When X happens, I feel like you're taking my work for granted."

"I'm feeling neglected. Could you do X?"

"I'm burnt out and need help."

"I feel like I'm the only one putting effort into X."

"Do you notice this?"

"Are you bothered by this?"

"I am bothered when this happens."

"X habit of yours bothers me."

Poses were not working tonight so you can have an angsty headshot of the pair

No transphobes allowed, only transborbs.

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I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard

Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.

Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.

Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.

Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.

SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.

SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.

Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.

Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.

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Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.

(This is not in any way meant to pressure you to make a statement, this ask can be deleted or never responded to! I am simply curious of your stance on the situation, but it's a complicated and messy situation for sure, and I think I speak for all of us in saying it is justified to move on without speaking about it, and I don't believe any of us will judge you for doing so. Hope you and the family are doing well! <3)

I spoke about it briefly on stream today but it's worth re-iterating here too

I was only aware of one situation between Avid and another creator(s), which I was learned about pretty much after the dust had already settled. Both sides had laid it to rest and were steering clear of one another.

This sudden revelation that it wasn't an isolated incident and happening to most people in their orbit was a shock.

I seem to have avoided all of this scenario as I was never close with Avid/Marm. I've literally only interfaced with them during content and any team meeting calls for Misadventures, Vampires and Flight SMP. In Flight specifically I was never seeking them out for chit-chats or roleplay, but if I stumbled upon them I would engage because it'd be strange in character to just u-turn ya know. So you've all seen the vast majority of my interactions with them.

I'm obviously still pissed off that my friends and collaborators have been hurt (some incredibly deeply) and they all know I'm here for them as an ear should they need it, but hopefully this chapter is behind all of us swiftly. I'm hopeful that the healing process will be helped along by the fact that they've ejected themselves from the MCYT space. It means there isn't a constant reminder or injustice being thrust on their FYP or timeline constantly.

A KING walked into the snowstorm.