R X C K S T A R

I am so so miserable it’s not even funny anymore, I’m losing weight, I’ve got a constant headache, I’ve vomited this morning... anything I drink is coming out straight away as tears, I physically can’t handle this anymore. Even though in the grand scheme of things something like this is so trivial, but I’m just not coping. Coronavirus doesn’t help, because I’d usually be out and doing things to keep my mind off what’s happening but it’s literally eating me up inside and I can’t properly function without wanting to just cry. I just want the old me back who would laugh over such stupid stuff, the me who was so carefree, the me who just didn’t care about anything. I’ve just become a shell of my former self and I hate that, I just want to be me again.