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wdhtd makes me lose my goddamn mind!!!!!

Where did my self control go?

Why cant I just not eat?

It's not that hard.

Why cant I get it through my thick skull?

Lentils

Oatmeal

All Fruits (except banana??)

Watermelon

Celery

Carrots

Honey? Make it make sense

Popcorn

Garbanzo beans

Tofu

Homemade soup

Gum

Goldfish

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Rewards:

115lbs - get eyebrows waxed

110lbs - get hair trimmed

105lbs - buy new underwear / bras / socks

100lbs - get legs waxed (instead of shaving)

95lbs - buy new clothes

90lbs -  when buying boba, you can finally get taro flavored again instead of one of the 0 calorie options

85lbs - new ear piercing 

below 85lbs - buy a bathing suit for the first time in four years :)

Motivation:

my crush will be happy that I lost weight like him

I will feel better about myself, even if it’s slightly

once I reach below 90, I can start eating more than under 400 calories

My face won’t have so much fat on my cheeks when I smile

Easier to buy clothes

I’ll be happier when I see myself in pictures with my friends and family

I’ll be treated better by everyone

People will notice my weight and comment about it, in a good way

I can sit on my crush’s lap and have him pick me up without feeling bad like I do now

Jewelry will look so much cuter on me

My fingers will be so small and slim

I won’t have to suck in all the time

my crush will want me more

I’ll be the skinniest girl in our friend group (even though I already am)

It’ll be easier to buy shoes without hating my calves 

Bolder collar bones and wrist bones

My hair will look like it has more volume

I’d have to get smaller sizes and they’ll still be oversized on me

rib cage <3

To prove to myself that weight loss isn’t hard, it just takes time

I can wear tight clothes without worrying how huge my arms look

To be called pretty 

Actually starting to love myself once I read certain goal weights

To have my crush touch me and me not worrying if he thinks I’m fat or if he can feel my fat

For my friends to ask how I lost so much weight and how I lost it, just like they asked my crush

My friends will think that me and my crush go together even more than they already said they did

To not worry about the way someone sees me while I’m standing or sitting

I can weigh myself and be happy with the numbers I see

To confidently wear shorts without my upper thighs protruding out

It’ll be easier to resist foods

My stomach will be smaller forcing me to eat less

My mom will stop telling me how skinny she used to be at my age

My cellulite on my thighs will be gone

I can stop worrying about food because my natural weight will be so low, it’ll stay there

To feel lighter

To weigh significantly less than my crush

To feel less shameful when wearing revealing clothing or bathing suits

People won’t hate me just because of the way I look

People will want to talk to me more

Don’t eat,

Don’t eat, you’re fat, you’re ugly, he/she never love you if you weigh this much, if you don’t eat this maybe she/he can pick you up soon, you control your body so just don’t eat, eat less, your thighs should not touch, drink water, look at what your about to eat, do you really need that, you not that hungry, you can go without it, think how pretty you will be if you keep this up, you can do it, put the food down you want to stop hating your body, right? Do it for every time you’ve cried over yourself, you hate what you see in the mirror, you can change it, lose the weight, you’ll be able to fit into anything you want, you want to be perfect right? Soon you can see your hip bones, and ribs, you will be happy soon as long as you don’t eat, so don’t eat…

                                          Still hungry? 

what are some safe alternatives to purging?

- make some tea with ginger, cinnamon, lemon juice, and castor oil. go for green tea or a probiotic digestive tea. it’s easy on the stomach and expells the food quickly and safely. a natural alternative to laxatives

- safe amount of laxatives. do NOT overdo it with laxatives, you run the risk of ruinging your stomach lining and posibly developing hemorrhoids. also, if you take too many, you’ll be on the toilet for hours, shitting and crying, this definitely raises eyebrows. if you have trouble swallowing pills, they make chewable laxative chocolates that taste halfway decent and do the job just as well.

- intese cardio workout. do lots of russian twists, crunches, blanks, leg lifts, and anything else that you wish. it doesn’t expel the food, but it speeds up your digestive system and gets it out quicker, while also burning off the calories you took in

- taking dietary pills. the prescribed amount. I cannot stress enough how dangerous it is to abuse or misuse pills. this gets rid of extra waste, including water weight and bloating, and speeds up your metabolism, while making sure your body takes in the vitamins it needs to survive, so you’ll get rid of the fatty stuff and keep the stuff that keeps your body running