Oh! Theee Law!

Hello guyses,

So basically I’ve moved to @othilaodal.

I’ll slowly be moving my art and metas from here to there. But basically I’ll be deleting this blog soon. And in the meantime, I won’t be posting here anymore.

How do you get people to stop talking down to you/over you?

BG: Ever since I moved here I’ve had trouble with people taking my non-talkative/introverted behavior as a sign of stupidity. Yesterday I almost cried in the middle of a meeting because of my coworkers talking over me, EVEN ABOUT my own field of expertise.

One of them literally started talking about the client’s website in front of the client saying shit like “the UX is off” and pointing out UI issues to support his argument. And then turning to me going “am i right?” Now he’s my teammate, they’re clients. I wanted to be respectful of my relationship w/ both of them and I said “i won’t make a sweeping statement like that because if UX is off, UI will automatically be off and vice versa. So it’s a lot of little design issues, and i believe it can be better”

And he says “Exactly, the UX is off”

IT’S MY FIELD! He’s a financial analyst. I don’t speak about finances if I don’t know shit about it, why don’t you stay out of my fucking lane as well? 

He then proceeded to literally hijack the entire meeting, spoke for literally 2 hrs straight to the point where even the woman in the client’s team raised her hand twice to interject while all the men in the room spoke over each other including my teammates, both of whom spoke over me 100 times and hijacked the conversation away from me even when the topic at hand was my field of expertise.

It got to the point it became nearly impossible for me to hold my tears back. I just quietly sat there for 2 hrs seeting with rage and despair at my own situation. And now i’m starting to think i’m being too sensitive for letting it get to me.

At one point of my teammates said “Othila is our graphic designer”

I’m not a graphic designer in this team. I’m a creative director. After the meeting i pointed it out to him. I said “don’t call me a graphic designer. I worked hard to get where I am. My designation is Creative Director”

He later called me to say he didn’t mean it like that. But why do men in this country INSIST on demoting the women around them?! I know it happens everywhere. Please don’t let any desis lecture me about that again. (edit: desi self-apologism is a rant for another time) But I’m so fucking tired of being an afterthought, for being relevant only when i agree with the men around me.

So.... I realized I’m a cross between Abed Nadir and Britta Perry.

Aaaand I’m in therapy because I took medications for over a year for depression despite telling my psychiatrist that I don’t think I’m depressed. And turns out I’m not depressed (surprise surprise). Anyway, anxiety and pts. The therapy is really really good for me tho. Been going for a 3 mths now

Oh and I took up yoga earlier this year. Turns out I suck but hey! Still fun. Didn’t know you could actually feel your vertebrae literally.....leave each other. lol

I have watched way too many TV shows.

Also quit my job last year, worked freelance for a while, now setting up my own agency with an ex-coworker and a friend. 

Okay sooooooo guys babes, i think we’re gnna move to a new URL :3

I’m sorry. I’m gnna have to do this. I just....don’t have the time to go through 50 years of shitposts to exist again.

I did mean “erase everything” but....okay....

The entire blog is marked explicit and you can’t directly visit it anymore. So I’m just considering how I want to go about it next.

The handle has meant a lot to me over the years and I’m not very comfortable losing the content either so I really want to think this through but let’s see how it goes.

Thanks so much for sticking around for so many years. If I moved it to a new location, moved some of the older posts and artwork there as well, I wonder what that’d be like as well.

I don't even know if there're still people here who know/remember who I am and idk, considering if i want to be more active or shut this down entirely.