Every inch of my body misses you

Your eyes looking at me, your hair strung across my face while I lay next to you, your laugh when I say something stupid, your smile Beaming through me while I stare at you, holding you in complete silence truly comfortable with each other.

I miss you so much

I want you back so badly

I wish things could have been different

Faded mind youth was old and the years were so unkind

I'm the one I face the change I know that stands before me

Believe in me cause I damn sure don't believe in you

I cannot deny myself my anger and my pride

I cannot deny another lie

Waiting to find another spike right through my hand

Faced with the infinity feeling distant from all

Distance was the killer

The only thing

My want for something close that I can have often is more powerful than having what was mine at a distance unattainable

Once? Twice? Third times the charm?

Maybe not when nothing changes

Every time “this time will be different” “I’ll change” both of us lying through the teeth to keep what we know won’t work working

Small little spurts of attention draw me away because they are closer and seem more feasible but in reality it probably isn’t what I want

It’s just something short with an outcome worse than the way I felt since our end

Nothing

My mind now forwards to necessity again

Not love not lust not want

Wishing it was different