the found emotion

It was a looooong period, in which I took a rest from touhou fandom and most of my hobbies. A lot of things happened. I managed to get the bachelor degree at economics and now I study to get the magister degree. Now I feel refreshed and think that this blog needs changes.

1. More #outofmasks . That means I will post here my touhou arts, animations and maybe fanfictions if I feel like it. Also I’ll share more of my headcanons and thoughts on touhou girls. I need to be more brave when it comes to expressing myself.

2. I thought a lot about Kokoro, her character development and future. Previousy, I was disappointed by the fact that she always stays a child and doesn’t really learn anything. It has gotten to the point she didn’t know nearly anything at all about the world she lives in. Actually, I have a story in my head that I imagined a long time ago and want to finally bring it to life here, in this blog.

3. About post pictures. I felt obligated to add them and they started repeating at some point. Also there were cases when I didn’t find specific pictures because of my headcanons. But worry not: as I roleplay here, I’ll draw them myself and gather the picture base as full as possible.

4. Other muses? Hmm... Maybe I’ll keep Yumemi. She has a lot of possibilities and I want to include Renko, Maribel and Sumireko as her companions. It will be fun.

5. I’m terribly sorry for the dropped roleplaying branches. It was fun, I don’t regret a single minute spent on writing all these posts, but due to the reasons written above, I won’t continue them. Also you may not want it yourself. If so, I understand. We can start it all over again, but please keep in mind that in the beginning there won’t be pictures or I’ll take them from previous posts if I see it fit.

6. Before I left, I also felt bored when roleplayed only in the canon setting. Sometimes I’ll feel like stepping away from it and come up with some au’s like a school- or sns au. Please don’t be afraid and don’t hesitate to join if you want. I’m still non-selective, after all.

“I heard you like sweets! So here, have a fresh Spring Cake!”

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At least it was supposed to be... It’s been 4 years since I wrote this post and left it in drafts.

I like the topic of aesthetics very much. Hope this post will help you understand Kokoro better. If I’ll be in a mood, I’ll make the posts Yumemi’s and Junko’s aesthetics.

Hata-no Kokoro

Tastes: sweets of any kind, because Kokoro is a non-picky eater, but especially cakes since she tried a piece of it in the Scarlet Devil Mansion, any traditional home food cooked by Byakuren or Tojiko. Kokoro eats it even if it was cooked badly.

Smells: mostly wood, but it’s faint. Masks and the scene are made of wood, after all.

Sights: the festivals with bright, numerous and colourful fireworks, paper lanterns, attractive food and entertainment stalls; the scene with lots of watchers in front of it, realistic decorations and assisting musicians playing koto, biwa or shamisen and actors in their kimonos, different masks and wooden geta; the actors’ performance which can be compared with the cherry petals’ flight.

Outfits: a peach pumkin-like skirt with the sad and happy facial expressions carved in it; a plaid blue shirt with four big buttons: the red star, the yellow circle, the green triangle and the violet cross; the pink ribbon on the neck; white socks and white shoes with ribbons coloured in red and blue on them. Kokoro looks kind of silly and eccentricly in this outfit, but yet she makes an impression of a carefree, emotional and open-minded person.

“Will you whisper to me?”

*shuffling a foot* Um-m... After a long hiatus I’m back and want to make some important announcements. At first, I’m so happy you still haven’t gave up on following my rp blog. Secondly... *sighs heavily* I’ll leave only Kokoro in this blog, so I’ll delete the other muses from here. It was a hard decision, but times goes and the interests change. Also I have a lot to do in the university, I have a personal life irl, and it’s hard to keep the odd muses here and work on them. But I still love them though. And thirdly, I liked Reimu recently, so I want to make another rp blog with her (I’ll give a link a bit later). Kokoro is my fave and a spirit animal, but she never grows up, and I want my character to have more opportunities to do things and understand what they are for. In conclusion... I’m not sure if I’ll be able to continue roleplaying here in general. I already said that it’s because of the features of English, but I want to try. If it doesn’t work, I’ll delete both blogs and will never come back

Erk – and now the professor was angry? Merry was no stranger to the experiences of talking to those who thought others delusional. She was usually on the receiving end - hence why she kept her powers secret! What other reaction was this lady expecting to receive!?

　 　 “I know you’re telling the truth -  　 　 it’s just not something you talk about with complete strangers!”

That, and if Renko truly trusted this professor, they would have been introduced a long time ago. But a few days time does not a friend make. Especially not one you told such secrets to.

“Science is not a thing which is “not for complete strangers”! It’s for everybody. You both seem to have a strong wish to reveal the mysteries of this world. The things we learned not to notice. Just like our heartbeat,” Yumemi sighed, “The professors in the university didn’t believe me despite I have proofs. I thought I could share my knowledge at least with you, since you are interested and so thirsty for it.”

@hashihiime @maeriiberii @freshholeinthewall @stagesgathering

The other said it should be neutral. …. but it still didn’t quite feel that way for Merry.

　 　 “??”

Now the scientist was gloomy? Whatever for? Because Merry wasn’t playing along with her ploys? (for good reason - it’s not like this one felt quite safe to be around.)

　 　 “I am fine. Renko is just running late again. Why?”

“I can do that.” And she gently took the other bridal style, flying into the direction of what the other wanted.

Maribel was excited and a little bit scared to fly. Everything seemed to be so real. Or, maybe, it was definetely real? Did someone erase the border of the reality and fantasy? Who knows...